chapter 11

" because tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life and am supposed to be over the moon but am not because I know that I might not be having the woman that I love the most who is about to give me the best thing I will ever have " he answered holding my hands in his I rocked eyes with him " please babe I know I messed up but am only a human" he adds caressing my hands slowly I looked at him and I don't know what came over me but tears started falling down my face "babe...." James mummers standing up from the table he sits down on the couch pulling me to his chest I let him hold me since I've logged this for long I missed being in his arms it feels like home I cried myself out

" let it all out babe I know " he whispered to me and I just did that I cried and cried and cried until I was tired and I just fall asleep in his arms holding me

I woke up in the middle of the night sleeping in James's bed but I was really hungry since he was cuddling me when I moved I woke him up

" what is it" he asked in his morning voice I turn my head look at him I let my hand touch his face on his cheek I could feel small beards rubbing my palm he lifted his face to look at me and I bend down let my lips touch his I didn't move I just stayed there when he felt my hesitation he put his hand behind my head in my hair and moved his lips against mine I let my lips  memorize the beauty of his he pulled me towards more to himself his tongue invading my mouth I moan when I feel his tongue dancing with mine I pulled back slowly for air I could see his lips swollen

" I don't mind waking me up on the middle of the night to kiss me " he said making me lay on his chest

" am hungry " I whispered since I remember exactly how I refuse to eat when he asked me if I needed anything drawing circles with my finger on his chest

" I figured you would be hungry after come " he pulled me up with him I was in his big shirt " who changed me?"

" I did " he said as if it's a normal thing oh shit.....

" where is my phone " I quickly walked in the living room I fall asleep without knowing anything about Palma I didn't visit mom ... oh ... God my grandparents good job Leila you are very responsible James as if he read my mind he slow said going to the kitchen " don't worry I talked to Palma she is at home safe with your grandparents they were at the hospital with your mom I had my driver deposit them at home safe and sound " he take a  container in the fridge put some lasagna on the plate and he continued " and I told Palma to tell your mom that you will visit her in the morning you were tired you fell asleep " he put the plate in the microwave and walk towards me

" we can visit your mom together in the morning if it's fine by you" he touch my face with his hands  cupping my face in the middle

" thanks for doing all that " i really appreciate what he did

" you are welcome baby " he leans down pecks my lips " come let's first feed you and the little guy inside you" he pulls me I just laugh him off " you know it might be a girl" I told him

"As long as it's a healthy baby I don't care the gender but call me crazy I think it's a boy " the microwave dings and he removes the plate place it in front of me with a fork " ding in babe " he kisses the top of my head and goes for a beer in his fridge

" you are not eating " I asked him when he sits down with just a beer in his hands

" in the middle of the night am not pregnant " he takes a sip after I moan at the taste of the food it's really delicious

" so wanna talk " he asked me " i really wanna know if am off the hook "

" James you did hurt me you don't trust me and called my baby a bastard" i lift my head from the plate to look at him

" am really sorry i will make it right and I will apologize to the little guy when he gets here"

"I just want you to think about it again don't make promises today and tomorrow start to freak out again "

" I won't babe just give me this chance i will never make you regret it " i looked at him and I can see in his eyes that he still means it I smile at him"then I guess you are going to be a father "

After eating we went back to bed I was laying there watching at the ceiling James comes from the bathroom hovers over me and connects his lips on my flat stomach leaving wet kisses until he meets with my neck he sucked on the same spot am sure he leaves a mark there I just let him close my eyes and feel the moment " can I make love to my wife please I need you Leila " he whispers sucking on my ear slowly