Chapter 18 - Apology Party

"Are you really going to leave? Can't you extend the next two days?" sadly, I asked her.

She hugged me, "Stacia, I'm taking a vacation here again so don't be tragic there. I know you will miss this beauty of mine," she joked at the last phrase.

"You're windy too,"

She chuckled, "You have your own cellphone then there is time we can talk through video call," letting go her hug and smiled

I only sighed, "Yeah.. right.."

"Why is that I'm your only friend here? You're so poor, you're alone for a while. Aren't you and Raj still getting along like before?" she asked worriedly.

I just bit my lower lip, "It looks like we won't get along again. She doesn't even want to see me," saying something that hurt me.

Carla sighed deeply, "Maybe she needs more time to regain. We don't know what's running through your sister head," she retorted.

"I don't think so. She also doesn't have a sign to convey," I lose hope that we can get along together like since.

"Don't think about it so much, this isn't the day I'm going to leave. Planning to find a way until you can get on so well," she said conclusively.

Instantly, my face lit up, "Are you sure of that? Are you really going to help me?" she nodded, and yet quickly she came into my head, "What if she doesn't like it, what if she gets even more mad, especially when the result isn't good," I was horrible to say.

Momma thought we were good as before, but she didn't know it was just slowly disappearing.

I do not have the strength to tell her the truth.

Each day, seeing Momma tired because of work, there I lose the strength to tell the truth.

She's tired and stressed and always exhausted, so telling her the truth would be worse.

I don't want to put Momma in any kind of situation just because of me. I made it once, not gonna happen again.

"You always lose hope. You know in this day and kind of nature you must be brave and always positive because that is the only thing that can strengthen yourself up," I really admire her, she always has a word of wisdom every time I have a problem.

I'm indeed lucky to have her as my friend.

So the next day, we both planned how we'd do everything, starting with how I'd talk to him, and so on.

I'm nervous not because I can't do it. Thinking about the outcome, maybe because all our expectations are not going to happen.

That would have been horrifying.

Carla and her cousin, Flynn have arrived. They're carrying paper bags, that might be what we're going to use for the preparation.

Carla considered an Apology Party about what's happening. I already agreed because it seemed like that.

"Come in, why did you take that long?" I started asking them as soon as they could reach.

She put the paper bags on the counter table and went to the sink to wash her hands. Maybe she's going to help me cut the meat.

I gave her a chopping board and knife, moving the bowl in the middle of it, where there was some meat that had not been cut very well.

"It took a while because Flynn was slow to change like such a turtle doing other things to himself," rolling her eyes as if it was annoying with her.

I even chuckled. Why does men acting longer than women? Sometimes it concluded that they might do something strange.

While I was slicing the meat seriously, suddenly someone spoke to the side, causing me to turn around. I saw Flynn standing and saw the paper bag he was holding earlier — until now.

"Why?" asking him in wonderment, and I looks down at the paper bag he was holding.

Flynn smiled politely, "Because.. uh.. uh... where am I supposed to put this?" lifting up the paper bag in front of me.

I giggled at him a little, "Just maybe put it on the table,"

He nodded, "Do you need some help?" asking me again.

I shook my head right away, "No, this isn't tough for me and I can handle this meat. Hence, Carla is here to help me," I smiled so he wouldn't get discouraged.

I continued cutting the meat. I don't know what else he can do about that as well. All I know is that I'm just going to cook, that's what Carla suggested and told me.

I well.. I was going to cook all my sister's favorite dishes, therefore one day I decided to asked for help and learned how to cook these, glad to know that Aling Rosa was there.

Carla called her cousin's attention as she cut the garlic now, "Flynn! start blowing the balloons so we can just hang them later," she ordered, still cutting the garlic.

He was already agreed with his cousin. Then I must conclude that our preparation is going to be smoother, because both of us don't need to stress ourselves. Good thing Flynn are here to help, I guess.

But I wondered why he was here, though. Carla didn't informed me that Flynn were going to be included here in the plan.

I wasn't surprised when I saw him with Carla earlier. Maybe, a little bit surprised, but, it wasn't so dense like shock.

This alright, too, so at least everything is going go be much easier.

Carla and I cook as Carla knows how to while her cousin Flynn takes care of the balloons.

'Today I'm not all alone, because there are people who still help me get everything right,' thrilled to know about that.

I always hoping that this would be a great outcome. We're restless and planning it hard.

In fact, I don't want to hope, but there's nothing as bad as if I were hoping for it again, as that's the only thing I want to expect and nothing else.