I was not able to think clearly a while ago. It feels like my vision is blurry. I am on the verge of losing myself once again with the darkness and pain. My sanity is just a thin line thread before I came here, I was triggered with everything I had discover from Viscos. Everything feels like fall apart in front of me. But when I saw Seviro, everything changes and I just found myself smiling because I realize that he was there for me. Although it feels like everyone turn their back on me, he was there.
I thought I have to gather another tons of courage, motivation and strength that will untangled the knot of self's mess. But ironically, just seeing Seviro everything get back again from where it was as if nothing change though the heaviness inside my heart is still there. The loneliness and sadness went back in the corner waiting to swallow me whole just like a while ago.