76 Truce?

Jack. 

Shit. 

Lance is being a major douchebag. 

Why is he suddenly interested in having dinner with Patrick? He is fishing for information. I know that much. So much for saying I won't have any reason to see him again. I don't want to give Lance a chance alone with Patrick for fear that my cover will be blown. 

I have no plans of ever telling Lance. this is not something I want to even discuss. I am not going to take this as something normal. I am not gay. I have never been attracted to guys. I was vulnerable last night; he saw me at my weakness and that's what happened. I don't think about him in that light. I don't want to fuck him again.