Conflicted Part 5

Abijahs POV

Shawn picks us up and we go to Incredi-Roll skate rink. We had a blast, there's arcades, a bouncy house, Lazer tag and skating! It was extremely fun but after about four hours I was ready to get home. Because I had made up my mind that tonight I was going to lose my virginity to the man I loved! We were in my bed and he reaches for the oil but I stopped him, he looks puzzled. "You don't want to baby?" I nod, "I do.. but I want the real thing tonight. I'm ready to give you.. all of me." I say staring lovingly at him, cupping his handsome face. Words couldn't describe the look of amazement in his features. "I'm gonna make love to you, Sweetness. Over and over again until you have my pups." He promises, I bite my lip in anticipation and whispered, "Do it, Honey, I'm all yours!"

He wasn't rough like he usually is. He takes his time and literally licks me from head to toe. My whole being is super sensitive and aware of his massive self over me. I mean I'm only 5'5" and he's 6'6", I feel like he can swallow me up sometimes. I love how big he is! I lick him also loving the sounds I make come out of him. When he positions himself over me to finally do the deed. I noticed that he wasn't hard.. Which is weird considering that he's nearly Always Hard! After awhile of waiting I grow impatient. I look up to see him frowning deeply, he looks pissed!

"What's wrong, Honey?" I'm overly horny and ready to do this! He grumbles, "My damn wolf won't allow me.." I don't think I quite heard what he said and asked, "What?" He sighs, "Kongol, my wolf isn't allowing me to get hard and have sex with you!" He says really annoyed and a bit embarrassed. Damn their wolves have control over that?! "Is their anything I can do to help? I didn't know that they can do that!"

He huffs annoyed, "They have more control over us then we'd like them to. And the older we get the stronger our bond grows! We can try to get it up but he's very.. adamant on me NOT taking your V-card Abijah. I don't know if it'll work." He says looking a little defeated. Well I was horny A.F and was willing to try Anything and Everything to scratch this itch blazing inside of me! We tried several things and Nothing worked, "Damn Wolf, Ughhh!" I yell in frustration, it was 3 in the morning and I had to be up for work soon! His tongue finally laid me out for a few hours. But it wasn't the complete satisfaction I needed. I hungrier for more..

After work Shawn says he was taking us to Chicago to visit the Shedd Aquarium and the Adler Planetarium, I was beyond excited! Because I didn't get much sleep last night I took a nap on the way. But not before I had called my parents and let them know I was going to be in the city for a few hours. Hoping that they can meet up with us. They were and I introduced everyone. My Dad, Mom and little brother, Elijah to my future husband and daughter in law. We actually had a pleasant time and took a boatload of pictures.

Aww sweet memories.. Afterwards we went around the city to my favorite places to eat. Where my Godmother Keya used to take me all of the time. Giordano's pizza, is the best deep dish pizza in the world! Garrett's gourmet popcorn, the Chicago mix is the absolute best, it's cheddar, butter and caramel mixed. AL's #1 Italian beef is the best ever! And Vienna beef makes the tastiest beef hotdogs and polishes on the planet!

We arrived at the Packhouse around midnight and I wanted to try again and see if we could 'do it' he said we can try. But again to no avail and I was pass pissed! His tongue did the trick again but it took a lot longer to achieve... Shawn calls me at work to ask what did I want to do today. "I want to go swimming!" I say excitedly, it's been forever since I went swimming and I was definitely missing it. "Do you have a bathing suit? If not, I can stop and buy you some." He says and I tell him to buy some.

After work we swam in the indoor Packhouse pool located on the premises. It was a massive room with a huge pool that went 0 to 15ft deep, large Cedar sauna and steam room. Glass walls, baby blue tiled floors, wall panels and bathrooms. The pool had three awesome slides connected to it and a double diving board. And lots of lounge chairs, some were even semi-submerged in the pool. There were lots of pool toys for me and Nae to play with. While there me and Shawn talked about when I was gonna move back in with him. We decided to talk to the Alpha after the party tomorrow. We also talked about our wedding and having our honeymoon in Hawaii plus going on a cruise! So after I swam a few dozen laps we decided to just eat dinner in the Mess hall. They were serving salmon patties, pina colada rice, cheddar bay biscuits with gravy and strawberry cake and ice cream.

