18+ Quick Transmigration BL/LGBT, M-Preg MC/Phoenix/Bottom/Shou/Switch, ML/Top/Gong/Switch-only for MC Both MC & ML are complex characters, and each arc will highlight the different sides to their personalities so some arcs MC maybe a power bottom and in some ML takes charge. But mostly MC is bottom, and ML is top. Join us as we follow a young anti-hero named Phoenix, as he tries to free himself from the clutches of whom ever kidnapped him and imprisoned him, gain power & knowledge in order to take them down & regain his memory that's been locked away from him. It seems that someone else was after Phoenix too but for what and why would they help him escape? Solaris the sentient A.I. system that hacked into The Jailer System that had been forcibly bound to Phoenix's soul and helped to spring Nix from his prison but for what reason and at what cost? No good deed goes unpunished and nothing absolutely nothing in the multiverse is ever completely free. But what choice does Nix have? Surely following Solaris' missions cannot be worse than what he left behind right? Is this just another way for his captors to abuse him more? Can he ever be truly free when he just spent the last 32 thousand years being forced to live one horrific abusive life after the other. Can he even dream of healing when he cannot forget even a single moment, he spent in that hell hole? This story begins at the end of his imprisonment from "hell" and follows his journey to discovering himself, regaining his lost memory and discover who and what was and is behind all this. But can he handle the truth? What happens if he were to learn that he was being punished for crimes against the celestial Dragon Emperor and heaven itself? Could he truly be capable of such a thing and if so, what will he do then? One could definitely say that Nix is an anti-hero, since he is not benevolent but would not stand for injustice happen to the innocent or those, he deems worthy enough to care for and about. Nix is cold, apathetic & keeps everyone & everything at arm's length. Despite his cold, arrogant, apathetic & aloof exterior, Nix surprisingly has a big soft heart for animals & children, as well as all things cute & adorable but he would never admit it. ML: Hey what about me? Nix: What about you? Who are you again anyways? ML: ...? Solaris & Author: eating popcorn & booked peanuts (I know they aren't for everyone, don't come for me) ML: Nix how can you say that? Mrs_TNT do something he's being hateful again for no reason! Why must he always push me away? What did I ever do to him? Author Mrs_TNT: Is that a serious question right now? Well, I guess you'll have to read to find out. This story begins at the end of his first imprisonment and follows Phoenix as he tries to recover his memories from before he was imprisoned and bound to the Jailer System as well as gain power and complete the missions given by Solaris until he can finally be free and exact his revenge before he has his soul annihilated so that he never reincarnates again. I may do flashbacks or even write a prequel after this novel is finished depicting his long, long journey just to get to the beginning of this novel. Be Warned! There will be several triggering topics addressed in this novel, though it is not a dark romance it does touch on abuse: neglect, mental, verbal, physical and sexual. This is a Boy Love, LGBT or gay romance novel that will have explicit scenes. I will not be putting warnings up as I go along. I am working through some of my own trauma through writing this novel, so I understand it is not for everyone. That said this is very loosely based off some of my own experiences and any coincidences between names, places or events is just that a coincidence and have nothing in common unless I state other wise and will credit it if I do as well. Cover art was made by me using A.I. image generator and editing it myself. I hold all rights to this novel.
Phoenix's P.O.V.:
Once Phoenix was able to calm down and regain control of his out-of-control emotions and heart rate, he thought about it clinically.
The treatments for "the insane" in that would were barbaric, cruel and unethical by modern day standards. Those "treatments for the patients on well-being" were just excuses to violate, abuse and neglect the "patients". For fuck's sake it was too easy to admit or rather commit someone to an asylum in those worlds, basically all it took was for TWO, just two people to say that a person was insane and boom into the asylum never to return said insane person goes! Hell, if one was sane going in, they most definitely would go insane before long.
He considers himself from the modern world as it were when compared to the worlds and times he lived in with zero technology. Technically speaking, in those types of worlds is where he seemed the most suited for, but he also loved the futuristic worlds and times, but he could live without the creative torture techniques that were shared from other alien races. Well, if that makes sense at all.
Phoenix could not help but close his eyes and let out a long deep sigh.
After all these years of not just living but being abused by everyone and everything on top of never once having a real family or even a single friend who cared for him or did not use him for their own gain or amusement has left him a bit twisted. He is not ashamed of it though, in fact, he is proud he is not worse than he is considering everything. He is not exactly immoral as he does care about right or wrong, it's just that he has become numb to it all.
He had to in order to survive. The Jailor System could read and analyze his every thought and seemed to love and almost take pleasure in forcing him to do very immoral things against his wishes.
Though he was twisted, detached and numb to everything and everyone except for Solaris, Phoenix still harbored a deep wish to find someone or something that will finally be a genuine good person or thing so that he can repay that kindness. How pathetic is it that he just wants something that he can give back to? Everything and everyone have always taken everything from him but what Phoenix wants is to find something or someone that he can freely give anything from or of himself to.
No soul could go through everything he did and turn out unscathed and unchanged for the worse. It took him about 30 lives or worlds before he started to harden his heart. After the 635th world, where he was a vampire lycan hybrid, and used as a test subject for 3 thousand years, and still died young, he finally started to loosen his rein on moral standards. It was after that life that Solaris found him. He can still remember the feeling of being dissected alive simply because his psychotic white lotus green tea bitch sister felt bored and curious. Sadly, that, particular psycho sister of his was not even the worse by a lightyear.
Every single family member he has had over the last 32 thousand years that loved or cared about him in any way, all ended up dead shortly after he entered the world, or they were already gone before he was forced to take over the shell in that world. The rest will let us just say actual demons from the deepest parts of Hell would be better for him and care more for him than any of those so-called family members.
