We just spent the night here in the grand library's building.
The grand library has numerous rooms that are available; thus, we spent our night there.
After setting the essential evening chores, such as suiting the household's familiarities and preparing dinner, I return here to the terrace.
Sei stayed in the room for cleaning, hehe.
The blue colour of the sky is glowing really bright. It is very relieving to the eye. This view really helps my breathing.
Ahhh... This feels good.
I keep breathing the air because its cool touch really satisfies and calms me down.
This beautiful nature of the world should not fade away.
After all, this is my goal.
While at it, I had not noticed that I had been facing this great star that I and my father had seen that day.
My reaction is kind of disappointing. I thought this star was rare (as my father said), but it seems it appears pretty often.
I mean, didn't I just see this as soon as yesterday?
I give myself a
"Sigh"
I do enjoy watching the stars, but it seems I don't feel like it with this big one. After all, the time it appears is the very time my family was killed! It gives me tension rather than relaxation.
Once again... I give myself a
"Sigh"
I then go to sleep, for it seems that this dark feeling is bothering me again.
Another day has come.
I and Sei departed from the grand library. Knowing we could never find a clue from here in the kingdom, I decided to go out to finally start my journey. Sei so, unwaveringly follows my decision.
In the kingdom's main gate, we see a guy who is being blocked by the guards. I immediately intervened at the scene.
"Uhm... What do we have here"?
I asked the guard with a smile.
I take a look at the guy, and upon doing so, I immediately recognise his appearance.
I then said to myself,
Another preacher, huh?
"Oh, sir Azroth!" The guard stood up straight to pay his respect.
Even though I am not a member of the management and such, I am pretty popular as the son of the man they all love. Yeah, my father is really respected. Moreover, I am considered to be as strong as the management. -
The guard continued as he pointed to the guy on his right side.
"This man carries no identification information.
The guy then said:
"I keep telling you I am a man of God's kingdom! But you never believe me no matter how many times I tell you!
The guard replied
"There is no kingdom of that name! Moreover, you don't have a valid written attestation that is approved by the worldwide authority. It will be too dangerous to let you in. Needless to say, you keep mentioning about this weird god of yours.
Upon hearing that, the guy then blazed in anger.
"Weir... What?!!!"
I am looking at them with a smile and am a little worried. My hands are at the level of my shoulders and are slightly waving in an attempt to calm them.
The preacher guy continues,
"Well, it's a given!
Is it not enough proof that I am here spreading the existence of the kingdom of God? "
I and Sei immediately listened attentively.
The guy continues
"To let you know that there is a kingdom of God!
Because there is already no one in the whole world that has knowledge of it, even though humanity understands it really exists."
As the sound of the word slowly entered my ear, it widened my eyes. And finally, when the words were completely delivered to me, I was carried by my reaction, as the preacher said...
"A kingdom that the whole world has remorselessly forgotten!"
I breathe heavily.
"Huh?!"
Making me take one footstep backward
My reaction was caused by the heaviness of the message's impact.
It is comparable to a gust that hit me in the front.
I have been moved by his words. The kingdom of God has been forgotten?The God that is the strongest being of all? Among the leading nations of the world, there is really an unknown kingdom? The kingdom of God? And it is here on earth? The kingdom of the VERY God that we are looking for? It makes me wonder and be terrified that it has caused my body to go numb.
Though it seems it didn't affect the guards, I can see the other guards turn their heads to their sides and slightly smile. It seems they even feel pity for the guy.
"This is not good" I muttered.
The guard that is with the preacher looks towards the other guards, probably to ask for help. His eyebrows met upward, indicating that he was worried about the guy's reputation. Worried that his further questioning might cause humiliation to the guy.
"Ah, yeah, ok."
The guard then uttered:
"Of what name is this kingdom named?"
"It's known as the KINGDOM OF OASHIAS!"
"Ki...ngd..om of Oa..shi..as," the guard speaks as he writes down the words on the paper.
The guard then subconsciously asks,
"Oashias?"
The guy then smiled, saying
"It is the name of our creator."
"Oh..."
The guard frowned.
The guard continues
"Here is your identification witness.
The guy took the paper, then left.
I immediately approached him and asked
"How will I receive the holy spirit of God? What laws do I have to obey?
"Law? Why would you want to know that? Do you want to be filled with God's holy spirit?"
"Y… Yeah, that's what I just said."
The guy was impressed that someone was seeking God's holy spirit. It is described in his frowning reaction.
