Chapter 61: Saying Yes

[ Autumn P.O.V ]

I've been feeling like my confidence I've been slowly building up till is good and all, but I confided in Jay and Liz trying to ask what can I do. Because right now, I don't know if..my confidence I've gained back is going to help me when I face wanting to say yes to Leo. To us having sex again since the last time before all the crazy shit hit the fan.

Liz asked " Have you tried wearing more fitting clothes that you like and go out in them? If it's about your image of your body or feeling comfortable in your body that's always a good place to start. " I answered quietly feeling lost on what to do and a little desperate at this point

" I have tried that, and I like the confidence and all, but I'm afraid that Leo seeing me in those clothes make things harder on him. " then Jay said calmly " Well, of course it would. The outfits you wear make you look really cute, so of course he'd notice. " " Okay, then you could always try to go to a store with us. Like maybe Victoria Secret? " The meer thought left me flustered and my face turning red

" N-No way! The meer thought of taking a step through the store entrance. It's going to be me being struck down in flames of shame and embarrassment to where I'd rather collapse right there on the floor. " Liz for once agreed with Jay saying her blue eyes holding empathy

" I understand, but those kinds of clothes aren't just for sex or anything. It's also about wearing something that highlights those qualities. To appreciate your body and is supposed to make you see that you're beautiful. " It made more sense than I thought it would.

After a while, I went out to the mall in my outfit of a black skirt and long sleeved black shirt and black boots. But when I stopped in front of the Victoria Secret store. I felt myself feeling uncomfortable with the thought of someone talks to me in there I know what they might be thinking about me. Like I'm buying things to show dirty laundry every time I'd try on something.

I decided to calm down and take a deep breath and walked in and decided not to get help from anyone so I can have my own privacy and I won't have to be too focused on other people. I hated when some girl asked what I had in mind to try on. I practically ran away from her and was playing hide away. Everything there was either revealing, to very revealing to, WOW I'm blind!!

The prices were expensive too and I was asking myself so many times if I should buy anything or if buying anything and wearing them in our bedroom when Leo's away would even help? I thought I guess it couldn't hurt to try to get one simple one.

I remember how happy and excited we'd get leading up to wanting sex. Just teasing the other and the little things that I feel has changed. Before I remembered how I enjoyed his hands squeezing and rubbing up my thigh all the way up my sides. Feeling the anticipation of him getting close to my chest and the feeling of how anxious I'd get to feel the warmth from his body through his hands seep into me.

I feel the same warmth of course and feeling of comfort in his very presence but there's still things that have changed but I suppose it is to be expected.

[ Third Person P.O.V ] [ Time Skip ]

Autumn bought some smooth silk lace black strap dress that went only barely half way to mid thigh that feels silky smooth and puts it on. Leo says standing in front of the bed saying how he has been getting the rebels and paperwork done and how it's stressful. Then she stands there behind him in that outfit trying to remember any confidence she had built up till now as she hugs him from behind wrapping her arms around his big chest.

She says trying to sound seductive, " I know a way for us to try and blow off steam. " He turns around and sees what she's wearing it makes her look sexy, as her intent. Along with giving her any confidence in how she is and how she looked and one look of her in it makes his eyes go pitch black as he growls low and long.

His heart was pounding like crazy as he said under his breath " Damn. " he thinks she's the most fucking gorgeous woman he's ever seen and the dress only made her look even more fucking hot.

He then quickly started to kiss her passionately harder as he started to let his wolf take full control as he felt her kissing back. His hands holding her face and shoulder in the process. He moved his lips down her neck and attempted to nibble her skin as he got to her collar and cleavage. She arched her back for him to proceed to kiss her chest above the gown. His hands rolled up and down her sides taking in his mate's body in it's splendor.

He quickly breaks away and asks, barely able to keep himself from panting,

" Is this really alright? " as he hovered above her lips trying his hardest not to move his fingertips from touching thighs and the rim of the gown. He was fighting his wolf and worries that something could go wrong and would have to stop. She says it was alright since she's trying to get used to this again, and that lets him flopped her on the bed gently, attacking her neck heatedly. As he traced his hands on her curves as he said gasping in short breaths leaning over her

" I missed you, and I'm not going to let that happen again. " She could always hear sincerity and a little sadness in his voice. But he'd still say sweet things so she didn't worry for too long,

" Gorgeous. I love you, Autumn." " My lover... " he started to ravage her which was what she wanted, to give herself to him to have a break from his stress and to push past what her mind was keeping her from doing. But memories of how this was before came to mind.

