SPLIT AND TEAR UNTIL YOU ARE ONE

-Peter POV-

I slept on the ground beside their bed even though there was another bed in the next room because i didn't want to be alone with my thoughts at times like these with all the rage i have in my mind, i might do something stupid that i would regret for all my life if i am left alone.

My sleep was ruined by the cries of a girl which woke me up but i chose to just stare at the ceiling as aunt may tries to console the girl as she tells about all the things that happened in detail including the parts where she thought of killing herself, those were some really dark thoughts and i understood some but not all of them.

I waited until both of them were asleep before i drifted of to dreamland where i come face to face with Peter Parker in the middle of a white room? World? I don't know.

All of a sudden i hear behind me "Maybe you should stop seeing us as two different people"

I turn around and come face to face with a floating transparent Peter Parker staring at me so i scream "what the fuck?"

He nods sagely and says "what the fuck indeed"

I look at him confused and still weirded out as i ask "what is happening?"

He looks behind me and says "that's our brain" as he points to the peter behind me.

I turn around and says "what? this?" as i swat the Peter Parker replicas head but i suddenly stop and hold my head as i felt like my head got hit with a sledgehammer, i look up to find the soul Peter Parker mimicking me.

"What was that?" I ask only to be met with a glare as he asks me "what part of that's our brain is hard to explain?"

I rub the back of my head as i ask "maybe explain why our head looks like you"

He looks at me as if i was the stupidest man out there "it looks how you think your brain looks like and with your apparent lack of a brain, it isn't hard to understand why you think i am your brain"

I get pissed as i ask "I don't remember you being this much of an ass"

He looks disgusted as he asks "Your like mud, the more i clean you the more you stick to me"

I yell in outrage "what" and he asks me "what you never noticed how you aren't as confrontational used to be?" I nod as he continues "that's because of me, i stopped whatever stupid decision you could have made"

I look at him seriously as i ask "So, what you want your body back now that it's better than when you left?"

He shakes his head and asks in an irritating tone "I died when you entered i am only allowed to influence you until i am satisfied enough to leave"

I ask in worry "are you finished then?"

He nods as he says "Yes, i observed you and saw what you did with uncle ben and aunt may, i saw what you did to make your life better rather than stay in your hole, i fixed up the few issues and now i have to leave"

I ponder about him leaving and ask "don't you want to stay behind and make sure i don't mess things up?"

He grins as he says "once i am gone all my intellect is yours so i know you will be cautious and the only reason i even stayed behind was to see if aunt may or uncle ben are in danger because of you"

I frown as i ask "what about last night with uncle ben?"

He looks frustrated and angry as he says "it's a fucking nexus event and will always happen no matter what because peter or someone else needs to be spiderman from this exact moment, the reality will do anything to make sure it happens but luckily our uncle ben only needed to be injured to make you spiderman quicker"

I open my mouth wide as i ask "are there more nexus events?" Because if there are i'd rather die than live to see them happen the same way again.

He shakes his head as he says "No, they aren't tied to the web of life so they can happen or can't happen it all depends on you"

I nod and take in all the info before i ask "How do you know all this?"

He points to my head as he says "I know everything that is in there so death decided to visit once or twice to talk to me about his stuff as there isn't anyone else out there that she could talk about them with"

My jaw drops to the floor at his casual way of talking to death before i could ask more questions he tells me "and my time is up so i need to go, take care of ben and may"

I nod but ask quickly before he leaves "wait what about your memories, can i finally have them all"

He yells back as he fades away "you will if all the conditions are met for a memory to reveal itself"

I yell out loud as he floats up and up and up "why can't I have all of them?"

He yells back angry "Because some are personal"

I watch as he fades away and i wake up from that space to the light shining on me as i sleep on the bed rather than the ground.

I look around taking off the blanket as the world becomes clearer with everything having a new tint to it. It looked like i was looking at the world with a different view in mind, i looked at the clock and thought of how each piece works to move the needle around it's axis in an exact specific way to represent the passing fo 24 hours.

I looked at the bed below me and think of how it can only carry the weight of 200 kilograms but when we add the amount of time it can carry that weight we can find that it carries the weight of 540 tonnes of weight, if that much weight is put on it for just five years. That all adds upto this simple bed taking the weight of 108 African elephants through the span of 5 years.

I am calculating about shit i don't care about because it would be cool to know suck things i stopped myself from doing more of it and instead focused on the important things like what to do next but before i could ponder on it my choice was taken away as aunt may yelled at me from somewhere "Peter you have to go to school, get ready" i ignore the fact that i am in a rich looking place and rush to the place where aunt mays voice is coming from which turned out to be a kitchen.

I immediately ask her "Do i have to go to school? i wanna stay with uncle ben"

She looked up at me from making sandwiches as she said "No you've been skipping classes too much"

I had to nod on defeat before i had my breakfast and asked her "where is V?"

She offhandedly points to the bathroom and i nod before i head over home with the keys on a taxi.

I take my books, change into some new clothes and go to school on the bus getting stared at by all of them, i ignored it as i thought it was due to the superiornerd channel.

I get to school and walk through the building noticing the pink around me but ignoring it to focus on something else i get to my locker and rip off a heart off of it.

I don't want any stickers on mine the stares only increased once i got to my locker and ripped off the heart and that's when i hear neds voice say quicker than eminem "Why didn't you tell me you could sing so goddamn beautiful? goddamn and who was the song about? some secret lover is she--" as he continued droning on about this and that, i was finally hit with the realisation that i uploaded a song about a guy missing someone yesterday right in time for today, which is valentine's day.

OH FUCK these coincidences.