I THINK I HATE HIM...

Alexa

"Why does it have to be this new guy?" I complained while thinking about Alpha Walker. I was lost in thought so I was not eating. Instead, I unwittingly let the fork dance around the plate. I took a deep sigh before turning back to the girls who were laughing behind me.

Despite that, I am glad that my sister and her mate had finally decided on staying for the soiree at the Packhouse this night, and that was because other she-wolves on the security unit were all wowed by his handsomeness that they all refused to listen to me even when I had complained to them. I had managed to do very few things back at the office after Walker had come back to torment me with his words. Why couldn't he just leave me alone, why was he always following me like a fly. Why wouldn't he go for other girls in the security who were ready to even defy the mate bond and follow him? By now he should know that I am no longer comfortable with the way he is always near me, breathing down my neck.

The first thing my eyes fell on after I snapped off my thoughts was Gabriella's face, she had a puppy dog look on her face while looking at me. "Tell me, Is it very bad?" she asked me.

"Probably worse, even." I sighed and bent down my gaze towards the ornamented table. "I just don't get why he's been like that lately, the more I think, the more confused I get. Can you imagine that he tried hitting me!" I spat out before I scoffed again.

A look of sheer surprise fell on her face when the words left my mouth. She slightly bent her face forward as her brows arched and her eyes shot out wide. " He did what?! Hit you?"

I took up the fork again and poked at the button on my plate. I sighed and took the bottled water that stood right beside the plate. I uncorked it immediately and took a quick gulp. "This is getting out of hand Gabriella, it's no longer funny."

I was a bit annoyed that she found it so shocking that I got hit. The fact that I was assiduous did not mean that I'm wintry. Being a twin sister to Gabriella was not always easy.

Gabriella had always been famous and that was why I had lived most of my life behind it. Gabriella, unlike many other she-wolves here in the Pack, was bold and always sure of what she did. She had this cheerful spirit and charisma that attracted people to her. But beneath that, she was brave, ruthless, always read shit into things and seemed to care with the way she squealed at things. Her life had always been clockwork. But that was not my problem.

We were the exact opposite of each other. As she was the courageous and bold one, I was instead taciturn and easily frightened but gout a plan before extenuating the risk that things brought with them. Although the both of us were very different in many aspects, I was sometimes jealous of her qualities. Sometimes I detested my being always careful and prefered her recklessness. Those times, I didn't want to play the good, nice girl everyone took me to be.

I was already used to thinking too much. At times I imagined how we got split in our mother's womb. I imagined the courageous traits moving on to her while mine came to me and vice versa.

"Hmmm." she sighed and cleared her throat "I can't help wondering what he was thinking when you shot him down." To my surprise, she broke into a peal of mirthless laughter. I found this a bit strange but I didn't show it.

I guessed I was reading deep into things because of the way my nerves had been excited negatively today. Gabriella had never meant to hurt me in any way, but I guessed that was what she was doing with the way she constantly laughed this evening. Maybe she was behaving that way because I asked her not to pretend as though she cared. Maybe she just wanted to make me feel better by laughing. Thoughts kept running in and out of my head as I thought about Walker again. I remembered the look on his face when I rejected him. I could almost feel his heart quiver from the pain. It seemed as though his pain oozed from those beautiful sapphire eyes. He just kept watching me, perfectly still as a sculpture, his wide eyes unblinking and his mouth slightly open.

"To be honest I even feel kinda bad. Guess he was very hopeful that I was going to comply with his request. He didn't expect a "no" as an answer. I let out a mirthless chuckle as I cut myself some of the meat. I let my masseters work on it but I felt no sweetness.

"Tell me," Jan said as he bent towards me slightly, his prying honey-yellow eyes watching me "How long have you guys been together. You both seem tight"

Jan was one of Gabriella's tight friends back in high school. At one point, I had even thought that they both were dating. He couldn't make it to the Pack training centre because he was very weak as a kid, that was why he was sent away. But he had trained himself very well that he was now one of the most feared wolves here. That was also Jordan's faith. Jordan was sitting some tables away with his Rose, his mate whom he had found not long ago. They were smiling and laughing at some kinda joke. There were six people here at our table. It wasn't only Jan and Gabriella and myself, some of the Pack squad members, Susan and Derrick, were here as well. I have already made friends with them, courtesy of Gabriella's jovial attitude. 

"Since he came, a week or two after he arrived." I took in a deep breath and exhaled noisily.

"He keeps tormenting most of us with his hotness. Why would you even do that, Walker is so hot!" Susan commented lewdly and looked down at her fork to avoid the unwavering disgust on our faces, a smile creased her rosy lips.