Like when she'd wear her jean pants during the day and would fool around with him once everything from work was out of the way. How when she'd feel a small bit of anticipation at his hand rubbing against the jeans just bellow her zipper. How an unexpected thrill filled her stomach at the release was created by unbuttoning the button of her pants. It growing as he'd either slowly pull the zipper down or quickly trying to slip her pants off her hips. The feeling when he'd finger her was enough in itself for her to moan for him.

But since what had happened. All they've managed to do is fool around but she recognized that each time he'd touch the rim of her pants and undid her button. She'd feel herself take a sharp breathe that was uneasy and once he slowly undid her zipper all she felt was anxiety and unease.

She also wanted this because after what happened it took a while for her to want to have sex again for so long. She wanted him to love her as she got to be reminded she wanted this so badly because of how much she loves him and wanted to experience being close again. The joy that came with knowing she wasn't alone or going to feel alone with Leo ever. But then..

She started to feel his body starting to lean too close over her. This made her panic at the fear of someone big on top of her, trapping her with no way out barely able to breath at all. Leo stopped and looked at her frantic shouting as she was starting to flail her arms and hands scared.

" Hey, hey, what is it? " Then when he sat up off of her near her legs as she laid down and stopped yelling and flailing. She started to cover her eyes with the outside backs of her hands and wrists crossed she started to sob in frustration and embarrassment at how she still couldn't do it even though she wants to, as her cheeks became pink. Her knees were pulled up close to her stomach as Leo watched saddened by her state and clenching his jaw having to endure the sight.

It took a little while of her refusing to look in his eyes with the pained puffy eyes of hers. Then suddenly he moves to lay down on his back to the left of her. Then she stops and moves her left arm to see at what made the vibrations. She sees him laying down and holding his right hand out to her looking at her from the corner of his eyes saying softly understanding that he might be too much for her.

" That's alright. I don't have to be over you if that's too much for you right now. Come on, over here, my little one. " she starts to sniffle and sit up rubbing her eyes of the tears. She starts to coyly move on top of him and takes his hands lacing their fingers together. She starts to loosen her grip as she starts to lay on him leaning to move her lips down onto his just hovering above him.

[ Autumn P.O.V ]

I gently started to kiss him slowly feeling happy that he was understanding how hard my situation is when I want to be with him. He slowly started to kiss back cautiously as I realized I still had tears being held in my eyes but this time out of happiness. Before when he plopped me on the bed and it stilled I felt a little scared with how he smiled widely once our eyes met. It was intimidating but I feel better. Even before I met him I was lead to believe he was someone else, but..he had shown me from day one that he was different. That I could put my trust in him, and that he was different.

We started to make out a little roughly after a while as he laid on the bed pulling me down with him. I felt myself grasping onto him with my hands on his chest as I felt my body rested on top of his much bigger one. I felt his right arm on my lower back holding me closer to him. He asked as we were catching our breaths

" You okay? " My face was a mess but I did find his hold on my neck being very pleasant. I said carefully trying to calm my mind that was slowly starting to pick up pace at an increasing rate, " Yeah, I'm just...a little overwhelmed is all. " he chuckled lightly at this and said lowly

" How cute~" My right leg hung off to the side dangling as I felt him pull away from my lips as he started to roughly attack down my neck from bellow me. I felt startled by how calm and long he was kissing my neck. He was calm but also seemed very heated. I started to feel anxious as those thoughts started to flood my mind causing me to moan slightly " L-Leo..." he said hushed, " You're thinking too much baby. " he started to kiss more intensely saying calmly

" Just relax.." I shouted in my mind groaning at his attention ' If only it was that easy! ' When we first did this. When he laid me down on this bed. My mind was like a nonstop storm of thoughts and worries but I trusted, and..I had faith in Leo. I knew I could trust him to know roughly what to do and would check in with me. After we were done he told me he was amused when he herd once he slipped inside me that I made a very noticeable gasp and my breathing hitched for a quick second. I rolled my eyes and blushed at the time but didn't notice the other times it happened.

But now, all that's coming back again. His are always so soft and I know he's been more than patient with me and the situation. But the fear and everything makes me remember exactly why I'm afraid. I'm afraid of being unable to have a voice or speak. To be in a bed with someone who is in control and my feelings go unheard. To feel like I did with Alpha Andrews.

Like an entitled animal found a new inflating sex toy with " mate " being the label he added to justify my silence and pain. But these things would flash back in my mind causing everything I tried to forget to bubble up in my mind. After a bit, I found myself slowly started to forget before I start crying again. I moved trying to pull out of his hold and away from feeling suffocated and to calm down. He made sure to ask if I was okay but I made it clear I wanted to focus on kissing for now and build up my confidence. He understood well enough.

