The 'ME' Now

"So tell me, what's your plan now?"

I'm sitting across Lira, my close friend, and yes, my ex-husband's attorney.

"Plan on what?" I lightly put down my cup of coffee on the table and look at her.

"Plan. Your life. Will you go back to your home town, or rather stay here?"

Despite being so straight forward and sometimes sarcastic, all I can see is her worried face.

We've been close friends since I met her in a volleyball tournament our school attended. I can only say that lots of people are so distant to her because she doesn't fool around like the others.

That's why I like being with her.

"I'm fine; I still have the flower shop and-"

"But how will you pay for your house? And the other bills?" She is already pointing it out.

Sigh.

"Don't worry; I'll try to find a cheap place to settle. I'm sure there's a lot of apartment here." I'm also trying to reassure myself. For all I know, I'm still trying to survive, alone.

"Erin, you can stay at my place, it's big enough for the two of us. You just-"

I shake my head a little.

"Thank you, Lira, but I cannot accept it. We already talk about this, right? And you agreed. Plus, you already did a lot for me."

She pouts and all I can see is her twitching eyebrows.

"Ah!!! You make me feel so frustrated!!! I didn't count those things I did for your sake! Geez Eri! If only you accept that $2M from your dumb ex-husband, you could have been in a better place, away from all this drama!"

I just smile.

How can I even accept that money?

It's like accepting the fact that our relationship didn't work out well. And the "love" we felt was just a temporary feeling. I put aside that thought. I don't want to think about it.

I'm glad Lira is here with me.

She makes things comfortable--

"Hey Eri, why don't we go on blind dates then?" she suddenly suggested.

"Huh?!" -–or not.