ch 12. I got greedy and got burnt

The exercises I did for moving things and inducing change is actually easy to do as I can integrate them to my everyday routine.

Though they were only done in the privacy of our home, I don't feel burden by it.

Maybe because how systematic Nana's training was. I try to find my core to check, but I can't find it.

Whenever I try to find it I always end up seeing my Beast Space which is in my mindscape.

I asked Nana about my core, and she laughed at me without giving an explanation.

'Ugh! If it exists, it's there, if it's no, who care!' I left the topic alone since I can see my progress with my training anyway.

I asked Nana if she will teach me potions and occlumency. She set aside potion and asked me why I would like to learn mind arts first.

I know from her tone that's it one of her wisdom moments. So I think hard and answered, "Because of its obvious advantages."

She asked further, "For occlumency, what advantages do you think it has?"

I answered, "enhance memories or learning abilities, mind protection and emotional control…?"

That's the 3 things I can think of.

She sighed and explain," First let's talk about enhanced memory and learning capacity. Are you a nerd?"

Well, that question surprised me.

I reflect and answer, "No."

I mean, I enjoy reading but only about topics that interest me. Likewise, I remember my history class in my past life where I like reading about the events, but I don't like memorizing everything about it like dates, people with long names and every small detail.

Hearing my reply, "Then it is not needed. Besides, increasing one's brain capacity strains it. Especially for you."

I raised a brow and motion to for to explain.

"You are a High Human. Your memory capacity is already large. And that capacity won't change as long as you live." She looked at me and said," so as long as you live, new memories will keep pouring in. And one day it might just break."

She let me take a moment for that information to sink in, and then she added," Also, remember, you have your gifts. The Beast Space is already in your mindscape. You can't build lets say a library of books within it. And if you want to know about particular information ,Eyes of Siri can assist you."

'Oh yeah!' I just realized that.

Normal wizards want to increase their brain capacity because they have limited time. Time is something I have plenty of.

"Lastly from my experience as an Elder, some memories are the best left forgotten." She said that one with a stern voice.

I took a moment to calm myself then she continued, "Next, Emotional control. They say control but don't be fooled, it is more proper to call it desensitization. Basically, being numb. They tell that emotions are important in casting spells, yet they contradict themselves."

"You'll end up having a blank face most of the time, making you look unfriendly. If you want to have proper control of your emotions, experience is the key. Let's take grief as an example. If you avoid the emotions that come with experiencing a loss of a loved one, you'll have a hard time moving on."

'I thought back on the old retirees, my grandparents from my past life. Yeah, an experience that ended with acceptance that they were gone and realization that I must move on with living.' I took a deep breath.

Nana continued, "Now mind shield, this one I can relate to. As someone who has knowledge of every possible future, many want to get into this granny."

My lips twitch a little. That just sounds wrong.

She brushed me off and said," I actually have a shortcut for that. The question is, do you trust me, dear?"

Without missing a bit, I answered, "yes!"

She placed her hand on my head and said, "Close your eyes, open your mindscape and don't resist."

I did as instructed, and then I felt a warm feeling in my head. Followed by a bit of pressure, and then I heard the sound of windchimes 🎵 🎶 🎵 . I smelled the scent of burnt wood.

Then she let go and said, "Try to look into your mindscape."

I concentrated and saw my minscape with the Beast Space in the middle. It's as if nothing changed. I opened my eyes to ask.

She immediately said, "if you are the one looking, you won't see a thing. Your contacted beast will not encounter anything either. If someone else tried to take a peek, they will see a glass crystal sphere. An indestructible diamond sphere. And sounds of windchimes will alert you. If they try to break in, they will experience what happens to glass when it is cut by diamonds."

She smirked, "Let's see what those peeping toms in that death trap they call a school say about that."

Well, that save me a lot of work. Then I remembered, "How about potions?"

She conjured two groups of books.

As I check, I questioned if I asked the wrong thing.

They are cookbooks. One group for pastries and desserts, and the other is for savory dishes and cuisines.

She explained, "baking will teach you how to follow a recipe to a 'T' while cooking savory dishes teach you how to feel through the ingredients and how they interact with each other. You have money now, so you can do your grocery as well. Just a reminder, I have a very high standard regarding food."

I stared blankly at her and cursed at myself. 'What have I done?!!!!!'