Her Demon

CHAPTER 16

"Tell me!" Price shouted

"I-I can't!" I hissed blankly

It's not the right time, I'm sorry

"Then Fuck You!" Gray shouts as he punches my face, I gagged and spit an amount of blood through my mouth

"You deserve all of this!" Gray angrily hissed and walk toward the counter to grab an icy jade colored rum

"I just can't tell you everything, right now" I stated feeling sorry for all the lies and for keeping secrets to them.

"Then when?" Price ask blankly but has a tone of disbelief

"until he settles everything" Lock stated while staring at the glass window of this room. "Am I right? Knight Drain?"

His tone makes me shiver, giving me chills all throughout my body. I kept on studying his movement but he seems too pre-occupied on planning everything against me at this very moment.

"Y-Yeah, I can only tell you guys everything until I finally settle it" I coldly stated as I was trying to act normal without any failure movements.

"tss" Lock hissed

Everybody was preoccupied, Price was staring towards the ceiling while seated on a chesterfield that Lycko mostly laying around. Gray stated to savor every drop of rum that sparkles out of coldness because of the ice. And, Lock who literally just staring at the glass window of this building while drinking his alcohol.

"So what now? Aren't we going to take revenge?" Gray playfully asked

Seems like there is something going on in his mind but that's for me to find out.

"Maybe, maybe not" Lock stated as he walks towards the counter and pour another shot of run on his glass while looking straightly on Gray's eyes.

What's the matter?

"How come can we take revenge? We're all powerless bastards" price coldly stated as he clenched his fist knowing we can do nothing but just to sit and mourn.

"huh! Powerless" Gray utters and aggressively drink full shot.

"Without her, we're nothing but some brat bastards who kept on hiding on her back while she's fighting for us" Lock blankly stare at everyone's actions.

"So you mean the answer was, we do nothing and just sit? Can we just make one revenge then stop?" I convinced them but seems like they're really made up their minds

"ha! Are you joking? Revenge then stop? And what? The villain again strikes for another revenge because of our revenge. Don't you even think that Knight Drain? If we do anything stupid again, there is a possibility that all of us may die with this stupid plan! Revenge after revenge? Are you serious?" Lock said and sit in front of me.

"It's just what I want since they killed Lycko" I utterly said avoiding to stutter.

"That's bullshit!" –Price

"I can't believe you're going too low this time Chase" –Gray

"Your idea was bullshit! Gray was right, you're not even thinking Knight Drain. We're tired of fighting, tired of any revenge, it sucks you know? That we are fighting because of your selfish wants, we are taking revenge because you said so! Isn't that enough?" Lock drink his alcohol and lit his cigar. "Solving the mystery and case of anyone but your own case is uncrackable! Wake up Knight Drain! You messed up big time!" he continuously utters as the smoke from his cigarette roamed the area.

"I'm sorry—" before I finish what I want to say, Price cut it out with a loud chuckles

"What makes your sorry different from any other apologies you've said in the past? Sorry and then what? Back to mission? Back to the case? Back to your selfish ways? You're impossible Knight Drain!" Lock said coldly as if he was talking to a boy

"Then, I am the one who's going to take revenge! If you guys don't want the leave! Maybe your love for her wasn't enough to take my offer!" I plainly said pretending to stood up on my idiotic idea.

"We all love her, yet we have different understanding about love or vantage point on what love is? Maybe for Price, he loves Lycko so much to the point that he can sacrifice his own happiness, his own life for her or just to be with her. Maybe for Gray, he loves Lycko as his princess, as his twin sister and as her ally. Maybe for you Knight Drain you love her as if you can take revenge for her death, you love her as you ally, you love her as your possession and you love her because she is the only one who stays. Lastly, maybe my love for her was true, clean intentions and I just want to see her smile again yet I couldn't see it anymore." Lock stated giving me goosebumps

"So tell us Chase, do you truly love our sister or do you just love her because you need her as your possession and ally?" Gray seriously asked

"I-I love her more than anything else. I love her as I am trying to make the world better and peacefully for her. It was great while it lasted, great to be loved by the woman I don't expect to stay at this very moment, the warmth of her cheek next to mine her soft hand brushing my hair from my face her cheeky laugh in my ear... it was great to be loved but we loved each other on the wrong time, my teenage dreams of peace and serenity with her were shattered I felt isolated and alone, on my own in the world no one to care for me no one to laugh with." I stated

"But she stays and you changed" Gray speaks between my statements

"Yeah! I was the one who changed because I just don't want you guys to experience this miserable world, especially her. I wish we we're born on another world were peace and love unites. No fight, no hate, no neglect, no revenge. Since I met her my only wish was that but how can I fulfill that dream if she's gone permanently?" asking myself as I clenched my fist out of anger.

"you don't want us to experience the miserable world? Or just your own world? You need to wake up! Please! Our world is normal! Yes, we experience misery, pain, lust, hatred, anger, happiness because this is part of our nature as a human being living in this unperfected world. It is a balance catastrophe experience by anyone living. We can feel it because we are human." Lock hissed as he stated his line. This is my first time seeing him very serious and utters those wisdoms.