I moaned at his touch as I felt his left hand on my right leg as he moved it up towards my thigh sliding his hand under the dress, making my moans more noticeable as I felt his hand tracing my underwear. I felt him starting to kiss along my collar but I moved my hands to his neck as I started to give pecks on his face as I started to do his lips again as I pulled back to do so. That was when I felt him starting to move one of my straps down off my shoulder as it slid off. Every action he did had my blood moving so fast and I could feel my blood was burning like liquid fire. I felt the words slip out of my mouth

" Take me.." He froze and so did his body almost like a hick up as he started to tense up and asked pulling me closer to his face with a small smirk that didn't hide his surprise " Say that for me again.. " he asked hushed with a slight bit of urgency.

The words escaped my mouth a second time I said it close to his ear as I lightly tugged at it in a small bite.

" Take me.." as he herd this it took him completely over the edge as he started to pull my underwear off he started to breath heavily as he started to kiss and bite down on my neck. Not going to miss the mark. He started to try and slide my dress off leaving only a black bra on.

I think he remembered Alpha Andrews scent over my mark from when he'd attempt to mark me. Because he tensed up like something was wrong. Then he bit down harder than he usually would on where my mark was. I winced out loudly but I could feel him apologize for being too rough.

And as he'd licked me as I kept wincing at the pain as I felt him trying to force all his strength into holding me by my hips still. He was a complete animal now and I felt myself starting to take and do whatever he wanted from me still a little nervous. I tried to press myself as close to him as I could and felt my hands gripping at his body as I felt myself starting to kiss and rub myself against him. He kissed and touched wherever he'd like trying to work with being bellow me.

I wished that I'd feel this small bit of control that makes me want him to be closer to my body as I leaned my chest against him harder. He'd even started to get a little controlling when I was trying to catch my breath or would try and calm him down when he's starting to want to slide my bra straps and underwear off of me. I moved my hands all over his muscular toned body and I felt the heat from his skin as I wanted him closer. I held the thighs of my legs tightly around his pelvis trying to hold him straddling what I could. All he was wearing was some tight boxers which made my wolf very hungry at having free range of all his exposed body.

I waited for his next move only to hear him say from above me " Patience, we have time to fool around before we get down to it. " He wasn't angry or disappointed in me or where I was and I felt better, but I started to enjoy the little tentative things he did first. Like helping taking off my bra and being sincere with every word he said as he tried to make me feel more comfortable.

[ Leo P.O.V ]

I can tell she doesn't seem to know what to do being on top. I understood that, but I wanted to know how she has been doing so well. I felt her taking all my logic as it was disappearing I started to feel my blood rushing as her fresh and clean scent filled my senses. As it fueled my hunger. It's so strong that I could taste her, as my eyes trailed over her soft supple body. It makes me all the more want to taste and devour her. But then I looked at her lips that were rosey and soft. An image of her lips around my cock was driving me and my wolf crazy. ' What if she sucks us dry? Would she be open to it? Would she freak out if I pulled her near my crotch? ' ' Okay, stop, at this point we have got to stop thinking things like that now. '

I moved my mouth down from her neck starting to want to suck on her chest as I felt my wolf trying to bite at her and take my time enjoying it. She started to feel my arms trying to pull her higher trying to get her to allow me better access to her chest.

She moaned out in pleasure at this as I felt her fingertips tracing my skin digging into me when I'd dig into her deeply and giving her nipples a bite.

My heartbeat increased as her soft fingers touched me. I herd her breathing seemed to be almost in a panting pattern as she felt my growls vibrating onto her from bellow. ' I want! I want to taste every inch of her. All of it..I want it all. ' I felt myself holding her so tightly as if not to let her go as I try and start to slowly trail my tongue down her stomach.

I had given her more room to move so that I could try and get her higher to my face to reach. I felt her obliged to move in order to help me. I kissed down from her waist to just above her bellybutton; which I kissed and let my tongue slide in. I felt her stomach flip as she squirmed a little at me dragging my tongue up from her navel afterwards. I wanted to taste every part of her and I felt the lower I got passed her navel and as I started to kiss her thighs the more sidetracked I got. I held the backs of her thighs as I tried to take her underwear all the way off as she sat carefully on my chest and shoulders.

