Resign.

He loved me. He loved me for three years now and I couldn't sense it at all.

Everything I've felt, all the emotions I've gone through, he's been there too. There's nothing much to think about. He's the only one who's ever made me feel so much more.

The door opened once more, his forehead concealed by his long dark curls which fell over. He had a tray balanced on the tip of his middle left finger and brought it down on the table, turning to leave again.

"Hey," I crossed over to meet him, wrapping my thin arms around his waist. He stiffened, then relaxed as we stayed like that for some minutes. "I've decided."

He turned to take my face in his hands. "Mike...if you're not ready.."

"I am," I said with a small smile. "Sure, it's a lot of information to process, I'm certain of this. I want you but you still could have told me earlier on."

"You were — "

"Seventeen? Come off the excuse, I'm twenty now. I'm not a child anymore. I'm sure of this. Stop making me think so much."

"I'm so sorry baby, it's never my intention." he wrapped his arms around my sides, placing his head on my shoulder. His finger trailed down my back, lingering closely above my waistband. "Next time I promise. I'll tell you everything."

He lifted his head, his eyes intent on my lips. "Can I?" he whispered.

I didn't think twice before nodding.

He closed the distance between us, our lips barely touching first and then they locked. His hands found their way naturally around my hips as he pulled me gently to the bed. His tongue explored my mouth, bringing lights to corners I never knew existed. We clambered up on the bed with me beneath, straddling him. My knees grazed against the large bulge between his legs as I broke off the kiss to laugh.

"Dude, what's with your little man below?" I ran my fingers over it, mind blown away by its size. Someone was surely getting a hard-on.

"Careful baby, he's could be a little aggressive." Fray hissed in pleasure.

"How long till dawn?" I positioned myself so the juncture of my thighs was over his hips.

"Ten hours," he grinned, causing my toes to curl. "Why?"

"We have the whole night to ourselves then?" I pulled his face down to kiss him deeply, his faint touches on my skin igniting a passion that wrecked my ribcage. I wanted him so badly.

"Hmm, we've got a lot to do then," he said muffly between lips. "I'm ready when you are."

I chuckled as we made out like reunited lovers or better still, lovestruck teens, moaning, touching, exploring. He broke off the kiss, staring deep into my eyes. "Listen, I might be a little aggressive and I don't want to hurt you. If you feel any pain at all, just tell me — "

"Fray,"

"Yeah?"

"Shut up."

He grinned. "Yes sir."

"Condoms?"

He raised a brow at me. "You want to go through with this? I thought you were against sex."

"What?!" I swatted his arm, offended. "What kind of human do you think I am to be against sex?"

"Oh I dunno, my nerdy lover?" he beamed.

"Quite."

He buried his face into my neck, kissing the spot behind my ear. "This is so perfect." he pulled my shirt off. "You are beautiful in every way." he brought his head down to my chest, sucking on my left nipple slowly while I caved back, trying my hardest to keep my moans in check. He brought his face up to kiss me wildly again and I took hold of the opportunity, pushing him on his back. I smoothed my fingers on his bare abs and pecs, sweat glistening on his biceps. He was in all his glory, beautiful and shimmering.

"Damn," his exclaimed, coming up with swollen lips. "You have a cute birthmark below your belly button. That's kinda hot."

"Tell me about it," I moaned when he touched my bulge. "Someone's turned on. Mind if I go down below?"

"Fuck yeah," I hissed as his tongue tingled my navel as he dragged it further south, lingering at the top of my shorts.

"Relax," he cooed up and I swear I'd never forget how hot he looked down there, smirking up at me. I didn't realize I'd been squirming. Leaning back, I let him take control, gazing up at the ceiling as he slipped my shorts and boxers over my hips. The butterflies multiplied and my heart raced madly as he encircled his fingers around my middle figure. In my head I imagined it, but I couldn't quite process the fact that Fray Williams, world's hot-to-die-for model was stroking my penis, trailing light kisses on my lower belly. Fray Williams, calling me baby and pulling my legs up to take off my shorts completely. Fray Williams, confessing he'd loved me all these years.

"Fuck!" he muttered, his hot mouth suddenly around my dick. He sucked on the tip for a moment and before I knew what was happening, Fray had my legs up on both sides of him, taking my dick in completely and began pumping. My moans slowly turned to whimpers and as he went on further, I shuddered, rocking my hips forth and back to build up the pressure. Ecstasy clouded my vision as I drew my head back, my mind completely elsewhere. Then gradually, like electricity, I felt the liquid rise up quickly, causing my balls to tighten and Fray's eyes to bulge. He added twice as much energy this time, pumping uncontrollably and at last, with a spiteful cry, I came in his mouth.

"Fuck Mike, fuck yeah." he gobbled it all up, a few droplets escaping. Drawing back, he took off his shorts and laid completely naked beside me. "That was heavenly. You taste so good."

My face heated. "Thank you. What shall we do now?"

Lying bare and exposed next to him was a good feeling, but still, I was getting cold, my breath raspy and becoming difficult. I suffered asthma nights like this.

"Turn over," he commanded and I complied, hoisting my bum up in the air with my face deep into the pillows. I heard him groan aloud as he ran a wet tongue over my hole, dipping two digits in as well. "Oh baby, that's so damn good."

I leaned back to give him more access to my hole, his tongue threatening to send me to a world of oblivion. He flipped me over once more and I grasped his thick, long shaft which had just the same light pink colour on his cheeks whenever he felt embarrassed. His pubic hair was hardly even there. I placed a gentle kiss on the tip, driving him to grasp the sheets tightly. "Shit!"

Unperturbed, I slid the entire length into my mouth and began to pump. He squeezed my inner thighs, groaning and nearly on the brink of insanity. I rocked forward and back, taking more of him into my mouth. Rubbing saliva all over my palm, I pumped and twisted the base of his shaft while I slurped at the tip. Taking his full length into my mouth earlier had almost caused me to choke so I fitted the part of his cock I knew I could keep up a rhythm with which included the tip and base.

"Shit! I'm gonna come," he groaned desperately as I fondled with his balls which tightened in an instant. One claw at his sack was all it took for him to explode inside my mouth. I swallowed without a thought, finally letting him go to catch some air. We snuggled into the blanket, drained and glad at our rigorous sexual activity.

"I can't believe what we just did," I said aloud, toying with his taut left nipple which looked in need of a suck. "Is this a dream? Are we really here?"

"Of course you're not dreaming and I'm glad this happened. You were so great." We lapsed into silence, permitting the heat to coat both our bodies.

"I was hoping for more."

"Like what baby?"

"Like actual sex? What we just did was only a miniature blowjob. I didn't even blow you well enough."

I felt him wince. "Baby, I want you to be ready."

"I am ready. Come on Fray, we've talked about this. For the first time in years, I'm certainly sure of what I want."

He sighed in resignation. "Alright. We'll do it if it's that you want."