5 Sand Castle

I've never known what love truly is until I loved you. Until my world spun around and stopped for you. I never knew how crazy I can be, how far I can go, how low I can stoop until I loved you. My first love, my first kiss, my first everything.

We were friends before all these, but I have loved you nonetheless. I just didn't understand what it is, why I always put you first, why all I want for you was the best. We shared everything and anything, and talked and laughed. You were my complement, my missing pieces, the fill for the void that I had.

When we figured it out and crossed the line, my life turned around. Everyday the sun shone brighter, the world was happier and everything seemed nice. I was floating on clouds, even through problems and hardships. You were my wings, my strength, my anchor, my warmth, my home. You were my future, the reason for my past, you were all that I see in my present. You filled me with hope, with knowledge, understanding, maturity, happiness, with love.

But then came, one by one, the problems we faced. My lost, my insecurities, my personal demons. Your family, your priorities, your cheating. My heart broke.

I picked up the pieces, every single one, tried to mend it and save it, but each piece stabbed fresh wounds, poked through my fears, until I crumbled once again.

And I lost you.

And now we find each other again, in the arms of other people. We find each other again thinking, you hovering around, reminiscing, reminding me of our love. But alas, all is a lie. Nothing but words to gain lust, not love. Enticing me to sin with you, my first, to sin and indulge in pleasure. But then, what do I gain? A fleeting memory and a lifetime of regret.

I have no more tears for you, your sand castle has been in my eyes too long. Let it slip away with the wind, let you slip away from my heart.