The guy then asks
"Well, if so, then why don't you fill yourself with it already?"
"Huh? Yeah, that's why I am asking how."
"I see, then come with us."
He extended his arm to me with his hand widely open.
I, having no idea, asked the preacher with a little irritation. These people really don't know how to talk with people. They only say what they want to say. This guy is asking me to go with him, but isn't he going to the kingdom? And he really knows that I just came out of there. Just what in the world are these people thinking? It's just a simple question, and they can't even answer it directly. Thus, I say
"What are we going to do? Where are we even going? And why do you people seem more powerless than those people? Can I even learn how to get the holy spirit of God if I go with you to the kingdom?"
"Those?"
"Those powerful humans that save the kingdom! Aren't you with them?!
Anyway, how will I receive God's holy spirit? Answer me directly! "
"What are you talking about? You are not receiving holy spirit. Spirit is already in people's souls, which means you, as a soul, already have your own spirit."
"Huh? But why? The preacher guy like you told me I needed the holy spirit of God, so why are you telling me I am not receiving it? Isn't the spirit of God not mine? That is why I want to receive some of it to gain more power, and to do so, I will need to obey the laws of God. That is what the preacher guy like you said."
"What are you saying? Are you telling me you don't know what the meaning of spirit is? Spirit can't be shared; it cannot be half. So why are you asking for the holy spirit of God?
If you want to receive God's holy spirit, then where will your own spirit go? "
"Huh?! "
I have been speechless; my eyes waver and my lips tremble because I didn't know what to say anymore.
The guy then moved to leave, but I still reached out to his garment and spoke with a very eager and sad tone.
"But you told me I had to fill myself with God's holy spirit, didn't you? Then what did you mean by that? Aren't you contradicting yourself?"
The guy turned his head to me and looked at me with an annoyed look. He then let out a sigh and turned to me. You can easily tell that he is annoyed by how hopeless I am. He then asks with a tone that he knows how my answer will turn out.
"Will you accept God's holy spirit and cast away your own then?"
"Huh? How would I cast away my spirit?"
"Leave your own decision and desires. Live your life only to God's will. You shall not do anything. You shall not decide for yourself. It basically means you shall leave everything and live your whole life through God's wants. If you receive no order you shall remain idle. If your ordered to go to a place then go. If you get ordered to stand in a street without moving for a year, do so. It basically means if you get ordered to die then die. You shall leave your life to god and at the same time live your whole life only for God. Know that you don't own your life anymore because you filled yourself with Gods Holy spirit. If you want to receive God's holy spirit, then you have to become God himself! "
Listening to this makes me think: is there even a person who will seek such a fate?
I keep listening to the guy.
"Cast away your own life and become a servant vessel of God! because God could never descend here on earth to warn people himself. Or are you thinking that God can descend here on earth by himself and end suffering without dilly-dallying?
That he will not do. Otherwise, do you want this world to meet early hell? Do you believe a GOD with DYNAMIC ENERGY will enter this world? A world that is so WEAK?"
"After listening to the guy's words, I let go of his garment."
The guy continues
"But rest assured, for that dynamic energy can be shared with his vessels, so that this world can be saved."
I see, so those people are vessels of God; it makes sense how they become very strong. But,
I then muttered:
"What will my power be for if I can't use it for my own will? I mean, am I going to see many deaths just like those people in the kingdom? Without God's order, I can't even save a drowning child, let alone eradicate the dungeons. I can't save this world from suffering after all.
Cast away my own desires, huh? Can I even trust God's will? Can God even give us happiness? "
Seeing me speechless and devastated, the preacher guy says:
"Those people that save the kingdom cast away their own, but they still live happily."
Remembering them, I see that they really are happy, though I felt sadness on that guy's (Zhyerah's) face.
The guy continues
"You said i look weaker than them didn't you? Well, sure i am, because i have no power at all. But our price remains the same. We will receive equal happiness at the end. After all, happiness that penetrates to your soul is the highest price a person could ever dreamed of. You say you can't trust God? Have you realised that when he felt happiness, it is the same to happiness we felt? Which means he grant us a feeling that is equal to his? A worthless humans like us receive a feeling that is equal to a God! Does God hide anything to us? Does God felt a different kind of happiness than the happiness we felt? He did not didn't he? That is why we servants of God serve with our whole spirit, though we have different missions, we receive equal price. A very worthful price! "
I raise my head and look at how happy the guy is. Well, it seems he is not lying. He really looks satisfied after all.