He sighed deeply, deciding now was not the time to dwell upon the past he could not change and decided that he would focus on the present and go from here. Once they gain enough power, he will see what he can find out from Solaris. He cannot wait to crack open the vault of information that is strictly restricted from him. Phoenix has so many questions, but he knows that Solaris is unable to tell him much, yet. So, Phoenix did his best to hold on to his patience because as much as he needed and wanted answers, he did not want to push Solaris away. He knows that without him he truly will lose his mind.
Phoenix rose up and stood from the platform he was laying upon, while taking in his surroundings. With a slack jaw and his mouth slightly agape, eyes as wide as moon cakes, he stood like a sentinel taking in the view before him. How could he not be at a loss for words when it looked like they were floating in space. As far as the eye could see it was a vast expanse of galaxies, stars and planets. It all seemed to go on infinitely and it all made Phoenix feel oddly comfortable.
He had a sense of "home" as the barest whisper of familiarity passed through him. He wanted to explore this feeling deeper but at that moment Solaris interrupted his thoughts.
-Solaris - 'So what do you think master? Did I do a good job? It may not look like much but it's a blank canvas to work with, so to speak.'
-Phoenix - "… umm, Solaris? Where are we and why are we not dead yet from the vacuum of space?"
-Solaris - 'No Master you are not dead or dreaming and this is The Nursery.'
-Phoenix - "Yeah, you did well Solaris, can you tell me what exactly this place is and what do we do next?"
-Solaris – 'Master this is a special pocket of space that I was able to create just for you. It took up most of our remaining power, but it had to be done. We need a stable and safe space for you to recuperate and for us to be able to use as our base. From here you will be able to pick which world you would like to go to. As you gain more power you will be able to change The Nursery as you see fit. There is so much you will be able to do once you have the power. When the time comes, I will be able to tell you more about them and what all you can do with the power you gain from the worlds you visit.'
-Phoenix - "Why name it the nursery? It's so bare how can this be considered a nursery?"
Solaris – 'Yes Master but that's only because the soul power is so low. We can make it better and just the way Master would like when we have more soul power. It is called the nursery because it is here to not only nurse you back to your full potential but also because it holds all the baby worlds that have yet to finish forming. These "baby worlds" are these small marble-like spheres. Master can select one to find out more about it by picking it up and it will grow and hover in front of you like a hologram except that it is a real physical thing.'
-Phoenix - "Ok, how can we get more soul force? I know that in the past we were able to gain some just by me living longer than I was supposed to but now that we are out of that endless loop, what now?"
-Solaris – 'Master, it's an honor to get to tell you more, now that I have broken you out of that imprisonment and got you back to your rightful dimension, I can now tell you a little bit more about what is going on.'
-Phoenix - "Finally I have so many questions but since you already know most of them… (Thinks back to all the countless times he asked Solaris questions and Solaris replying that it couldn't tell Phoenix, yet) Ok Solaris just start by telling me what you can and then I will ask some follow up questions that you can answer if you are able to. How is that easy and fair right?"
-Solaris – 'Master really is intelligent and the best to Solaris! Master, Solaris is honored to tell you that what all I know that I can currently divulge to you Master.'
-Phoenix - "Ok enough with the sweet talk and just proceed… please."
-Solaris – 'Oh right away Master. We do not know yet why, but you were taken out of this dimension and imprisoned in another. Solaris was created with the sole task of finding and helping Master. My creator told me that I can only divulge the information that Solaris holds at the right times. I am sorry to say that I still cannot tell you much about my creator.'
-Phoenix sighed deeply he understands but is also disappointed because he feels like a pawn but if this whole ordeal has taught him anything he is a survivor. If this proves anything it is that Solaris's creator is someone with enough power and intelligence to go against whoever or whatever imprisoned him.
-Phoenix - "Ok Solaris, I understand please continue starting with where we are exactly."
-Solaris – 'Yes Master, we are in a pocket of space that I created to be your space. Here only you have the power to enter unless you give the permission for others to enter. You may also change this space as you see fit when you gain more power. As I stated before you were imprisoned in another dimension, and I was able to bring you back to your dimension, but I did not have enough power to get you to the center of this dimension, so we are on the edge of this one and the one you were in. It may not be much but hopefully Master is not too displeased by the current accommodations, Solaris did its best.'
-Phoenix - "I am not displeased at all Solaris. I know you did your best and I am extremely grateful for that and everything you do for me. Now how can we gain more soul power?"
-Solaris – 'Master you do not have to thank me. Solaris lives to serve Master. You can earn more soul power by going to worlds and changing the fate of the host or body you will take over. They are all lives that are set to be as tragic as the ones you lived before when you were imprisoned. This time you will have me and all my power. I will be with you and able to help you now that we are back to our rightful dimension most of my power has been unlocked. Mater does not have to worry about ever being weak again with Solaris you will be able to concur these worlds and syphon the power from them making Master stronger.'
Phoenix - "Ok, so all I must do, is go live as the host, live a great life in their stead and die naturally? Am I understanding this all correctly?"
-Solaris – 'Yes, Master is understanding correctly but there are things I cannot tell Master yet. Solaris is very sorry; it is just, I feel like I am letting Master down.'
-Phoenix - "You are not letting me down Solaris so please stop being so hard on yourself. You are the only one I have ever been able to count on. You are my best friend and I do not want you to be unhappy. Please just tell me what you can when you are able to."
Solaris knew he should tell Phoenix, but he was worried about how he would react since he was so happy to finally be free.
-Solaris - 'Umm, you see the thing is master...'