13th Dilemma

AKI

IT'S BEEN now a week since Chihiro and I started living with his parents. Sa edad naming ito, nakakahiya at hindi ko maipaliwanag ang pagkabalisa ko. Maraming maaaring mangyari. Alam kong nag-aalala lang naman sila sa kalagayan ko at mas marami na silang napagdaanan na problema pagdating sa pagkakaroon ng mate at anak pero hindi ko maiwasang maasiwa sa tuwing kausap ko si Hiromi-san.

Bilang isang kapwa Alpha, I could still feel his reluctance towards me and my feelings for his son. Well… he should be. I haven't even admitted what I really felt towards Chihiro and what's worst is that we're now expecting a child.

"Pasensiya ka na talaga kay Hiromi, Izumi-san," biglang paumanhin sa akin ni Chidori-san nang mapuna nito na mukhang malalim ang iniisip ko.

Nakita n'ya akong nakatulala habang nakaupo sa sofa ng kanilang sala. Kasalukuyang nasa labas si Chihiro at inaasikaso ang mini garden ng kanyang ina. Napansin ko rin na naging madalas ang pag-aalala sa akin ni Chidori-san. Hindi paman lubos na malapit ang loob namin sa isa't isa, randam ko na handa siyang tanggapin ako kung sakaling magiging mates na kami ng anak n'ya.

"It's fine, really. Please stop apologizing," medyo alangan kong saad at pagkatapos ay naupo si Chidori-san sa tabi ko bago ito napabuntonghininga.

"Napakahirap maging isang Omega," pagsisimula nito na may halong kirot sa kanyang boses at ekspresiyon. "Noong una kong malaman na isa akong Omega, nanliit ang tingin ko sa sarili ko. Napakalaki kong tao at kita naman siguro na aakalain ng marami na isa akong Alpha dahil sa tindig ko at hubog ng aking katawan. Hindi rin ako ganoon ka-attractive. Minsan, ang mga Omega na katulad namin ni Hirocchi ay madalas na nabu-bully. Halos mandiri ang ibang Alpha na tumingin sa amin dahil sa maraming kadahilanan: ang iba ay natatakot sa amin at ang iba naman ay iniisip na hindi dapat na ganito ang hitsura ng isang Omega male," mahabang ani nito at medyo natawa pa sya sa huli n'yang sinabi.

"That's—" I was about to say something when Chidori-san looked at me with a smile.

"Pero nawala ang lahat ng takot ko nang makilala ko si Hiromi," aniya at nagpatuloy sa pagsasalita. "Alam kong nahihirapan ka ngayon sa sitwasiyon n'yong dalawa ng anak ko. At hindi ko itatanggi na may pagkukulang din si Hirocchi pero Izumi-san, kung natatakot ka, nandito lang kami. Maaari mo kaming lapitan kahit anumang oras. Handa akong mag-abot ng payo kahit na hindi ako isang perpektong tao. Kung may pag-aalinlangan ka, sabihin mo kay Hirocchi. Hindi pa ganoon ka-mature ang anak namin pero buo ang loob ko na hindi ka n'ya pababayaan dahil pinalaki namin siya na matatag at tapat sa sarili."

I couldn't say anything back. He was right. I saw how Chihiro showed his love for me. All this time, he's been honest and true to himself and all I did was ignore him and mock his kindness because I found it stupid. But in reality, I was afraid of how he can be so naïve, pure and innocent… without a care what would others say. Maybe it was somehow affecting him but he chose to fight his fear ang believed no matter what. He never gave up in life.

He never gave up on me.

And it was something I haven't done in my entire life. When I lost the battle on the Omega that I once loved, sumuko kaagad ako nang matagpuan n'ya ang nakatadhana para sa kanya. I even hid the truth for so long. All I was doing this entire time was be selfish towards everyone around me. All because I was afraid of not gaining anything in return. I was afraid my feelings won't be reciprocated. I was such a big coward and the greatest scumbag of them all.

「Ang lakas ko pang manlait kay Okuda,」 I thought to myself while chuckling softly.

