33 Chapter thirty-three: I love you
"Oh shit! Sherlock!"
I heard Cari's startled voice when she opened the front door.
I was about to go to the kitchen, and it's only 6:00 am. She pushed me to go with her in her early morning routine.. jogging to shake all the negative energy and mood I have from last night happening.
"Why?" I asked her confused.
"Oh my, Rian." she looked at me with an expression I couldn't understand.
That's why I walked closer to her as she opened door wide, and my heart almost dropped when I saw the view from the outside.
Alex is leaning on the stair's railing while still asleep. His jacket was on his side and his back is facing us.
"He still here?" i asked not knowing what to react. My husband was just outside of the door while I was crying my heart out last night. He slept outside.. in a cold breeze of the night while just leaning on a cold metal railings of the stairs.
I looked at Cari and she smiled patting my shoulder.
"Talk to him. Let him understand your situation."
I nodded.
"One point for your husband," she said before she walked inside and closed the door.
I am in the burge of crying when I walked closer to him and take a sit on his side. He still not aware of his surroundings. His lips were partly opened and he's snoring lightly. I restrained myself from hugging him as I don't know how exactly I feel right this moment. Pity, amazement, together with so much love I feel for him.
"Alex." I called his name while patting his shoulder. He didn't move a bit.
"Alex."
"Hmm..?"
"Let's go inside."
I watched him how he slowly opened his eyes and jolted out of sleep when he saw me.
"B-Baby?" I know he noticed that it's already morning as he look around before he looked at me again.
I bite my bottom lip as I smiled a half.
"Baby." his eyes full of regrets when he stared at me. "I'm sorry."
I closed my eyes and formed my fists to control my tears that I know anytime may flow. I can't believe he would do such this things for my forgiveness.
"Why are you here and why did you sleep here?" I asked blinking my tears away.
"I wanted to talk to you last night, but you don't want to talk to me because I'm drunk."
"But why did you sleep here?"
"When you closed the door last night, I asked Mark to drive back the car and I will stay here. I will wait for you to open again that door and hear me out. Baby, I wanted to prove to you how sorry I am. I'm really sorry. I know I promised you about this jealousy problem, it's just that I can't. Sometimes I can't, baby. And I'm sorry for not listening to you yesterday and for not following you." he held both of my hands and a lone tear escaped from my eyes. I tried to control it, but the moment I closed my eyes a loud sob escaped from my lips and it continued until it becomes a heavy cry.
"Baby." he pulled me to him and enveloped me in a tight but soothing hug. "Shh.. I'm sorry. Please, don't cry. I can't see you crying, please." he kissed my forehead, my temple, my cheeks, my nose and gave me a light peck to my lips.
But those gestures made me cry most. God knows how much I love this man, how I missed his hugs, his comfort, his care and his kisses. I hugged him back as I put my face on the crook of his neck. And as I cry, who would expect that I would hear the words I longed to hear from the very beginning.
"I love you."
I didn't move... no.. I can't move, and a small gasped was heard from my lips.
"I love you."
I heard it again and he hugged me more tightly to him. I pulled back from his arms and looked straight on to his eyes. I am not sure what I heard. Am I just hallucinating?
"D-Did you say.. I-I love you?" I asked not looking anywhere but to his eyes.
And he nodded with a smile. A smile that almost melt my longing heart.
"Yes. I love you. Mrs. Arrianna Angela Kelley Smith, I love you. I love you, baby."
And I almost choke on a half sob and a half laugh that bubbled up inside my throat.
How many years had passed that I wished to hear these words from him.
He cupped my face and wiped my the tears that still flowing from my eyes.
"I'm sorry if I waited too long to say these words to you." he paused and smiled. "I love you from the very first time I laid my eyes on you. I love you from the moment our parents made a stupid contract for us to get married. I love you from the day I saw you walking down the altar while smiling at me. You were the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my whole life. I love you from the time I heard you singing our wedding song in your seat at the reception..."
"You heard me?"
He nodded and he continued again.
"I love you, Rian. And I promised from now on, I will be the husband you need and --------"
He didn't able to continue whatever his next words when I kissed him on his lips. He was a bit surprised at first, but he never stopped me. He kissed me back with the same emotions I am showing with my kiss. He kissed me passionately pouring all his love and care on his kiss.
"I love you too." I whispered to him when I pulled back. "I love you, hubby. I love you too, Mr. Alexander Jonathan Smith." I smiled as he cupped my cheeks. He wiped those new tears that keep on flowing on my face.
We were about to kiss again when we were interrupted by Cari's voice.
"Ahem! 6:32 am to be exact from my wristwatch. Tsk.Tsk.Tsk. Excuse me guys, honestly I am about to jog but when I saw you outside, argh! I can't do it anymore. If you want, you can also continue your PDA inside."
Cari said with her both hands on her hips while having a fake scowl on her face.
"It can't be called PDA anymore if we do this inside." Alex fired her up and I laughed when she narrowed her eyes on us.
"Argh! You guys better get a room before the neighborhood can see you making out and doing your make up sex there!"
My face turned into crimson red when I heard Cari's words, but Alex just laughed at her and teased her by capturing my lips again.
"Argh! I hate you guys!"
We both looked back at retreating back and we laughed together when she slammed the door. He kissed me again after that and hugged me tightly.
"I love you."
He kissed my forehead.
"I love you, too."