My Alpha wolf was taking control of my thoughts and fueled my drive. ' She's so gorgeous and I can't keep myself from her very long. I don't want her to leave me ever again. She's mine and I'm not letting her go anywhere! It's not so bad with her on top of me like this. My angel.....my home and place I want to always be. She's ours and we're not going to be apart like that again. '

She started to squirm moving down my body again. I felt her holding herself down on me with her legs so tightly that I trailed my hands up her thighs as I tried to cool down a bit so I didn't get carried away. Because I know that I'm starting to want to find a way to make love to her from not being down here, and it wouldn't take long to cross the line between my wolfs' fueled fantasies.

My wolf said sounding pissed off ' What are you thinking you idiot! She's ours! So cut the chivalry crap and make her call out your name slowly.. ' I understood at times like this I couldn't disagree with him. I kept moving my kisses back up to her mark which was beautiful as always, as I focused on it's black sun shape.

I found I could feel her heartbeat out of her chest as I felt her moan out quietly " Leo, " this made me smile as I moved my hands to hers and intertwined our fingers as I felt myself kissing her randomly and lightly. I enjoyed how amazing of a person she is. She may be scared but she's always going to be that same once scared person when we first met each other. I had asked her names I could call her to show my affection. I tried many things but they didn't stick.

I felt her kiss was what I could taste that was more addictive since she's been using it as a way to make up for her struggling to express her affection and love for me lately.

Her lips were so sweet, soft and supple, they were almost like velvet. They made me lick over them as I could taste what seemed like caramel. Which this made me not wanting to break from hers and lock our lips as I let her hands go as she pulled my neck closer. I needed to bite her as to make it all the more noticeable that she is Mine. A part of me understood this but I seemed to know how to adapt to getting what I wanted.

I had felt our lips meeting again but this time she licked my bottom lip asking for entrance. I immediately allowed for our tongues to meet, causing my cock to jerk which I could tell she felt because she became tense.

Instead of freezing and pushing me away, I found myself pleasantly surprised as I felt her arch her back and rolling her whole body against me. I could feel her grinding her hips and being able to feel her hot pussy as her body was laying flat on me. I felt like she was struggling to plant herself properly to allow me to enter her. I found when she was close my hands jolted firmly to her hips. I said to her in panted breath escaping my lips

" Wait a second, babe. " I adjusted myself and then guided her hips back down on my lap where she was sitting with myself placed before her entrance. I could feel her body lightly moved around to find me, but once the tip slipped in to enter her nearly made me whine loud in sheer surprise and arousal.

I started to strongly hold her in place and allowed her to move forward as she continued to move rolling on me once I slid into her. I gripped as her thighs and hips squeezing and moving her in motion helping get her to go faster with her grinding against me. I felt her moving deeper as she winced slightly as she clenched around me moaning in surprise. I assisted her hips in thrusting but I feel her kissing and I was trying to bite her neck gently and roughly as we proceeded to help distract her since it's been so long.

[ Autumn P.O.V ]

I didn't really have a problem with that since he was bellow me, but I feel like when he was calmed down it seemed easier. I loved his hands on my hips as I moved. I tried to remember his hands instructions in moving. It had been so long that I've missed the feeling of him under me. Grinding fast and rolling on him was getting me even more excited and exhilarated.

But when he entered me I could feel my body clenching around him after a satisfying slipping effect occurred slipping him effortlessly inside me with a grunt or two. It hurt trying to push past the pain but I could tell that he would groan as I felt myself becoming a little tight because of the stress and pain.

" Holy...! " I exclaimed surprised when I found him, as I felt him standing straight up out of the blue. He smirked slightly being able to tell too, but I was surprised how much pain it was and wondered if it hurt that much before. I proceeded to thrust and started to drag my hands down his chest as I tried to move my hips in a little dance while I moved as he exclaimed

" God! That's amazing.. " I couldn't respond but felt a small smile weakly cross my face and proceeded to continue to take in enjoying the sensation of him that I've never realized that I really missed this so much. I feel so damn good especially about myself and what I was doing with his encouragement as I rocked and grinded against him with the strange feeling of him standing inside of me. I felt myself panting and getting more heated as I began to bounce a little as I thrusted in and out and deep into him. I herd him say sweetly loving my hips moving while thrusting " Every move, every sound..."

I sunk deep but rolled my hips slowly which made him exclaim with praise slightly startling me. " You're perfect! " he was starting to pant and was groaning and he was suddenly started to feel a little like he was getting close. I wasn't far behind. I enjoyed rolling up his stomach and felt a rush of excitement as my heat spread leaving me panties moaning as I stayed in that same position holding tightly with my knees against the sides of his chest and sides.