"I'm so sorry," mahina kong saad at napalingon si Chidori-san sa akin na may halong pagtataka sa kanyang mukha. "I'm so sorry that your son fell in love with someone like me. I don't deserve his earnest and pure intentions. All I did was mock and hurt him. I tried to push him aside many times but that didn't stop him from liking me. I found it so stupid and unrealistic until I slowly admired that side of him. I'm so sorry."

"Izumi-san… ayos lang magkamali," he said and I felt this sting in my chest suddenly fade away as if nabunutan ako ng tinik. "Nakakasiguro ako na maiintindihan ka ni Hirocchi sa oras na ipinaliwanag mo ang lahat. Maboka ang anak kong iyon kaya kailangan talaga na sabihin mo nang maayos ang nais mong iparating sa kanya para lubos n'yang maintindihan. Sa oras na ipinadama mo sa kanya na may puwang siya sa puso mo, mamahalin ka n'ya lalo."

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Pagkatapos namin mag-usap ay umalis na si Chidori-san. Mayamaya pa ay pumasok na si Chihiro. Pawisan ito at marumi na ang kanyang damit. Hindi n'ya napansin na nasa sala ako kaya pumanhik ito sa taas, papunta sa kanyang kuwarto upang magbihis. I silently followed him, tried not to make any unnecessary noise as possible as I could.

Chihiro had a tendency of not closing the door to his room when he enters kaya naman ako na ang nagsara nito nang masiguro kong dumiretso siya sa banyo para maligo. I still kept silent and careful that he wouldn't hear me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko 'to ginagawa at kung para saan.

Nang marinig ko na naliligo na siya ay napatingin ako sa kanyang kama. His parents let us sleep together but believe me or not, Chihiro hasn't done anything sexual to me since we lived here. Siguro nahihiya siya sa kanyang mga magulang o baka natatakot lang siya na may mangyari sa aking masama.

Tahimik akong nahiga sa kama. It still smelled like Chihiro. Since he's an Omega and my sense of smell has become more sensitive after getting pregnant, I could smell his pheromones in this entire room. It's soothing and tempting at the same time. And I know he had no idea that he's been releasing a lot of pheromones, lately. This might also be a sign that his next heat was near. If we kept sleeping in one bed, I may not be able to control myself. And I'm pretty sure that his parents knew the circumstances too and yet, they let us be this close.

「Also, it could be that his father is testing me if I really care about Chihiro at all,」 I thought to myself without realizing that I buried my face into Chihiro's pillow to muffle my frustrated scream that I was about to release but didn't.

"Chihiro…" I mumbled his name so softly, droplets of tears forming in the corner of my eyes. I don't know what to do anymore, honestly. I don't want to say that I like him that easily and not even sure if I mean it. What am I so afraid of?

"Aki-san…?" For some reason, he started calling me 'Aki-san' because his father told him to be polite towards me.

Napaigtad ako nang marinig ko ang boses ng lalaking kanina ko pang nililibak. I couldn't help but blush when I saw his naked half body, giving me a clear view of his strong and muscular build. Hindi ko inasahan na matatapos ito kaagad sa pagligo. "Chihiro!" I exclaimed and went into panic. I needed a valid excuse! He'll think that I'm too perverted despite being dishonest with my feelings. "I didn't know that you were here. I came up because I felt like sleeping for a little bit." What a lame lie. Even if it was true, I would be able to hear the noise of the shower kaya wala akong kawala sa kasinungalingan kong ito. To my surprise, Chihiro gave me a sweet smile.

"May masakit ba sa 'yo? Kung nagugutom ka pwede kitang ipaghanda ng makakain. Ah, baka may gusto kang ipabili?" he offered with such gentleness on his voice and that innocent expression on his face. How could I resist such kindness?!

"I'm fine," sabi ko na lang sabay nag-iwas ng tingin.

He started to worry before realizing something. "Magbibihis lang ako saglit, Aki-san," alala n'ya nang mapansin nitong panay ang tingin ko sa kabuuan n'ya. Bahagya siyang tumalikod sa akin at literal na inalis ang tuwalyang ginamit n'yang pangtakip sa kanyang pribadong parte. Ako naman ay pinanlakihan ng mga mata because he was fully aware that I could see him, right?

"Chi…hiro…?" I uttered hesitantly while staring right at his exposed butt.

"Hmm?" The idiot responded without looking at my direction.

