Chapter Four - Let's Start Dating

"Great! I am now stuck in the rooftop with a maniac!" I said out of frustration.

Agad tinungo ni Warren ang pintuan and I stepped back. I don't want to be near to him anymore! He tried twisting the knob many times as I did pero hindi rin niya nabuksan.

"Can't you do something?" Sigaw ko sa kaniya. "Call someone to open for us!"

"I didn't change my SIM card yet." He said as he held his phone.

"What?!" Nasabunutan ko ang sarili ko. "Why is this happening?!"

"Don't blame me, ikaw kaya 'tong last umakyat dito."

"So, you're saying na kasalanan ko bakit nag lock 'yan?"

Hindi nalang niya ako sinagot at nilagpasan niya ako. Umupo siya at sinandal ang likod niya sa pader while nakapatong ang braso niya sa binti niya. He grew some muscles on his legs, it looks firmer. Wait, why am I looking at his legs! Dammit!

"If I were you, umupo ka nalang dito kasi mapapagod ka lang sa kakatayo dyan." ani Warren.

I crossed my arms. "Di bale nalang mapagod basta hindi ko makatabi ang isang maniac!"

He smirked. "Pag ako ang humawak sa 'yo, kung anu-ano na ang tinatawag mo sa akin pero bakit kapag ibang lalaki, okay lang sa 'yo?"

Natigilan ako.

"Ganiyan na ba kababa ang tingin mo sa akin ha, Dana?" He looked at me at feeling ko bumabalik na naman yung pakiramdam na parang na glue yung dalawang binti ko at hindi ako makagalaw. "Kung ako masusunod, ang tagal ko na sanang sumuko sa 'yo. Pero wala e, talo talaga ako ng puso ko. Kahit ilang beses mo man akong itakwil.." He pointed his chest. "Mas lalo pa 'tong tumitibok. I don't know what's wrong with me. I had amnesia after the accident but I never regretted it because I did it for love, I was okay and I thought that my life was perfect not until I saw your picture again. Everything came back to me like a flash. I remembered your smile, your gentle voice and how you treat me with care before when we were young. I remembered that I have loved you for a long time. And I also remembered how many times you push me away because you're disgusted with my appearance. That's why I fixed myself. Hindi para sa 'yo, kundi para sa sarili ko. I tried to move on, Dana. I really tried. I received therapy in the States, questioning myself why I can't get you out of my head every fucking single time! And now, I find myself here, nagbabakasakali na sana mahalin na din ako ng taong matagal ko ng minamahal."

I am really speechless. I feel like my throat is dried that I can't utter a single word. Kaya napaupo nalang din ako sa tabi niya. Is Warren telling the truth? Hindi naman kasi impossible na magsinungaling siya kasi he's always been honest to me. How come I didn't know that he had amnesia?

"Sometimes, I wish na sana hindi ko nalang naalala ang lahat. It's hard to live everyday carrying something that nobody would like to receive."

His last words were like a bomb to me. Biglang bumigat ang balikat ko sa narinig ko. Tears are starting to form in my eyes. Why is it I feel like it's all my fault? Napahikbi ako at naramdaman kong agad naman niya ako tiningnan.

"Stop crying, please." Lumapit siya ng kaunti sa akin at inilabas ang panyo niya, pinahid niya 'yun sa pisngi ko.

"I hate you.." Pabulong na sabi ko.

"I hate myself too." He sighed. "I hate every inch of myself as much as you do."

"Bakla! Kalalaking tao, emotero!"

He huffed. "Bakla ka dyan, baka magsisi ka kung mabuntis kita."

"Ew!" sinuntok ko ang balikat niya. "Kahit ikaw pa yung last na lalaki sa mundo, hinding-hindi kita papatulan!"

"Talaga ba?" With a span of second, nilapit niya ang mukha niya sa akin while looking at my lips.

I am enchated by the scent of him. It smelled masculine. Nakatitig lang din ako sa manipis niyang labi. Kailan pa naging matukso ang labi niya? Eh dati, halos hindi na ma cover ng lips niya ang ngipin dahil sa ang lalaki ng mga bato sa braces niya. Kaya siguro hindi ko ma appreciate, ngayon ko lang din talaga natitigan ang mukha niya sa malapitan.

I lifted my hand at kinabig siya. I found myself kissing him and he responded without questioning me.

Inalalayan niya ako sa pagtayo without breaking our kiss then he pushed my body to the wall. His tongue entered my mouth, sucking my tongue and lips. Hinila niya ang bewang ko at napakapit ako sa batok niya. My body is acting on its own. Wala na ako sa sarili ko. My hands went down to his chest, feeling how hard it is. When we needed air, Warren rested his head on my forehead.

"Am I still a gay to you?" He said while catching his breath.

My right hand reached for his cheek. Something came to my mind, maybe I could use him. "You know what forget what I've said. Let's start dating."

Bigla niyang nilayo ang katawan niya sa akin. Naka ekis ang mga kilay niya.

"W-what? A-are you sure about that?"

I rolled my eyes. "I let you kiss me for three times this day, Warren. I don't let anyone kiss me unless they're dating me. Kung ayaw mo--"

"No! I-I mean yes, I'd like to date you. Pero..baka nabigla ka lang. This is not what I'm expecting to happen.."

"Eh, ano ba ang gusto mo? Yung magpapa tarpaulin ka pa na may nakalagay na 'Will you be my girlfriend?' gaya ng ginawa mo dati? Napakabaduy na ng ganun, Warren. Ayaw ko ng magpaligoy-ligoy pa, if you want me then be my boyfriend."

"H-ha? A-akala ko ba ayaw mo sa akin?"

I took a deep breath. "Nagbago na ang isip ko. I-I think, it's time for us to give ourselves a chance. Eh, diba eto naman ang gusto mo? Na maging sayo ako. Oh, edi eto na, pumapayag na ako na maging girlfriend mo."

He raked his fingers on his hair. "No, Dana. Hindi 'yan ang gusto ko. It's more than that."

"E, ano ba?!" Aba! Nagpapahard to get pa ang mokong.

"I want you to fall for me. I want you to love me."

Nagkatitigan kami saglit. Parang gumalaw yung organs ko sa loob ng tiyan ko. Why is he making me feel like this?

"Okay.." Sabi ko ng bumalik na ako sa katinuan at para basagin din ang katahimikan sa aming dalawa. "It's not that easy, Warren, it takes time to love and it's not something na bigla mo nalang mararamdaman. So this is what happens between us, okay? Let's start dating for three months, let's give ourselves a shot. Pag hindi nag work, then let's breakup."

"What do you mean na hindi nag work?"

"If I don't fall for you within that span of time."

"So, this is something like a contract between us?"

Tumango ako. "More like that."

"But you are mine now, right?" He put his hands on my waist na bigla kong kinagulat.

Nilapit niya ulit ang mukha niya sa akin and tiningnan ako sa mata.

"Y-yes.." I almost whispered.

He traced his fingers on my neck which made me shivers in silence.

"So, that means I can do anything to you." He huskily said.

Napalunok ako at tumango. "Y-yes.."

I saw him smiled before he claimed my lips again. What is happening to me? Is Warren a witch now?