LOVING IS NOT EASY

The most wonderful, romantic, darkest chapter has been closed.

' Looking back on the laughs,

makes me want to cry

All the dark nights I had,

All the dark days.

The urge becomes ache.

All I had is not love,

just a tragic phase. '

I loved her with my life. If I had to die for her to live then I would have gave up my life in a heartbeat but, she destroyed it. She destroyed my feelings for her. I really, really loved her, but she is not umm, she 'is' the right person. But still this feels like a extremely toxic relationship. I am sorry Amanda. Our love was the only real thing that was left in my heart and now it's just 'nothing'.

( Amanda: POV)

I took my cycle and rode back to house. I promised myself that I would never shed a single tear for him. You were just trying to change me and look what you made me do. Life was peaceful. Going to school, coming back, doing my stuff, talking to brother, it was not thrilling and I never wanted it to be. I entered my room, locked the door and sat on the bed.

I couldn't hold it back anymore. I just let it flow. All my pain and love flowed down like a sad river.

I screamed in to the pillow and it felt better. I lost him. I lost Lijah. My one true love.

What did I do wrong Li? Do you not like me? Am I not up to your standards? How Am I supposed to love another? If I had to die for him to live, then I would have gave up my life in a heartbeat.

The pain was just too much for me. It came crawling up my body form the tip of my feet. I couldn't breathe and I couldn't keep my eyes open. Everything I did just hurts me more and more. Please don't go away Li, this isn't easy. You taught me that,

' Loving someone happens in a second but unloving that person takes a decade.'