「Is he teasing me on purpose?!」 I shouted inside my mind while blushing like crazy.

"Should I wait outside?" I offered. Hiyang-hiya naman ako sa kawalanghiyaan ng isang 'to!

Mabilis namang napalingon si Chihiro sa gawi ko bago sinabing, "Ah, hindi! Okay lang na nandito ka, Aki-san!" katuwiran nito at marahil ay nakaramdam din siya ng kaunting hiya dahil tinakpan n'ya ang kanyang lower half gamit ang tuwalya nito nang mapuna nitong nakatingin pa rin ako sa bahaging iyon. Seriously, who's the perverted one between the two of us?

I've seen that part of him a few times already but I still couldn't help but feel amazed by its enormous size. If he weren't born an Omega, one would surely assume that he's an Alpha judging by his manhood. I myself has a decent size that can satisfy an Omega too, but… Chihiro's was way more intimidating.

And sometimes I regret being born like this and turn out to be an Alpha. It's so pathetic.

"I have something I want to ask you but can you put on some clothes first?" pag-iiba ko ng usapan at awtomatiko namang nagliwanag ang mukha ng kausap ko.

"Mmm!" he agreed happily at nagmadaling maghanap ng masusuot.

He didn't take long. I didn't really have any intention to ask anything. Hindi ko na kasi mapigilan ang hindi ma-turn on dahil sa maganda n'yang hubog. Maybe, I have a thing with guys with bodies like him — just like when I first saw Kicchan before. Ah, but Jirou was not muscular though but he still had a nice body. Kaagad din naman akong natauhan and shook my head many times violently.

「Why am I suddenly bringing up other guy's name now?! What will Chihiro think of me?!」 Nababalisa kong pagwawala sa aking isipan sabay tinakpan ang bibig ko gamit ang isa kong kamay upang hindi ako mapasinghap ng malakas.

Muli ko siyang sinulyapan at saktong tapos na itong magbihis at nakangiting sumampa na sa kama at tinabihan ako sa paghiga.

"Your hair! It's still wet, idiot!" I exclaimed and messed up his already messy hair that had this slight curls bago siya tinalikuran.

Chihiro is handsome but because he doesn't pay much attention to how he looks and how he would style up his hair, his natural beauty is not noticeable. It's a shame but a part of me is glad that I got to see this part of him more often than others.

"He he. Gomen," he playfully said and hugged me from behind. I could no longer see his face now and it's making me more nervous.

"Dry your hair first," medyo inis kong utos sa kanya at bahagyang napakagat sa ibaba kong labi. Our bodies were just a few inches apart. When I took my time staring at his thing earlier I got a little aroused. If he tried to touch me down there he'll definitely notice.

"Mm, Aki-san," he agreed but didn't budge. Instead, his right hand moved a little to my right hip and he caressed it lightly, bringing jolts to that part that he touched. "Malapit na pala ang heat ko. Iniisip ko kung sa guest room muna ako matulog pansamantala mamaya para hindi kita maistorbo, Aki-san."

He was right. I was also worrying about that not too long ago. Maselan ang pagbubuntis ko ngayon. If I get affected by his heat, I won't be able to calm myself if we ever have sex and so will he. At alam ko na pagkatapos ng lahat, labis na maaapektuhan si Chihiro and his guilt will eat him up for days. Not only that, nandito din ang parents n'ya. What kind of an adult would I be if I let myself be swayed by their Omega son's heat with their presence? It would only prove that his dad was right all along — that I'm just like all those bastard Alphas that can't fight our lust when we encounter an Omega's heat.

"I should be the one staying in the guest room. This is your home," I insisted. For some reason, nawala ang arousal na nararamdaman ko kanina.

His hand then moved again and this time, he put it on my lower abdomen. "May baby bump ka na, Aki-san," biglang pag-iiba nito ng usapan at natawa nang bahagya.

「Stop doing that, you dumbass. Your warm and big hand is very calming. If you keep touching me there, I won't be able to get out from your hug,」 sa isip ko pero taliwas ang sinagot ko sa kanya sa personal.

"Does it bother you now?" What the hell am I saying?

"Eh?"

"Stop touching it," I demanded na may halong galit sa boses ko. But the truth was I wanted him to keep touching it and sweet talk to me like this.

