Story of my Life: Not Admitted!

October 28, 2018.

"Story of my life, searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me…." I spun round from the left side of my bed as I heard my ringing tune, unfaithful by Rihanna and moved sluggishly to where I left my phone. 

"What's wrong with these people?" I muttered to myself, this should be the third call I'm getting this morning and it's only 8am. I reached out to my phone and picked it up and the caller was Zoe,my best friend right from my first year in senior high school. Actually Her name is Treasure Zoey, yeah same name more reason why I hung out with her. But we named her Zoe after her surname which means life. We were always inseparable, she's fair, I'm a dark skinned, perfect match. Well thank God I didn't ignore the call as I wanted to earlier.

"Hello babe" I say as I slide the answer button.

 "Baby girl, guess what?" She didn't even let me finish before she answered back excitedly.

"Hmm" I say while thinking, she must have been offered admission as well I thought to myself, I mean that's all i've heard since I woke up this morning but I don't say it out loud.

"I've been offered admission" she says half screaming not even waiting for me to guess again. I get goose bumps and mixed feelings Immediately I hear this. No, that's not jealousy, more a kind of "being left out" feeling. For the past 2 weeks I've been hearing news about my mates getting admission and now my bestie too. I'm truly happy for her , though we didn't apply for the same University. Nope, I'm not the kind of friend that will follow her best friend wherever she goes. It has always been her dream to study French and one day get to work in France.

"Tee did you hear me" she says, bringing me out of my thoughts.

"Oh yes babe congratulations" I say excitedly. "Go live up to your dreams" I added.

"Thank you. What about you, have you finally been admitted?" she asks caringly.

"Not yet but I will very soon, yunno I got a good score" I say trying to shove it away. Deep in my thoughts I'm already having these doubts. And it's getting me so scared. What if…? a voice deep down starts asking. No, try to be positive, another voice says. I will go with the latter, I don't even want to think of the former.

" Of course you will, Alright baby girl I've got a busy day ahead, take care, kisses" she says as her usual self.

"Bye love" I reply back and the call ends. I so much miss high school, especially graduation day as we all said our goodbyes with tears of joy in our eyes and went separate ways to start a new life. Each of us with our different ambitions. Mine was so unrealistic. I wanted the world, I still do, I won't stop till I get it, Smiles. I remember Zoe used to tell me that they will relocate to another planet so that I can have earth to myself. Thinking about all these memories we had together gives me a feeling of deja vu.  I sigh and switch on my data to go check my admission status for the third time this morning. You know anything can happen within a few minutes, I'm a believer. I say to myself while clicking on the admission status bar. I close both eyes while it loads and mutter all kinds of prayers I could think of, wishing for a miracle to happen. I so much want to get into school the same year with my mates. I slowly open one side of my eyes and take a peep. I see the "admitted" part and pop open my eyes in a bit of excitement only to see the full thing "not admitted". I don't understand anymore, I thought to myself as tears welled up my eyes blurring my vision. This wasn't the miracle I was hoping for. It has been "admission in progress" for the past 2 weeks and finally decides to change to "not admitted" when almost all my mates have been admitted. At this point the tears start dropping and I let it. My fears were right. I know it's not the end of the world, I'm only 16. I could always apply the following year but right now, I was too emotional to reason all that. I felt so sad the rest of the day and the following weeks. I didn't tell my parents, they had so much hope and confidence in me. I scored 256/400 in jamb. That isn't a bad score for Accounting right? . A friend even scored 240 and got admitted. Nope my senior School certificate examination wasn't the problem either because the following year I still used it to get admission.

It's November and it's getting close to my birthday. I'm also trying to get over the admission stuff and also preparing to rewrite jamb. Well, my parents finally found out. They were almost more disappointed than me, smiles! I don't like my birthdays. I don't always get to celebrate it. No gifts and most people don't even remember. My dad disappoints me the most. If I don't tell him he won't even know until that day is over. I don't know but for the past few years I've always been sad, angry and depressed on that day. Something must always come up. No matter how hard I try to ignore that day it doesn't always work out. So this year I'm dreading it as usual. So I joined this group on Facebook made up of young teens like me who decided to make the best of life by coming out to catch a cruise and crack jokes. I really enjoyed myself there, most times when I'm not busy I will go online and read through their posts and laugh all day. When I'm less busy and in a good mood I do post too but rarely. I'm this type of person that is scared to speak out, afraid of what other people might think about me, afraid to be judged or criticized. I can't just handle such. So on one of such days, one of the regular admins messaged me with a "hi". I wondered how he noticed me out of so many people in that group but it felt good to have someone to chat with.

"Hello" I texted back.

"How are you doing?" He replied Immediately.

"I'm doing well and you" I texted back Immediately too because I had nothing else to do.

"I'm good too. What's your name?". He asked. I used "Tee Jhay" as my Facebook user while he used "Nyx".

"Treasure," I told him.

"So I'm guessing the Tee stands for Treasure. What does the Jhay stand for? He asked again. I hummed a little and wondered why he was this curious and what he wanted from me. But then I thought, is there any harm in telling? Then I decided to have fun and go with the flow.

"Jhay stands for Johnson," I replied proudly. At least if there's one thing I love about myself, it's my surname.

"Wow we've got the same surname" he typed back with shocked and surprised emojis.

"What's your own name?" It was my turn to get curious.

"Dominic Johnson" He replied this Time with blushing emojis.

"OMG" I replied with a line of shocked emojis. Now it was my turn to be shocked.

"What's that?" He asked a bit confused and curious.

"Well if it may please you to know, My name is Treasure Dominic Johnson" I replied back so proudly with blushing emojis while blushing physically too.

"Wtf??" He texted back Immediately. "Are you being serious?" He texted again.

"Yeah yeah" this time I was sure my cheeks would start hurting due to the serious blushing. "But why did you use Nyx as your user, does it have anything to do with your name? What's your middle name?" I couldn't help bombarding him with so many questions. Seems I had gotten more curious than him. I was feeling happy too. It's been a long time since I had a conversation like this where the person will reply back so fast. They Normally delay the message which makes it boring. But this one? Was getting interesting.

"Aaah! one at a time dear, don't worry I'm here to answer all your questions, I have all the time in the world" by this time I'm sure if I was fair, I would be looking like a tomato. "I don't like my middle name, so I don't just like talking about it or mentioning it unless it's necessary". He added

"Hmm, alright if you say so" I replied Wondering what he was hiding.

"So you're saying I have a daughter?" He sounded so Happy.

"awwnnn, I guess so too" I felt Happy too.