Chapter xvi

Cheng's POV

I poured the drinks for us after we got dressed and sat on the love seat that directed on an open window showing us the stars that decorated the night. It was a nice view although it was not better than the view that was sitting next to me. Her cute pajama t-shirt made her look sexy and the way she put her hair in a loose bun was just adorable. I swear she was making me loose my mind without even knowing it. I watched her pick up the glass and put it on her thick lips wishing they were somewhere else. "Is it too strong?", i asked as i watched her sip her whiskey. "It's perfect thank you", she said avoiding my eyes. It made me wonder if she was doing it because she was shy or something was bothering her. I was no god so i had to ask. "Lina, is everything ok?", i asked nervously. "Anha, why do you ask?", she answered with confusion written on her face. "I don't know, i just think that something is making you uncomfortable that's all", i had to come out with it. "Oh! It's our first time being like this so am just nervous, i guess", she said sipping more of her whiskey.That gave me relief, i was starting to think that i did something or moved to fact.

It made sense, it was true, this was our first time living together. The thought of living with her made me smile, i imagined being married to her, our first fight our first kiss and the most important part consummating the house. Now that was what i looked forward to. "Am nervous too you know", i told her sipping my drink and watched her roll her eyes at me. She was not buying that. "Why is that hard to believe?", i asked. "For starters, Well you are you", she said. "What does that even mean?", i said laughing. She did too, the sound of her laugh was music to my ears. "You look like you can face anything", "I appreciate the vote of confidence but i would like to go ahead and disappoint you. Lina, being with you, this close to you makes me nervous, i am nervous because i have never felt like this with anyone before nor have i ever done the things i have done with you before. Everything with you feels right but at the same time am terrified that i might overstep and make you change your mind or leave me. Am going to go ahead and tell you that i can be possessive at times and i am the jealous type but you are an independent woman, strong willed which means you have boundaries and am scared that if i temper with that i might push you away. So yeah...", i felt lighter and had to take a swing of the remaining whiskey being sure to add more as i felt the burning sensation running down my throat. When i looked at her she looked shocked. "Cheng, i...i don't know what to say, i mean, i just, i think am on the same boat with you, i just didn't know how to explain it. After Tyler, i swore not to get involved in relationships anymore but you give me hope. You make me feel like i deserve to be loved like am special and am worth it. The day you accepted the meeting with my dad he came to me inform me as you requested and he said something that stuck to my head", she said sipping her drink, they way she took that swing made me curious.

"What did he say Cupcake?", i asked. She cleared her throat nervously, "He said that i was naive to think that a man would fall in love with me for my looks, i know he didn't mean it but it hurt, it made me feel less confident about the way i look, it made me doubt myself and that is why i asked you if you gave me the contract so you could sleep with me", she said taking the final sip and pushing the empty glass infront of me, i knew she wanted me to pour her another drink so that she could process the pain. We were half way through the bottle and i thought it was enough for the night. I placed my glass on the coffee table and pulled her up, i kissed her and she melted on me as my hands reached the two globes that i was craving to get my hands on for a while now, closing the distance between us, she moaned into the kiss making me smile. I loved the way she reached to my touch. I pulled back bringing us both to reality then led her to bed with me. "We should sleep, we have a busy day tomorrow", she nod her head in agreement as i pulled the sheets over us. She kept drawing patterns on my chest making me close my eyes and enjoy the feeling as it made me fall asleep. I loved how she fit perfectly against my body. I was going to make her feel like she was the first woman to be loved in this world, i was going to give her my heart and soul, tell her i lover her over and over until she could not tell the difference between dreams and reality, I was going to make her the center of my universe, i was going to be the man she deserves.