"You love her yet you didn't protect her" Gray simply smile towards me. As I saw his eyes full of pain and anger

"You're wrong Williams! I protected your twin sister!" I angrily hissed fighting his stares

"really though? Protected by being cold and heartless bastard?" Price added as if he was trying to build fight

"I only do that for her" I coldly stated and break the stares instead I glance on the familiar dagger Lock was holding at.

Instead of getting an answer, I just hear a playful laugh but I didn't manage to look them because my eyes were stuck on the dagger at Lock's left hand.

"I want to kill you using her favorite dagger!" Lock angrily hissed that makes my spine shivers

"Why don't you give it a try" out of consciousness I said those words that makes him more angry

"I can't because I want you to suffer on your own world. I want you to suffer on your own lies and I want you to regret everything you've done and by that seeing you miserable was a pleasure on my limb" He blankly stated.

"Convince yourself to stop your nonsense idea on taking up revenge for my sister Chase" Gray stated while he was sitting on the counter.

"No. I want a revenge for her!" I try to look fine in front of them

"For what? Even you take up revenge you can't change anything! Lycko is dead because of your selfish rules and decisions" Price added

"No. She's dead because you let her die on your arms. I want to take revenge for her" I repeat what I said to give them clarifications but instead I receive a punch from Price again.

"We let her die! You! me! Lock! and Gray! We let her die in our hands! Why don't you put blame on yourself too? You should take the bullet yourself before saying that you don't let my sister die on your hands, you filthy bastard!" as he said those words he punches my face again.

"that's enough!" Gray hissed and walks towards our direction and sit beside Lock "Come on Price! Let him take revenge on his own" Gray simply added and without any single snap Price just nod and sit again on the couch and drink a single shot of rum.

I know tensing against the shaking of my limbs is useless but I do it instinctively, trying to suppress for a few more moments what I know I cannot. I need a drink to counteract the fear that threatens to engulf me. This kind of thick silence would normally chill me, especially on an inky night devoid of even moonlight or stars, but tonight it works like a salve. I feel it. I quickly walk on the counter and get the bottle of rum and drink it as if it was water. I can't feel anything.

Why am I feeling this way?

I decided to walk straight to the balcony for air, that room was too intense for me to handle calmly. I understand that they're mad and I also understand why they do such things, even I want also do it to the one who does that to Lycko.

I want revenge.

Only revenge.

I want them to feel my flame, my anger

His flame has no culture, no pity, no mind, yet it consumes whatever it pleases. Its only criteria are if it can take it and reduce it to ash or something molten and foul, then it will. It burns hot, short and violent, with no care what will be left behind.

I don't want to be like him. I just want to protect them but I failed.

I took a glance on a bonfire down the street, seems a group of friends were happily having a campsite on the woods. I stare into the lit bonfire yet it isn't fire I see, though the hot tear-drop dances yellow, I see her. I feel her. I recall how the culprit torched your heart until they charred and burst blood out using his bullet. My soul, my everything, was now gone. It seems like he is fiction and I am real; but I chose to hide the truth and lied to them anyway.

Is it all my fault?

"Did you think she will agree to your idea?" Back to my senses when someone behind me utter a word, it was Lock looking to the same thing I've been glancing for almost half an hour.

"Pardon?" I asked, I'm spacing out

"I said, did you think that Angelycko will agree to your idea?" he repeat

Tsk!

"idea of what?" I asked him to know exactly the point

"revenge idiot!" he hissed and smoke his cigar

"Fuck that smoke of yours! Cut it out" I hissed but instead he laughed and continuously releasing smoke from his mouth

"answer my question idiot" he became serious once again and focus on his smoke.

"no, she will not agree with this, knowing her, she don't want to hurt anyone intentionally" I said releasing a sigh.

"she changed a lot since you leave. It was like entering to another dimension with the same characters yet different attitude. She wants to take revenge to someone who made you this way. Yes, you're right, she doesn't want to hurt someone but seeing her killing the supremo makes me realize that she changed a lot. She changed for worst and I hate it because I can do nothing to bring her back because when it comes to both of us, she automatically chooses you over me and I think you are the one who can bring her back but it's too late" he stated.

"what do you mean?" I asked him out of curiosity.

"She released her demon"- lock

"her demon?"- me

"Since the night I saw her killed one of the leaders, I know she changed, she's reckless and wanting for bloodlust. You make her that way Knight Drain" as he said those words my system seems to stop from thinking.

How am I supposed to react?

How am I supposed to feel?

"She want you to take revenge Knight Drain" Lock stated finishing the very last cigar he has.

"Will Lycko be satisfied?" I asked him

"not Lycko herself" Lock stated as if he were going to correct me.

"then who?" I ask him weirdly

"Her demon." As he said that he leaves and left me dumbfounded

Do you want me to take revenge?