"Aki-san, may masakit ba sa 'yo?" he slightly panicked and stopped hugging me and tried to make me face him.

「Just stop talking and—」

"…kiss me already," I muttered.

"Huh?" The idiotic giant tilted his head to the side, not sure what I was trying to say.

"Why are you so dumb? I really hate that part of you," I said in irritation and grabbed-hold the back of his neck. "Come here," I uttered and pulled him towards me, making our lips touch. Chihiro was surprised but he responded to my kiss still with care and tried not to put his weight against me. Me, on the other hand, wrapped my arms around his neck to prevent him from letting go.

"…san," he breathed between our kisses and looked at me in the eyes with such passion. "Okay lang ba?"

I chuckled. How cute. "Just shut up and kiss me," I told him and kept clinging to his neck, bringing him even closer to me. "Aah~" I let out a soft moan as soon as his hands touched my body. He didn't do anything lewd yet but my body became sensitive ever since we've slept together.

"Aki-san, may hard on na ako pero baka marinig tayo nila Kaa-chan at Tou-chan," Chihiro honestly stated after breaking our kiss. "Kung ayos lang sa 'yo, huwag kang masyadong maingay para hindi nila mahalata. Pero sa totoo lang, mas gusto ko sanang marinig ang mga ungol mo pero…" aniya at pagkuwa'y nahiya pa ng kaunti. His last words ticked me off. He really has no shame, for fuck's sake! He's lucky that I wanted it so badly so I couldn't snap at him right now.

"Alright. Just don't… overdo it this time," I almost said it in a whisper.

Come to think of it, it was the last sex we had and it was rough and irrational. We were both lost in our overwhelming emotions. It was also my fault that Chihiro felt bad that day. I fired him for no reason and intentionally hurt his feelings. I'm surprised that he still cares for me despite all that.

Medyo nanlumo ang mukha ni Chihiro. He must have remembered that time. "Sa totoo lang, Aki-san, tuwing naaalala ko iyong ginawa ko sa 'yo natatakot ako na baka maulit iyon at masaktan kita," he admitted and was also now on the verge of crying.

I cupped his cheeks with my both hands and made him look directly to me before saying, "Forget it. I'm not mad at you, Chihiro. I hurt you and I was a jerk. Well… I'm still a jerk because I can't even dare to contact you after what happened. It's all my fault. You were just being too honest," I comforted but I know these won't be enough to make him feel at ease.

"Aki-san…"

I lightly pecked his lips before staring right into his eyes with longing. "It's fine." With that said, biglang nabalot ng matinding pagnanasa si Chihiro at malugod ko namang tinanggap ang pagnanasa n'yang iyon.

"Aki-san…," he whispered in a deep and desperate voice, positioning himself on top of me and lifted my shirt; revealing my chest. His eyes burned with passion when he saw that my lower half was already reacting to his mere touching. He then leaned forward and gave me a quick kiss before he paid attention to my nipples and started licking them.

"Mmgh…" Isang impit na ungol ang nagawa ko kasabay ng kaunting pag-arko ng aking likod.

"Aki-san…" he muttered and bit my right nipple with little force until it left a mark.

The next thing he did was explore my other body parts; running his fingers to my sensitive points and licking every corner that he finds alluring. It didn't take long for him to reach my rock hard manhood and even gave it a playful kiss. Even though I still had my pants on, it made me so wet with pre-cum and the urge to be fucked by him again only made me more horny.

Baguhan lang si Chihiro but he's already gotten used at pleasuring my body even though we haven't slept too often. I wonder if it's because we're somehow connected by what's growing inside my belly?

"Aah~" I moaned when he lightly bit the top of my cock. "You little—! Where the fuck did you learn to do all of these?!" inis kong buska sa kanya. It's kinda irritating that he's gotten so good at this for such a short period of time.

Napahagikhik naman ang tanga bago ito sumagot, "Gusto kong mas magustuhan ni Aki-san ang susunod nating sex kaya nag-aral ako," proud na pagyayabang nito at nangiting parang batang nakapasa sa exam.

"Fuck. I really do hate you," parang maiiyak sa inis kong turan at mabilis namang nag-panic si Chihiro.

