Acceptance

"I'm here for your advice" Stating as if it was already going to happen, although it came out a bit weird as it is the first time she has tried speaking in her wolf form as she has never had anyone to talk to till now. Unsure of what brought the change to her he looks at her as if she as an idiot as she didn't think that he had an opinion, "And what makes you think I'm giving you advice? ". Feeling that he had forgotten something he chimes in quicker than she can reply again "Oh, and my name is Tiāntǐ wèilán lóng but you can just call me tian long"

"Sarah. You're not?" She asked coldly preparing to just leave and figure it out whilst also thinking that it was probably someone from another world must have introduced chinese to this one as his name literally means celestial azure dragon. Stunned at the fact that she took so much effort to find him and yet she was going to leave just like that. Just as she had moved to leave he burst into laughter from seeing the way she acts. Beautiful, Cold yet at the same time she has a hidden warmth and bashfulness hidden underneath. Finishing his laughter as she stares at him with a gaze asking what was up with him in the head. "So, what did you want advice on?" Finally asking the question he is slightly stifled at the fact that she couldn't figure out how to mix her cores and what the best way to do so was. Unable to hide his laughter at the situation he makes Sarah slightly irritated as she feels like an idiot, having had enough of the laughing she tells him to stop and asks that he just help her. Stopping his laughter he asks her "Don't you have your ancestral memories?".

Knowing what he was getting at she tells him that her ancestral memories are blurry and she can't get too much detail, the only thing she knew was that she had to mix her cores. Hearing her answers he slightly frowns as he had only heard of this type of predicament from his own ancestral memories. He tells her of her predicament of where thousands of years ago a divine beast had a split personality, he had a personality for his human side and his bestial side. No one knows why it had happened but apparently the conlictions of the personalities interfered with the process of going above Rank 2 as both the sides were against the other as the bestial side wished to still be accepted when he gained a human transformation yet the human side wished to be dominant and suppress the bestial side which created a fight between them which prevented him from mixing his cores as the bestial side would always interfere to stay dominant as the person/beast wouldn't have a choice as they couldn't yet become human.

Listening to his explanation she realizes that that divine beast must have been in the same situation as her, a human reborn in a beasts body. No she had to correct herself, a human reborn AS a beast. "Thank you" Sincerely thanking him as she had no clue that she herself was the reason she couldn't advance. "No problem, now you can go to one of the spare rooms through there until you have figured out the problem. Following to where he pointed she noticed a smaller hole just big enough to fit her mostrous frame as she was now fifteen meters tall and seventeen meters in length, nothing compared to tian long who she can guess is probably tens of meters tall and tens if not hundreds of meters long. If his looks also follow chinese mythology that is. Just before she fully goes in to the other cave she hears him say they can talk about why she is in this forest in the first place.

Inside the cave now she goes towards the center of the room and all she can see is black rocks everywhere. Lying down in the center she shuts her eyes as she enters her mindscape and all she sees is chaos as her human persona and the bestail persona fought against each other for dominance. Noticing they had a newcomer they looked over and saw a soul that had no shape as it kept shifting from human to wolf as both of them kept fighting for dominance. Looking at them Sarah admonishes them "ENOUGH!!, I have enough problems to deal with and you two are certainly not helping.".

Turning to the human side she tells it that yes she would use the human side a bit more after Rank 2 but that would really only be in front of others as she has spent so long being a wolf that being in that form has become more comfortable for her. Turning yet again she sees the wolf looking smug as it thought it had victory over the human side when she suddenly flicked it's nose saying that although she is now comfortable with being a wolf it does not mean she will give up on her human side as it holds her compassion and gentleness before the wolf side could even come up with a retort she asks "Yes she also holds my malice an greed but don't you also have your downsides as well?". Unable to refute that as although she holds her honour and pride as a beast she also holds the bestial instinct and bloodlust.

Talking even more she goes on to say that both of them have their good points and bad points that is what makes them complex as no being can be perfect so instead of fighting why not help each other out and cover your bad points with each others good points. Sarah goes on to say that although you may be different on a fundamental level you are the same as they are just different sides to the same coin which makes her come to a realisation. "Right, that's it. Why am I even speaking as if you are another person when at the end of the day you are what makes me whole. The human side of her that holds her wisdom, intellect and cunning etc whereas her bestial side holds her honour, bloodthirst and instinct etc.

With that revelation her mindscape changes and becomes more peaceful the more she realizes and by the time she is out of her revelation she realizes that her human and bestial side are glowing and are shrinking and turning into orbs of light.

Without warning the orbs flew right into her being absorbed into her making her feel whole which she hadn't felt in a while as no matter how she distracted herself she would still find herself wondering what was missing as she was either consumed by her instinct and bloodthirst or trapped thinking about her last life as a human (It was mostly the human part as she was subconciously rejecting her bestial side).