Chapter 27

I felt Cade crumble mentally as he heard he could not help me and I had to be with another man.

"I am going to be selfish and fulfill my desires from when I was human." I looked to all of them as tears

lingered, "I plan to marry Ivan and live with him starting in a few days. He and I plan to support all of you completely in transitioning to your new lives. He is very caring and wants all of us to be comfortable and happy."

"Taking you from us is the opposite of making us happy!" Collin argued, "it is one thing to limit our time together to keep up the image of being a human, but I can't just give you up to a full blood!"

I looked to collin, "I am already beginning to

suffer from the pregnancy. Ivan wanted to protect me from having my mate's child... so he made sure I would have his child instead. He saved all of us from a worse fate." I gave him a sad smile, "I kept my relationship with ivan a secret when we were human because I knew about your feelings. It killed me that I could not return your feelings so I had the truth. I am trying to find real happiness, Collin. Losing any of you would ruin that chance. It may be selfish, but I beg

you to stay at my side and support my marriage to the only being I have loved in 4 centuries. I made a mistake and left myself vulnerable to my mate. I was lucky that there was a way to prevent his child and find my own happiness." I looked to the floor as tears finally fell, "I know I am hurting all of you but this was the best choice I have." I covered my eyes with my hands, "it's killing me to admit this, but i don't want to lie to you! You are all more important than Ivan and always will be, but I need him too. Pregnancy for our kind is very painful and none of you can help me. I know you want to, but he is the only one that can. I want this child," I whispered. "I never thought I would want one, but I am already attached to this child."

I took a deep breath in order not to wail, "I'm so

unbelievably sorry. I hate myself for hurting all of you."

I was startled when Chris embraced me. I began crying harder as I squeezed myself to him, "I will support you. I don't like the situation, but my main purpose in life is to support your happiness." He wiped tears from my face, "I love you El and I will love this child also."

He let go of me as Luther replaced him in embracing me, "let me know of anything I can do to support you. I know I am human and can't do much, but you are my family. I will support you in any way I can."

Luther let go of me as Ty took my hand in his, "I want to talk to you privately, please." I nodded before following him to the door across the hallway. He led me to a bed and sat beside me. "You can't fool me, El."

He whispered as I looked to him with surprise, "the child is not Ivan's. It is his."

I began crying as I nodded, "I can't admit that to the others. They will be devastated."

"So the pains can be controlled by Ivan?"

I nodded, "we were not sure it would work, so I did not want to tell everyone until I knew if it was possible." I squeezed his hand, "he is a good man and wants to help. He wants to protect me from my mate and aid me through the process."

"I will keep this between us, but I will not trust that man so easily. I will support you through this, but I will keep my eye on him."

I hugged him, "thank you, Ty. I can't do this without you at my side."

Ty stood as a knock came to the door. He opened the door and I was surprised to see Collin. "Are you finished talking? I would like to talk with El privately."

Ty looked to me and left once he saw me smile sadly. Collin leaned on the wall near where I sat. I watched him, but he did not look back to me.

"Why have I never heard of you and Ivan before now?"

"I never thought it would be relevant, so I didn't bring it up."

"You plan to become a real woman of the pack? Marrying and having children with a full blood?"

I felt my emotions running wild, "if that is how you want to look at this, yes."

I watched in horror as Collin stormed out of the room and slammed the door behind him. I laid back on the bed as I cried and felt my world collapsing. I took out my phone and called Ivan.

"I'm so glad you called me!" He said happily, which

made me cry harder. "It didn't go well?"

I laughed as I continued crying, "they'll never forgive me."

"Do you want me to come sit with you? We can talk about what happened."

"No, I need to get away from this for a while. I want to go to the event tonight with you. It will be a good distraction."

"Although it is a hard time for you, I am glad that you will be coming with me. I will come pick you up in about an hour. I will have Angie get you something to wear."

"Alright, bye," I replied before hanging up. I suddenly felt ill and ran to the bathroom. I got sick multiple times as I began shaking. I could not even get up when I heard someone come into the room. They knocked on the bathroom door, but I was too weak to even respond.