"Eh?! Bakit? Hindi mo ba nagustuhan, Aki-san?!" he asked with such worry and checked on my body. "May masakit ba? Aah~! Ayaw mo ba ng hickeys? Babawiin ko ba? Mahirap bawiin pero gagawan ko ng paraan!" he exclaimed, breathing heavily like a damn idiot.

「Really… This is why I can't resist him. Not only he's a total moron but his purity makes my heart melt.」

"Why are you so honest, Chihiro?" I said and pushed him aside so I could take off my pants and positioned myself.

"Eh?" he was baffled habang sinasaksihan akong pumatong sa kanya. "Aki-san?"

"Just shut up," I demanded and took hold of his thing and probed it in my backside, "and make me feel good, okay?" The next thing I did was shove the whole thing inside up my butt and that made the both of us react in pleasure.

"Aki…san," Chihiro groaned and tried to stop me.

"Mmfgh…" I prepared myself and at the same time prevented him from stopping me by grabbing his hands and made them grab my butt cheeks instead. "Here. Touch me here while I move."

Nag-apoy sa labis na tuwa si Chihiro sa narinig at walang pagdadalawang-isip na sinunod ako. I proceeded at having my way and devoured him wholly. The spikes of pleasure that ran throughout my body was intense enough to almost make me wanna cum nonstop.

"Aki… Ughn–!" Chihiro's grip on my ass tightened as I changed the rhythm of my movement.

"Aah… Mmgh…" Trying to hold back my voice was excruciating. I wanted to feel it all. I feel awkward at taking the lead but with his thing inside me, rubbing my insides made me lose my reason. "Chihiro…" More… I want him to pound deeper, so deep.

「Hold me tight and make me feel that I am wanted so badly,」 having these thoughts while having sex with Chihiro was absurd. I'm older than him. If I requested something so childish, what would he think?

"Aki–Urkgh!" he groaned and matched my pace. Mas lalo lang tumindi ang nararamdaman kong sarap sa ginawa n'yang iyon. It's as if Chihiro knew where and how to pleasure me already. He was hitting my sweet spots and it felt so freaking good.

"Chi… Slow down or I'll—Aah~" I couldn't even finish talking because he was too focused on me.

"Suki desu, Aki-san," he declared with tears of joy before flooding me with his cum that he released inside.

I let out a loud gasp before cumming, too. That was unbelievably fast for someone who hasn't been touched for a while. Just when he finished squirting all of his essence inside me, I lazily rested my upper body on his chest. He didn't pull his dick out nor did I try to remove it. I could still feel him pulsing. We both breathed heavily and listened to each other's pumping heart beats.

"Heh. That was fast," I finally said with a tired voice.

"I love your baby bump, Aki-san," pag-iiba nito ng usapan na ikinagulat ko.

"Huh? What do you mean?" I asked and suddenly felt uneasy. We were still connected to each other, after all.

"Kung iniisip mo na baka magbago ang tingin ko sa 'yo dahil nagsisimula nang magbago ang katawan mo dahil nagdadalang-tao ka, nagkakamali ka, Aki-san," he outright stated. "Noong sinabi kong mahal kita, Aki-san, I meant everything about you. Hindi mahalaga sa akin kahit magbago man ang hitsura mo. Ang totoo n'yan, mas masaya ako dahil ikaw ang magiging ina ng magiging anak natin. He he~"

「Dummy. Why did you have to say that now?」

"You idiot…" I whispered and bit my lower lip.

"Eh?" he reacted but something caught his attention. "Eh?! Aki-san… bakit pakiramdam ko ay sinasakal mo ako?" he asked with a nervous voice. When he said strangle, he meant my hole tightened around his manhood again. It's basically his fault for saying something so cheesy!

"Shut up and take responsibility!" I half shouted and punched his side. Napatawa na lang si Chihiro at ang sunod na nangyari ay nakailang rounds kami. I bet his parents already noticed. I mean, it would be impossible not to notice because I was noisy halfway and so was Chihiro. I'm just glad that they didn't barge in or whatsoever. Or maybe we'll get scolded afterwards. Either way, I didn't care.

Maybe. Just maybe… If the time was right, I could face my parents again and tell them that I'm becoming a parent soon.

I wonder if they'll be able to acknowledge me this time.

「to be continued」