I start doing my homework and finish it so I can take a rest already. As I finished my homework, I did my nightly routine.
As I'm going to bed to sleep, I turn off the light, rest my body on my bed, and scroll to my phone. There's a lot of messages that notify me, but I just unseen them. And turn off my phone.
I sigh while looking through the window and see the moon shining with the stars. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but I guess tomorrow is not this night.
All I want for myself is to rest, so as the minutes pass, I fall asleep.
"No, this will not happen. I will save my children even if I risk my life. They are precious to me, and I can't forgive myself if something happens to them."
I can't breathe through what's happening. My head turns left and right, and it feels like this happened to me again once. I'm conscious, but my eyes are closed, and I can't seem to open them. So I did my best to wake myself up.
And I succeed.
I woke up with sweat running through my face, and I began to breathe louder than I thought. I wipe my sweat and see myself crying, my tears falling down on my cheek without knowing it.
I wipe them away. I can't even remember what I dreamed about; it's been bugging my mind because it happens to me every time I fall asleep and wake up with a bad dream. I run my hand through my face. I guess I cannot sleep anymore.
I get up from my bed, open the door of my room, and get outside to go to the kitchen and drink some water. As I arrived at the kitchen, I started to get some water from the refrigerator, pour it into the cup, and drink it.
I'm thinking about that dream that keeps happening every time I fall asleep. I sighed and put the glass on the sink. I was just going to wash for tomorrow. I walked towards my room, got inside it, and sat on the bed.
What's going to happen now that I get my phone and scroll through social media and see my best friend's post with her boyfriend? I just saw it, and I didn't even react to it because it makes me jealous that she's happier with her boyfriend than me, her best friend.
Fine, I guess I just support her, but if her boyfriend does something bad to her, I will fucking kill him. I just sigh at what's on my mind.