" Yes...yes.. " I didn't know if he herd me but the extacy of the position left me unable to concentrate as my soul objective was on moving. Once I felt him moving his hips to help in my movements this growing feeling started to grow in waves leaving me saying in panted breaths

" Please...don't stop...please.." once it reached his ears he tried his best to thrust and roll his torso. I was feeling so good but I had to stop to take a breath to rest for a moment leaning over his chest.

But then I felt surprised feeling his hands on my hips which was pleasant but I could feel him rolling and trying to thrust his pelvis against mine. I stopped moving feeling surprised at this and a little uncomfortable as I shuttered.

I didn't like the fact his eyes were closed and was moving my hips to his movements as he'd growl happily and groan making a shiver crawl threw me. Instinctively, I tried to pull away from him only to feel him quickly moved his hands to pin me still.

I whined at him not liking this strange dirty feeling that was creeping up inside me. He was looking at me now that he noticed I was getting upset with my flustered expression. He asked trying to hold a smirk and a seductive tone looking up at me

" What happened to that sweet sweet enthusiasm, baby? ~" my wolf felt pleased by his tone but it only made me even more quiet and uncomfortable despite still feeling aroused by still being together.

He stopped moving but I couldn't look at his face but he just cooed while trying to brush my cheek sweetly with his hand " I'm sorry, I just couldn't help but respond to how fricken good you're doing. " I wasn't able to look at him and just started to nuzzle into his hand and as a test he thrusted deeply while pulling my hips down onto him.

I felt my heart leap into my throat as my eyes widen and a yelp squealed out of me as I quickly was starting to panic and tried to pull out of his grip and getting out. But he said calmly understanding now and stop what he did completely. My face was very flushed but once I felt him do that and felt the pleasure from it my face was a mess.

" Is what I'm doing making you feel uncomfortable? You can tell me if it is. " I couldn't look down at his body but it made me looking at his face a little difficult. I didn't want to say that what he did was enjoyable. But even when this whole thing started I felt extremely intimidated by the idea of being put into a situation that lets me be in control of a whole other person's body.

Especially, if it's someone you love and respect that makes the idea of being in control over him very intimidating. But for a while there, I forgot that and was comfortable with the idea that he gave me permission to have power. I think the idea of feeling the power shifting to him and feeling him controlling me was making me start to feel on edge. It was a little empowering to have control and power over the situation.

My eyes flickered from his and back away as I nodded and with that I herd him say lowly as he brushed my cheek softly " Come closer, sweetheart. " I didn't want to but his soft touch was enough to make me slowly lower my face and chest down. He smiled and said softly

" I'll stop then. How about we continue.." he groaned slightly which was like he was hurt for a second for continuing "..and I'll keep my hands, right here. " his left hand on my cheek moved to hold the back of my neck and the other I felt a pleasant jolt of awareness at my lower back. He had a small smile that asked if that was okay and he pecked my lips making me relax. This made me peck and kiss his lips back wanting more. He gladly did and pulled my neck closer. He tried to peck at my mark after a while, but after a bit I was feeling better and was turning my mind off again. I continued to try and nuzzle him and starting to move again.

He exclaimed, " Damn! " but then I felt him grinding our hips together making me shutter and gasp for air only to feel my wolf wanting more after feeling our heart leaped into our throat. I think I started to get the hang of this and could feel his hands and him practically begging me to keep moving my hips a certain way. Keeping up the pace of thrusting fast and crashing down on him in tandem.

I was leaning over him as he was panting and trying to catch his breath as parts of my hair started to hang down as he was sweating bellow me. My hair hung against his chest as I licked my lips trying to catch my breath. I held his left cheek with my right hand as he looked up at me as I started to use the other to move up his right sweaty bicep as I said cooing down at him pecking his face tiredly

" That's it. Now, come. " he was tired and sleepily laid bellow me as he rested his face buried in my chest and crook of my neck as I leaned over him as he tiredly moved his hands from my hips to holding my lower and upper back as I prepared to pull away and start to get ready to rest against his body. I tiredly stroked his hair as I held his head in my hands. I pecked him on the forehead and herd him say as I leaned my head against his tiredly

" That was probably the best yet. " " I love you. My Mate. " I agreed but when he asked if we wanted to go again I said that once was enough for one day. He let me lay on him no matter how sore and heavy my body was feeling and tried to convince him to be hushed down and be quiet so that we can try and get some rest. I love him so much that I wanted to hold his entire sweaty body and know that he's all mine.