What Have I become

3 years later waking up next to a stranger again, in college still sleeping with every woman who opens up her legs for me "ugh" shit my head hurts did I drink too much damm... I'll just go get some breakfast, probably she'll call me again like every time she feels lonely but I don't mind just a whole lot of whiskey and pills should do the trick, I haven't felt the pain in 3 years since then these girls on my phone are just distractions, keep a little bit of pills with me just in case, I hit rock bottom that's for damm sure but.. better than feeling that pain in my chest where my heart used too be, but every now an then I'll call just to hear her voice and how she's doing to be honest calling her is just a way to keep me from losing my mind , but never told her how I felt about her pathetic right I should've done something shit "I'm feeling dizzy is my anxiety kicking in now", nah probably the drinking I did when that girl called me last night, shit look at the time I got to go back home and get ready for work before my boss gets mad at me for being late