Chapter # 18

Ester, punish me for my deeds.

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"I have offered my life to you Ester… punish me for my deeds."

A flood of silent tears rolled down my cheek, I didn't dare to lift my head and met her intense gaze. I cannot see her face but the constant reminder of pain and suffering was emitting from both of us. My breath mixed up with the sound of my pants concealing the loud cries which became an inaudible devastation.

I kept holding my hands, for her to do the same I did with her. I want her to inflict the sensation of pain in me so that I could understand what she felt. How heartbroken she must have been by my unforgivable action. I want her to hit me like I hit her.

I sensed her shifting close to me. My heart was thumping against my chest. She slowly sat in front of me and looked at me with such intensity that my heart lost its beats. I looked at her, my teary gaze met hers. Tears gleamed on both of our faces.