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"What do you mean- being transferred? What the hell is going on with you?" Violette asked me twin questions after throwing the bomb. "I wish I could tell you, but I can't-" I told her in a tiny emotional tone. She looked at me confusion painted all over her complexion. "Would it make you feel more comfortable if Yuuki wasn't in the room?" Sure enough he didn't wait on an answer. He stood up and walked over to the door. Giving me one last glance before closing the door behind him. "What's wrong with you? We've always been open to each other." A sad expression made its way to her eyes. "I'm sorry, but I still can't share this with you," I whispered in a trembling voice. She sighed and asked, "Are you pregnant?" I shook my head. "Suicidal?" I entrusted her with a weak little smile. Knowing that it's no lie, I really want to put an end to my sorry ass of a life. My miserable life. She sucked in a horror filled breath. "What could possibly drive you to such lengths? Toki's not worth it!" My view blurred out with the now familiar wetness. My tears could have probably filled buckets. How can I even have tears left to spill? It's best if she don't know what reason drives me to such methods. The meaning behind my suicidal mind and all of these tears. I'll rather die than confront her. Yuuki's rather open minded. He mustn't find out about my feelings for him. I buried my face into my open palms and cry like there's no tomorrow.

Rei stormed into the room. "Your leaving us, again! And what's this I've been hearing.... SUICIDAL!!!?" He exclaimed. My heart gave a tight little tug. "Have you been eavesdropping?" Violette asked. I don't need to lift my head to know too whomever she's talking. My stomach falling into an uneasy mess is answer enough. "I'm sorry," he apologized. Gently laying a hand on my shoulder. I cringed and screamed into my hand covered face, wet with tears. I most likely just gave myself away. As if the angels heard my silent plea, someone came to my rescue. "That's quite enough. Everybody out- get out immediately!" It's Heike. Always showing up when I need him the most. "Please forgive me? I told him everything. He won't say anything if you don't want him to. Your secret's safe with him." He sat down beside me encircling me with a safe embrace. Faintly I heard Rei arguing in the hallway, telling whomever were being clever with him that Toki couldn't possibly be the reason behind my tears. Hachioji shoved them clear away. "Perhaps my dear, you should consider your brother's offer. All of this crying isn't good for you. It's slowly going to drive you insane." Heike said in all urgency. I am a mess. I wriggled myself free from his protective hug and fell back into the softness of my pillow. Grabbing hold of the giant blue bear, and clung to it for dear life. New droplets forming behind my tear ducks. "I love him," I whispered into the bear's fur. "That's it! I'm taking you back home," Heike said. Before I knew it Hachioji had packed up all of my belongings. Violette poked her head in through a now slightly ajar door. "I'm sorry for intruding. Seeing you hurt, hurts me too. If the bear provides a little comfort, keep it. I hope you feel better soon," she told me. Leaving the room immediately after she had finished. Quickly after Rei entered closing the door behind him. "Everybody's out front, waiting to say their goodbyes. I thought it'd been wise getting them all together. I didn't think you'd stay any longer than you have to be," Ogami informed us. I looked up at Heike terrified. "I don't think that its a great idea, Ogami. Join the ride and I'll fill you in," Hachioji said. Obviously Rei excepted her offer.

Outside in the courtyard, they made sure that not even the slightest of touches came to me. Sakura were being informed and then they kissed. I couldn't not take notice in Yuuki standing slightly to the back of the crowd. He looked at me sadly, an expression that I'm not very fond of. I turn my face away from him and hugged the bear even tighter.

"You see Ogami, if you do intend to share this news with Sakura, please make sure that he's out of hearing distance. It's best if it doesn't reach their ears." He took a deep breath before concluding, "Our darling Scarlett is hopelessly in love with Yuuki." He turned his upper body firmly towards me. "Say what?" I buried my face into the blue fur. "I knew you couldn't have shed all those tears because of Toki." He eyed the bear in my embrace. "Guys, it might not have been the best solution for her to hold on to the bear. He bought this at the carnival a few weeks ago." I knew it! Violette had never been a fan of stuffed animals. This gives me the more reason to hold on to it for life.