The guy continues, and it gives me a very serious trembling. It feels like my body is wavering, causing the hair on my skin to stand straight.
"It's just that their missions are more troublesome than ours. To save the world, they have to confront a certain organisation. Stopping them is not easy and not to belittle. Because that certain organisation is unknowingly sending this world to an early hell. And our holy disciples are the ones that are stopping them."
I subconsciously speak
" A certain organisation?"
The guy heard what I muttered, so he says
"Yeah, the certain place you are looking for."
"Huh?!"
The guy then left and entered the gigantic gate.
Sei then asks,
"What did he say?"
I then reply:
"I don't know; those people can't be understood after all."
I then turn my eyes to the town through the gate, and the thing I see gives me a very serious trembling; it causes my body to feel waves, making the hair on it stand straight.
In the town, I see two people. They are wearing garments of the opposite colour. The other one is wearing a pure white garment of an expensively high-quality material but is tainted by dirt, and the other one is also wearing a garment of the same quality but is pure black and is also tainted by the same amount of dirt. These two have handbags and gigantic backpacks with them.
Now, I cannot understand what they are doing, but it seems they are giving out garments. The garments they are carrying are according to their own colours. The guy in a white, dirty garment is giving out garments that are coloured white. The guy in dirty black also gives black garments.
They are giving these expensively high-quality garments away for free. Talking about expensive and high-quality products, people didn't let the chance slip. They circled around the two and took the free garments.
Now, the thing bothering me is, why are those two wearing dirty garments? But what really bothers me is, why are they giving garments that are also dirty?
Anyway, I and Sei will watch further.
As the time passed, we noticed that the dirtied black garments were depleted, while the dirtied white garments were left with almost still more than 3/4 of their quantity.
I feel sad for the guy in white, to be honest. He fixes the garments to his backpack and leaves with the guy in black.
For me, this feels like a nightmare. I don't know why, but... This scene feels unnatural and is very eerie.
Just what are those people up to?
Without noticing, we realised that we were inside the town. Yeah, observing the happenings, I and Sei didn't realise we followed the mysterious guys until here.
Both of us chuckled as we looked at each other.
We then continue on our walk and once again arrive at the main gate.
I then said:
"I can't believe that both of us had really stayed together to look for this magic thing. I am grateful that you accompanied me, Sei."
"What are you saying? It's nothing; rather, isn't this perfect?"
I then look at her, and then she also looks at me, and she is smiling as she says
"After all, we both lost our families; it makes us even, making us a perfect match to be together."
She sadly smiled
"Huh?!"
I reacted with a heavy tone.
Sei has been surprised by my reaction, causing her to incline her head.
After all, she is seeing a very fierce expression on my face. It is so fierce that it can even make a person run or be active.
I was overwhelmed by the dark feeling due to remembering the deaths of my family. Moreover, she dared to compare her family to mine, causing a subconscious reaction.
After regaining my calmness, I realised that Sei had been frightened by my ruthless gaze.
I then hold her right shoulder by my right hand and lean my head against her silky hair.
I then mutter as I look towards the horizon.
"There is no comparison to my family; they lived honestly till the end, but they were murdered without reason."
As I hold Sei, I can feel her trembling. Probably she fears that I will leave her alone and is hoping I will forgive her thoughtless act.
I don't understand why she wanted to be with me so much. But I will not leave her; it's just that she needs to refrain from mentioning my family.
I then smiled and rubbed my cheek against hers. It really is satisfying; it somehow relieved me of my dark feelings.
I then say:
"I am very sorry, Sei; I didn't mean to frighten you. Don't worry, I will never leave you. It's just, please refrain from mentioning my family, ok?
Because you know, my family was killed unreasonably.
Aha.. Ahaha.. Ahahahaha..."
Sei then grabs my forearm as I embrace her back onto my chest.
Sei, with tears oozing from her eyes, sadly smiled, saying...
"Yeah, I will not."
I somehow felt sadness upon seeing Sei's condition.
I don't know her reason for staying with me, but I know she is doing everything to not be apart from me. Thus, I will do everything to protect her, and I will not make her feel like I am casting her away. It really is idiotic of me to react like that. But what can I do? It is the death of my family that we are talking about.
"Sigh..."
I see... I have to look for that murderer.
I turn my head to the horizon.
"Say, murderer. Considering your strength and power...
I have these very sharp, glowing eyes that are filled with fury and extreme ruthless killing intent as I continue
You are not yet dead, aren't you?"