Ch 0.21: Trial (3)

Happiness is the absence of sorrows and desire, a cocktail of emotions we experience characterized by feelings of joy, pleasure, satisfaction, contentment, and fulfillment

Some say to remain happy we need detachment from the impermanent things, Some say to remain happy we must seek the guidance of gospels and surrender ourselves to Allah Kabber1. 

Ji Yan saw Happiness as an art of cultivation derived from the function of our consciousness when it is awake. There is no need for Detachment or Faith. 

A person only needs two things to live happily in this world Authority, and acceptance of reality. This holds especially true for Ji Yan.

For Ji Yan to care about being happy was also worthless as happiness depends on the absence of desire, and Ji Yan was simply a force of a bottomless pit of desire. Without desire, there is no happiness for Ji Yan. 

Happiness must be taken for Ji Yan and this makes it seem 2nd trial difficult is difficult for Ji Yan. 

For Ji Yan to clear 2nd trial he needs to live a life without being under the influence of 4 great evils.

"Everyone Today's trial theme is Boddhittkara and Suffering." Monk Madara, The supervisor and exam taker screamed top of his long.

"Any trial can be cleared by me". A savage brute said continuing "I'm the only person who is destinated to come first today"

"Shut Up monkey," 17-year-old Boy Carl Leo Stien V, said to that brute continuing "This is not a place for you to shit".

The 17-year-old boy was the 18th prince of this kingdom and given his status the conversation should have been over but Brute was the 3rd student of Xiang Rus, Ruler of the lawless Island

"If I'm a monkey then you're an inbr.."

"Quite, As long as I don't permit, not even pin dropping sound should come out of your mouths" Ji Yan intruded.

"Oh Look who is it, It seems you forgot your place after coming 1st in...."

"I'm not suggesting anymore. Quiet. Anyone who defies my command will have their kingdom and family rinsed to the ground." 

Unlike Brute, Carl Leo Stien V knew the secret Identity of Ji Yan and decided to kill The brute despite knowing the risk of gaining the wrath of Xiang Rus. Carl didn't want anything to displease Ji Yan but was halted from it as he heard voice.

"Everyone, sit down and stay away from Line. The trial is about to begin" old man Gicchu said continuing "You all should soothe your mind or else you'll be thrown out of the minor realm of Suffering."

"Hey brats, Didn't you hear? This Minor realm of suffering is a replica of a place beyond hell, containing only ideas of suffering. Calm down" Senior Anu Anu Anu, Sect Leader of Lieutinentca Beggar sect said.

As everyone settled for the trial's commencement and took their places. Old women with big boobs and great ass rang the bell, a treasure that entraps any being who hears it in a minor realm and releases a mist that calms the mind.

 Ting Ting!.

"We meditate on the glory of Adi Buddha, representation of the universe, Tao, and its true nature, as a source of enlightenment and karmic manifestations; May He enlighten and illuminate our minds."

"We pray on the glory of that being, ALLAH KABBER who has produced this universe, Tao, and its true nature; May he bless and guide our minds"

"Help these children clear all obstacles and trials in their way"

Trial Begins!

<First life>

I struggle to extend my limbs properly; a strange regression into childhood. Wait am I regressing into childhood? Time moved relentlessly forward as I felt the progression of age. I now see my mother's swollen belly—pregnant again. I suddenly got a sister. A bond formed with my loving sister, a girl brimming with affection. She's a loving child, a girl, thus..

Wait isn't time progressing too fast and I'm forming love and attachment with people despite this?

the world blurs around me and amidst this confusion, I notice minute details. I observe everything like an outsider and cannot change destiny.

I'm experiencing a certain period of time and the rest is fake memories attached to me. 

 I yearn to turn back time. I wish to go back to my mother's warm embrace.

My sister falls terribly ill, and I am fighting desperately to save her. But fate leads us to a graveyard, a stark testament to my failure. I couldn't save her life.

I still have loving parents and I long for their love. No, my father cheated on her. My parents, once loving, now fractured and my mom killed herself in despair.

My loving dad is beating me every day and wishes for me to be dead. 

So this is the minor realm of suffering, a complete replica of space inaccessible to beings with Body form and only open to souls and formless entities, where all ideas of suffering are collected together.

<Second life>

I have been born in the slums, I am tending to my ailing and sickly father, a man I deeply care for.

We are very poor and can't afford medicine, I have no choice but to resort to thievery from the Villagers. I'm repeatedly getting caught despite my planning. It seems no effort to change the destiny would bear fruit.

The father would punish me by beating and marking me with burn marks.

After returning home Today, I discovered my father's suicide. In a letter left behind, My father told me that I was the reason for all his suffering, emphasizing that my mother should have just scrapped me from her belly before dying. 

Subsequently, I ran away and found myself engaging in senseless conflicts with strangers. It was during this time that I encountered, a local Samurai. an encounter that changed my fate. She took me under her wing and instructed me in military tactics, archery, riding, handling a spear and unarmed combat, jujutsu. Over the following two years, We lived together as not only teacher and student but also son and mother; forming a loving family relationship.

My skills flourished and joy was Endless but my happiness was short-lived. One of the Jealous Weak men but a strong Samurai whose marriage proposal was rejected by my teacher poisoned the drinking water in my home. Mother succumbed shortly after consuming the poisoned water while I was away. Upon receiving the devastating news, I confronted him but despite my skill flourishing for the past 2 years, I was unable to do anything.

My body started melting and became pulverized. I couldn't do anything.

I have understood one thing through this trial. I can't clear through this minor realm without controlling my mind. I can't act like a fool lacking in intelligence moving and doing life with 4 great evils Ego, Attachment, Ignorance Hatred.

In the real world Only through greed and malice can you win but here only by purifying myself can I win. 

I do not overestimate myself and always have self-awareness and hence have long controlled Ego.

I love material possessions and sensual pleasures but I do not crave for them as I know that everything is impermanent like froth, and comprehend it as insubstantial like an Illusion. Life is simply not equal, or fair, and is unjust. I need to be wealthy so I'm not crushed like an ant and I already know from my past life experience that sensual pleasure just leaves you empty. I love it but I'm not attached to it. It is pleasure not happiness. I have control over it.

I have always sought knowledge and lived life through observation and analysis. My current self has all the possible knowledge a human can ever possess at the current time after my brother. 

but hatred? How can I conquer over it?

<3rd life>