1 Feelings never spoken for

I should've told her at the beginning but now she's with him my feelings being bottle up for years now I can't take it if this keeps going I don't know what I'll do with my self damm it hurts seeing her with him I loved her since I knew what love is, but now I don't even care anymore I'm done hurting I give up feels like I'm selling my soul to the devil shit....fuck I can't think straight it hurts (crying) I can't.....I can't