two

"go out there and give it all you've got. whatever happens, leave it on the stage." soobin encourages the others as they put their hands in the middle of their circle.

"1,2,3 fighting!"

they made their way to the stage, full of excitement and nerves. yeonjun could feel his body shaking and sweating already. he's done this a lot but for some reason this time seemed to be getting to him. sure he's always a little bit nervous but right now was different. his body was shaking and sweating, his throat felt tight, his eyes were watery and his head was dizzy.

he didn't let it affect him during the stage and from the looks of it he did well. he sang and danced as best as he could and, for a small bit, he almost forgot about his nerves. that was until the stage ended and he was hit with a wave of anxiety, harder than before.

as the we're changing in the dressing room, beomgyu saw yeonjun's face go pale and start crying.

"hyung, what happened? are you okay?" he asked as he sat next to the male.

yeonjun couldn't answer as his breathing started to become uneven.

let me out! i want to get out hyung, please!

LET ME OUT! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

"i think yeonjun hyung is having a panic attack!" beomgyu yelled as he stared at his best friend. soobin picked up the eldest, "kai go get the manager and tell him to bring the van around back, taehyun call taehyung hyung, beomgyu help me get junnie to the back entrance."

the boys did as the were told, beomgyu grabbed an extra ice pack and put it on yeonjun's neck, "this always helps my sister when she has an attack. hyung i need you to focus on the coldness of the ice, can you do that for me?"

yeonjun slightly nodded his head as he focused on the compress.

the boys sat in the living room of their dorm waiting for yeonjun to wake up. after they had calmed him down, he had fell asleep from exhaustion. all of them were worried about their friend but they knew he needed rest after what had happened.

"do you know what could have caused it?" taehyun asked soobin as they sat on the couch.

"i really don't know," soobin replied while in thought, "he has been acting weird lately."

kai cocked his head to the side in confusion, "what do you mean?"

"he has been spacing out a lot, especially when he's doing things. haven't you noticed?" soobin said as he looked at the boys. they all shrugged, of course they didn't notice. they aren't like soobin, the don't notice every little detail about yeonjun.

soobin sighed before getting up to check on the sleeping boy. he opened the door a crack and peeked in. yeonjun was sat up in his bed, staring at the comforter on him. the same blank stare he wore the day before in the practice room and in the van.

soobin knocked softly on the door before opening it fully, "hyung?"

yeonjun snapped out of his trance but it was different this time. a look of confusion and fear spread across his face as he looked at his surroundings.

"w-where am i? who a-are you?" yeonjun asked as he pushed himself against the headboard. soobin walked in the room and sat on the end of the bed.

"don't mess around yeonjun hyung."

"i'm not yeonjun," the boy said as he kept his back pressed, "my name is juju."

now was soobin's turn to be confused, "juju?"

yeonjun's face faltered for a moment, "you're soobinnie hyung, aren't you?"

soobin nodded hesitantly, not fully grasping what was happening. juju slowly relaxed as a shy smile appeared on his face.

"i never thought i'd get to meet you hyung," juju said as a blush spread across his cheeks, "yeonjunnie hyung doesn't let me out."

realization hit soobin, this is an alter. he had read about this sort of thing when he was doing a research paper on mental illnesses back in high school.

"juju, are there others?" soobin asked gently.

the boy nodded happily, "mhm! there's five of us so far, but daniel hyung doesn't want yeonjunnie to know about all of us yet."

juju what are you doing? he can't know about us!

juju you're going to put us in danger!

let me through.

"ah i..." juju started before closing his eyes and putting his hand to his forehead, "i go now."

his face went blank as he stared at the comforter. after a few seconds he blinked his eyes and looked up at soobin.

"you can't let yeonjun know about us," the boy spoke with a hardened look, "he isn't ready to know about all of us and juju is the first to be shown."

the boy paused and stared at soobin's face, "you're the boy yeonjun thinks about a lot, soobin right?"

a bright blush took over soobin's cheeks, "he thinks of me?"

the boy scoffed, "thinks about you is an understatement. you basically run his life dude."

soobin smiles brightly at the thought of his best friend and love of his life constantly thinking about him.

"you're cute but you aren't my type," the boy spoke as he got out of the bed heading to the mirror, "the name's daniel by the way. i know juju mentioned me earlier so i thought i'd introduce myself."

soobin didn't know whether to be offended or not after that comment. he watched as daniel looked at his appearance in the mirror before waltzing to the closet.

"what are you doing?" he asked after daniel fully disappeared into the closet.

"yeonjun looks too cute for me with this pink sweater and blue shorts! i need something darker." daniel yelled back.

soobin laughed as he stood up and walking to the door, "well i'm going back into the living room with the boys. don't worry about yeonjun finding out."

and with that soobin walked out the door, closing it softly. daniel emerged out of the closet with a hoodie in hand, speaking softly to himself.

"you picked a good one yeonjun."