EPILOGUE IV – My beats…

I was on the ground where the wind blew. It felt like the wind was blowing from the ends of the earth as if it`s not shut out from this world. I could feel its force even with this body. Countless lights flutter about from the blowing wind and onto the ground. And the girl is standing there in the middle of all this. As the wind blows again, countless lights flyoff from the ground. The girl gazes upon that scene. This is the world I was born into. It`s kind of like a fantasia... that`s what I thought.

This world even has trees, grass, and maybe even stones rolling about, as if it`s natural. I think that`s how it`s supposed to be. However, what is this light? I certainly have no idea what this spectacle is. The wind blew again, and a single light passed beside me. I chased after it. It soon floated in front of me. I tried to reach out my hand. The light passed through my finger made of junk. Even touching it, not even the slightest thing happened. While I stood there dumbfounded, the girl walked beside the light as she understood. I pointed at one of the lights. 

She asked `What`s the matter? `I could not give her an answer.... Are you wondering about the light? I nodded.... the sky? I shake my head to say "No".... the ground? No.... just the light? I nod.... why is that, I wonder. The girl put her hand to her chin in thought. I wanted to do the same, but my elbow joints wouldn`t bend. Consequently, my arm remained broken in an unnatural manner. To the girl who`d always lived here, the light too is similar to the water and trees I know. It`s a part of this world. But, that`s the only thing I couldn`t touch.

 So in short... I thought that it was reminiscent of a shadow. But a shadow should have something that gives it shape... If so, I wonder where it is. I couldn`t find its source anywhere. She opened her mouth and said `In other words...`... the thing you`d think is mysterious is, as I knew, not a mysterious scene. I nod to her, it`s possible.

I look deep into my own memories. Maybe, in a distant past... Or maybe a distant future... I was in a different world. That`s all I could recall. If I try to remember, my heart will always be filled with warmth.... what kind of place was it? I shook my head, I didn`t know.... was it a place more beautiful than this? 

Absolutely.... were there a lot of things, and did you have fun every day? Probably.... even then... weren`t you lonely?.....She`s always spent her time here alone. I know this is a sad place, nothing is here and nothing fun to do... That`s why I was born.... I guess you`re right.... this is a sad world, isn`t it?... hey, you... didn`t you want to be born into this world? I didn`t answer ... I just held onto her arm. And that was... my answer.