Wishing it to last forever - Xin Lei
*Xin Lei*
I had enough of Bai Li constantly blaming himself for all the problems. So this was the best way to make him stop.
Even I was surprised by myself when I kissed him. But it felt so natural. It was involuntary.
It was instinct.
I closed my eyes and pressed my lips even more, even further and even deeper.
I felt Bai Li go stiff. His arms on my waist didn't even move even a single inch. At that moment, he was as good as a log of wood.
Obviously, I knew he must be shocked as hell. His frigid body clearly expressed that. It was sudden. It was unexpected.
But I wanted to let him understand that nothing that he said was his fault.
Sometimes words don't do justice what physical intimacy can. It's easy to say, 'Don't blame yourself' or 'It isn't your fault.' But now I realized that not every time it worked. Words are not enough sometimes.
A touch, a gesture, a kiss, a hug, a simple intertwining of fingers can express a lot...lot more than anyone can imagine.