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(A/N : yesterday I suddenly got hit by a really strong wave of depression and self hate. I didn't have any motivation to right but I still uploaded the chapter. Can the people reading this story please comment how you all feel about this story. It might help me, or maybe not. But your comments will surely be appreciated greatly by me, if you post any. Thanks for reading and maybe, have a good day?)

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"What do you think? With my face isn't it quite easy for me to get a girlfriend?"

As soon as these words escaped my mouth, Miyako pushed me down on the couch and got on top of me.

Even for me, it was quite a shock since I didn't expect something like this.

"I knew it! I knew you would get a girlfriend in foreign! You lier!" With unshed tears in her eyes, she pinned me down on couch.

"I am better than them so why did you choose another girl?!" She continued and tightly gripped my collar. Tears from her eyes fell down to my cheeks since I was beneath her.

Without saying anything, I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her closer to me. I hugged her tightly.

"Sorry, I was just trying to tease you. I don't have any girlfriend in this life." What I said was true since my simulated self were different lives and Aletia was never my girlfriend. From the beginning, she was my wife.

"But listen to what I have to say first, will you?" I said. Miyako wiped her tears on my dress and nodded her head on my chest.

"You know that I am the heir of shinomiya group. This also means that I will have many wives in the future. Are you really sure you would like to become my girlfriend even though you won't recieve all my love?"

Miyako didn't move at all and kept her head on my chest.

She is probably the most important person to me in this life. Losing her because I wanted to have a harem is not something I want. But it's a bit late for that, I already have Aletia and she is also the most important person for me. I can't lose any of them and I can't hurt any of them either.

After a few minutes, Miyako lifted her face and looked towards me.

"Of course I know that, baka. I still want to love you, is that a problem? I am the best wife among all you can get." Her eyes were slightly red from crying. She was blushing as she said so.

She was above me right now, but I got up and pinned her down on the couch instead.

"Then Miyako Shikimori, will you become my very first girlfriend right now?" I held her hand as I pinned her down.

It was a really quick shift from making her cry to asking her to become my girlfriend, but it's fine as long as it works out fine.

We both looked deeply into each other's eyes, she slowly parted her lips to answer.

Although it was very obvious what her answer would be, I wanted to hear it from her mouth. I still didn't tell her about Aletia, so I felt a little guilty on proposing to other girl. I will also need to talk to Aletia about it... Perhaps I should have talked to her before this...

"..." She opened her mouth but didn't say anything. She slowly inhaled a lot of air.

She looked really cute and beautiful under me. There was a bright blush on her soft cheeks and her hair were spread all over the couch.

"...no..." She finally replied that answer that everyone was expe- wait what?!

Before I could clearly understand what she said, she slipped out from beneath me and ran towards the gate.

"If you thought you will just appear again one day and propose to me, and I would easily agree, you are wrong." She sticked out her tongue towards me and rushed out of the room.

I was left on the couch, still trying to process whatever the hell just happened right now.

I rolled to the side and fell on the ground on my back.

"What the hell..." I covered my face with my arm.

My emotions were in a really huge turmoil right now. I was feeling many things at the same time. Confusion, jealousy, love, affection, embarrassment, confusion again, but the strongest emotion I was feeling was the feeling of relief.

The feeling was guilt inside me that was screaming to me to not do anything, was finally resolved.

"What the hell was that... Thank you..." I felt extreme confusion and a sense of gratitude towards Miyako as well.

I don't know why but I suddenly felt a really dark feeling that I can easily conquer any girl I want just by wanting it. Even if I could, why would that even matter? If a girl would simply get conquered by me, they are not worthy of being my wives. They also have their wills so just conquering them with one glance feels more like ordering a girl at brothels.

[Alert : Supreme being - Goddess of true love and affection granted you the talent : Beating heart (Black) for successfully overcoming the control of Supreme being - Conquerer of harems and Supreme being - Harem lord.]

[Beating heart (Black) : You will never be conquered by the feelings of hate or lust. You will be able to maintain proper composure even in darkest of situations. It has more functions but they are currently locked due to user having no Mind energy stat.

Note : This talent used to be the unique authority of supreme being - Goddess of true love and affection. Giving away their unique authority means you have earned true respect of the supreme being. Unique authorities are similar to core of existence of supreme beings.]

"Unique authority? She gave me her core of existence just for this..?" I had no idea what I was feeling right now. It was a really weird feeling of self hate and feeling like I don't deserve this authority.

Suddenly the door was slammed open and principal walked inside.

"Oh, why are you lying on the floor? You are fine, right?" He immediately rushed to me and checked on me.

Right... I am not some stupid human who would keep crying over something like this.

[Beating heart (black) activated.]

I don't have time to waste just by crying. I have more than enough things to do and responsibilities to bear. Let's get back to my work for now.

"I'm fine. I was just a little tired." I wiped my tears and stood up.

"Well, if you say so... There's some problem in basketball club. If you really are fine then go and check it. If you are not, you can take a leave. I will send someone else." Principal was worried about me but he didn't pry further into my condition.

"No need. I am totally fine. I will check it right away." I reassured him and my face returned back to normal. Maybe it was the effect of beating heart (black) that all the guilt in me was no longer shown on my face.

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