77 Longing thoughts

Patrick. 

I don't really want to go for this dinner. I don't want to see Jack and act like last night didn't happen. It is too fresh, too recent and I promised to forget it all. It is not easy for me. I don't just go around having sex with random people. that might be the case for Jack—I don't know, it is not like we are friends or anything but it is not for me. 

Just seeing him brings back the memories from last night. I realise that I didn't actually hate it. being intimate with him. yeah, we were drunk but I knew what I was doing and it seems like he did too; considering he remembers it all. 

We were both lonely and we used each other.