10/ Neville

The hugest and the most frightening beast I've ever seen was standing just in front of me and it was a beast which belong to my best friend ! I'm sure he got her a long time ago but he just didn't tell me, I know it's stupid but I was feeling betrayed in addition of all the feeling submerging me right now, Before I could do anything my vision darkened and I fell on the ground.

I was dreaming, but it was more like I was in a pensieve filled with memories of my childhood years.

The first memory instantly made me cry, my parents, my real parents, not the mad couple I've seen all my life at the hospital. They are holding a baby, me, with bright smiles on their face.

I tried to hold their hand or touch their face but I couldn't, it was a great deception even though deep in my heart I knew they were not real.

I lost myself in this sight but slowly my parents disappeared, I screamed trying one more time to hold their hand but failed like the first time and knelt down feeling more powerless than ever.

Another memory came but I saw a baby sleeping in his bedroom, the door closed and I heard screams of pain coming from another room relatively far away from this one. I recognized these voices instantly.

" No !! Not this scene, I don't want to hear that ! I don't want ! PLEASE NO !!! " I said crying and screaming.

I was dying. Not my body but my mind. After 5 minutes of this hell I stopped crying, screaming, speaking, thinking, just waiting for the end of this torture.

After a time more or less the same than the first memory, this one faded.

I saw me 4 years after, a child at the age of 5, living with his strict grandmother.

My grandmother and me were at the hospital, I remember this day like it was yesterday, the day I met my parent for the first time or rather what remains of my parents.

I always wondered why my grandmother brought me here and I never had the courage to ask her.

Maybe she wanted me to know the truth, perhaps it was something else.

The memory stopped before I could open the door and see them, I started to wonder if this dream was really a simple dream or if all of this had a goal.

Another memory came when I watch me getting bullied by some neighbor's children who saw me as an easy target, it was not a good sight to watch but after what I went through in this dream i found this one relatively soft.

Memories of kids bullying me started to pass before my eyes and I have to say there were many of them.

Suddenly all of this stopped and I was this time in front of toilet doors, I didn't see me this time I could see with the point of you of the seven year old me. I couldn't act on my own will it's like I had to follow a script, the script of my life, and then he appeared.

Alexander, my best and only friend, the only person for who I am irreplaceable, the light in my darkness, he freed me from my demons, my fear, my sadness, and show me the good side of the life

Then the memory faded and once again I started to see memories of me and Alex passing before my eyes. Our day at the zoo with Emilie, one of the funniest day I had. Our summers spent in the garden playing games, exploring the garden or learning magic.

I remembered the number of times he helped me and the number of time I help him, I felt ashamed of myself, what a useless guy I am !

Then another memory started, I couldn't remember this one even though I knew it belonged to me so I decided to just watch until the end. Me and Alex were both in the garden when we decided to explore outside the limits, inside a forest, we stopped us just after entering in the forest, we were just 8 years old and even though Alex has awakened his magic, I haven't.

I remembered I was very worried about that but Alex succeeded to awaken my magic just a few days after the day of this memory.

Suddenly the two boys were quickly surrounded by a pack of wolves, around fifteen, Alex started to fight while protecting me at the same time but I knew he won't last long even though he could launch spells with the wand he borrowed he can't compete against so many wolves

He waved his wand and three wolves collapsed after being repelled against trees, the other wolves started to charge and he repelled them all 20 meters away but he knelt down after that and said

" I can't continue Neville I'm sorry I thought I could protect you from all threats I overestimated me "

Seeing the wolves charging again and about to kill the two boys I felt very worried for them even though I knew they will survive.

But I became dumbstruck by what I saw : Me, it was me who killed all the wolves, but I lost consciousness and Harry pointed his wand toward me and said " I'm sorry Neville I had to do that in order to awaken your magic, I think it's time to come back home Letha can you carry him on the way back, I have to heal myself." And They disappeared slowly

And then the memory faded and all became dark again, I opened my eyes and after a few seconds I concluded I was in the infirmary, Harry and Hermione probably carried me all the way back to the hospital wing.

Then I noticed they were both there taking a nap probably waiting for me to wake up. I remembered my dream, it was a really weird dream and I'm sure it has a very precise goal even though I didn't know what.

" I need to talk to Alex about that " I thought looking at him sleeping in a chair.