Alpha DeAndre stood up to make an announcement about Zavier's birthday party tomorrow and how everyone is invited. And also how happy he was to see his Gamma back. Gamma Antonio stood up on the other side of Zavier and waved to everybody as they cheered. I seen his wife I guess, sitting next to him and three little boys around Zavier's age. Alpha DeAndre continues saying how now the Cedar Falls Packs territory reaches all the way down to South America! Wow that's awesome and lots of people to defend and protect. Zavier request the microphone and his Father obliges him.

He grins and turns to me saying, "Miss J will be my guest of honor at my party tomorrow! And we are going to have lots and lots of fun!" He then glares behind me at Shawn intensely and I hear Tank's deep booming voice command, "And no one will lay a finger on her but me! Is that clear!" Everyone in the hall except me and his parents say "Yes Alpha!" He lays the microphone on the table and strolls towards me with a smug smirk. Oh man here we go..

I'm super nervous as he makes his way over to me. I don't know why I'm always so nervous around him. Maybe because I have no clue how his touch will make me feel..? "Hello Abijah my beautiful friend, how are you this evening. Doing well I hope!" He says that last part glaring at Shawn. Then he smirks and looks back at me. "I am doing amazing, Tank, how are you?" I grin at him, his smirk deepens and he leans in closer to me inhaling then whispers, "You surely smell amazing, my sweet friend!" My eyes widened and I believe I actually blushed! Is this boy flirting with me? I have no idea what to say to that so I don't say anything.

I swallowed hard thinking of something to change the subject and say, "I'm really looking forward to the party tomorrow! And I hope you like the presents I have for you." He looks even more smug than usual if that's possible and says, "I appreciate any gift you give me. But you are all the present I need." What the hell is up with him today!? I'm totally stumped and have no comment for this. He then says, "I can't wait to see you in the dress I choose for you. You'll be the most beautiful person there!" Then I hear Zavier's voice say, "Yeah your dress matches my birthday outfit, Ms. J!" I smile, "Aww thank you Zavier. I didn't know you got me a dress." He is such a thoughtful little gentleman, when he wants to be. "Yes, I picked it out myself. We're gonna look like twins!"

He giggles and so do I but a second later I feel his arms around me in a snug hug. Those shocks travel all over me like water ripples in the river during the rain. Goosebumps erupting on my skin and it feels like every strand of hair on my body is standing straight up! My being trembles mildly, my eyes closed tight and I moan scream so loud I'm sure everyone in the Mess hall heard! I try to tell him to let me go but I can't seem to form words, because of this brain melting mega orgasm I'm having! I hear Toya ask him to let go of me, after awhile he does. I collapse on the table in front of me a whimpering mess. Laying my head on my arms, embarrassed, completely exhausted.. yet completely satisfied! Tank whispers, "You should sleep well tonight, my love." His.. what?! I don't know what happened afterwards because I was fast asleep..

I awoke several hours later to see Shawn sitting on the side of my bed staring into the midnight sky. "What happened tonight, Abijah, can't and won't ever happen again, do you understand me!" His voice is deadly calm as he turns slightly to glance my way and I feel something I haven't felt all week, that ^FEAR^. I then realized that he hasn't changed at all, that he will forever be that same monster that nearly killed me. Nearly killed me over some flowers that his 6 year old nephew gave me because I am his friend. I was blind to think that he could be anything other than what he always has been..

I seen that all too familiar muscle of impatience tick in his jaw and immediately answered him, "Yes B.. Shawn it will never happen again." I almost reverted back to calling him Beta Shawn that's how scared I am! He looks up into the night sky once more, then comes over and I try really hard not to flinch when he pulls me under him. And begins to eat me out, it takes a looong time before I came in his mouth. It's good but nowhere near as satisfying, pleasurable, powerful or fulfilling as the one that knocked me out hours ago and they never are! He creeps up behind me, spooning me and asks, "Is that the first time he's ever made you feel like that?" I'm afraid of what he'll do if I tell him the truth so I lie to him by nodding my head. "I don't appreciate him making you feel that way, Sweetness. I'm the only one allowed to do that okay?" "Yes, honey." Jeez if only he knew..