chapter 18 Ad Victorium

 Love is a luxury, it is something that could never be expressed by someone like me, as well as something I could never afford, it's just a stubborn nativity used to numb the pain, waking up the hospital right months after after Kelly's death, I find myself falling further into the abyss trying to chase something that my mind can't fully comprehend, laying beside me is a girl who chases the idea of the love she carries for me (Cidny?) Looking at her her feeling that she gives is the same that gave me purpose "huh… your awake oh thank god do you remember anything about how you got here" she trying to find something (somehow I knew it was you, I thought I lost you "what do you mean" you look different "H what are you saying" I'm happy "H ? What do you remember ?" I remember watching your life fade away after the explosion and finding who was responsible I killed so many people, and now I'm here) she looks like she's in shock, I'm trying to catch her off guard, by seeing how she would react it's not so different from putting on the act when we first met she then tell me a lie on top of my own "wh-when… when the house exploded, Athena took me to a scientist to put those cybernetics you found on that soldier you killed, because they found a child within me so they did everything they could to keep me and our baby alive (what ?)  You've been out for a long time (how long ?) Almost a year" she just lied to me, why ? She seems afraid of me for some reason she giving off a type of scent, she's nervous as well. Candyce then walks in with the child "this is our daughter cleo" Cidny says this while taking her to me, this isn't the first time I'm holding Cleo in my arms, there is no joy in my heart only the pain that this girl will never know who her mother really is, and how her existence came to be, Cleo begins to cry. Candyce then takes her from me, saying "it okay I'll take care of her, you too have a lot to talk about" she leaves (Cidny where's Chris ?) She is going to tell me he died trying to save me "he died trying to (stop) I'm sorry, I know he was like a brother to you (where is Mikki ?) She is trying to recover, baby are you okay ? (Wait the explosion I remember) you do (but Chris didn't die in the explosion ahhh my head, I was jumped by Bradley Saya's boyfriend and thirty other members of Pandorans collective) y-yes, that's what happened" she keeps up with the lie (wait then how did Cleo come to be, I don't remember seeing her when we got back together after I figured out you were actually alive "she was born before I got this body" did you know ? "No…") her lie is getting worse, she is confused, my arms grab her shoulders (where is Saya ?) She is flustered while she tries to find the words, she then looks away from me saying "Bradley killed her and himself before killing Chris… I'm so sorry" I believe the only realizing that she is lying to me, is to protect me from the insanity that has been done onto me.

For the meantime I went along with Cidny lie, but after a short two months she approached me with Cleo in hand at that point, that day was Kelly's birthday all the memories of our time together came at me all simultaneously and a great anger for Cidny rolled over me "you've been avoiding me (really?) Don't lie (what do you want ?) What is wrong with you, you haven't come to bed with me ever since we got back from your rehab, and you only stay to see Cleo, you know that I need you too (don't touch me) don't wh-what don't you still love me (...) James Huntley Adams answer me (no !) Wh-what (I said no you lied to me about Chris, Saya, and the Pandora collective. I knew the whole time, but you kept lying to me, everyday you lied about my own daughter,) y-you… knew you know how painful it was me then.. waking up everyday and lying to you it hurt me (then why did you do it !) Because I lo… (... I'm sorry… I'm being unfair, I lied to you when I first met you… but Kelly, Monika, francis and even my father you would keep their existence from me) I had no other choice, you have no idea what I've been through ! I watched you die for the second time in my life, I watched you choose someone else, I came to you everyday while you were in that hospital.  You have no idea what that feels like ! (What did you just say) i-im sorry i… I didn't mean it like that (I have no idea what that feels like… no I do) no H I'm sorry (good bye) no no no… fine leave ! I-i hope y-you" leaving the house that would've been considered a home to me, I leave to hunt down the remaining Pandoran collective. 

One night while breaking the bones of one of my informants in the burrows of Goliath he tells me Cece is still alive, then my informants neck was snapped by my hands [he's still alive after all this time (yes) you going to kill him (shut the fuck up) ] keeping Michael on while using my helmet is necessary for me to be more effective when killing my enemies. Someone is near, they're wearing a pink helmet my gun is pointed as they slowly approach me "hey H" that auto tuned female voice, it's Mikki (what do you want "you silly" not now "cmon jet let off a little steam" I'm busy "I'll be quick" fine) after me and Cidny fought, I started to regret ever bringing it up, but the pain was too much to bare anymore so having sex with Mikki was the only way to numb the pain, reverting back to my old self where there was no vibrancy, no emotions, just hate for ones self and for his actions "does that feel good" Mikki always liked me, taking advantage of her feelings is disgusting to me, she always tries to satisfy me, though she doesn't want me to stop, she helps me on finding members of the Pandoran collective, we fight together in sequence. Right now she rides with me on my way to go see Cece at the old school campus, when the bombs went of at the school, Pandoran cells exploded themselves throughout the city, I was unconscious at the time of the city trying to recover. My old school turned into a memorial center for those who lost their lives that night they call the blood masquerade. Upon arrival there's nothing but stone tablets with the name of those who died over four thousand people die, though Goliath still prospered, dropping Mikki of she feels her hand across the stone tablets, she lost many friends that night "what are you going to do when you find him" she asks while feeling her Kelly's name which was chiseled into the stone ( kill him "then what ?" Keep killing "after that" what do you want "I want to understand you" there is nothing to understand, I was born to be a monster so that's what I'm going to be, and if you get in the way of that I'll kill you too) she tries slapping me in the face catching her hand I then look her dead in the eye (listen hear and listen clear, your either with me or your against me, what is it "I-im… with… you" now do me a favor and stay here "w-what are you doing now?" Picking a song "oh that's right you listen to music to increase your speed" shut up and don't move tune your helmet came to mine as well as the audio copy "copy…wait this is Monika's…" stay put) getting of my motorcycle I take out an ACW, on ops my setup is a little more dynamic, but on this op there are no room for mistakes. While moving in on Cece position my phone get a text from Cidny, it pops up on my heads up display right now she is either on the couch watching a retro TV show called friends while curled up in a ball, that's my hope, but knowing her she's probably in bed thinking about are fight worried sick, having her worry makes me uneasy texting her back bike I tell her "I don't love you anymore", just so she can finally let go we cause each other to much pain, I never want her to get to the point to where she has to lie to me to stay together. She's trying to call me ignoring her, Cece is held up at the reconstruction site, I don't take a silent approach, while killing most of the guards with only two rounds each, the amount of them was pathetic at a small thirty, the last guard tried running from me, before I tackled him, taking off his mask, he reminds me of one of my old classmates, making him tell me where Cece was pretty easy while braking most of his fingers, Cece was in the underground facility that was used as a way to treat Cidny. Getting inside the facility I find myself shooting two doctors who were trying to operate some of the equipment looking through the one way mirror there is Cece body being hung up in some type of suspended stasis, there is a familiar scent nearby (why Athena) she put a gun in my back saying "I had no other choice" my body moves quick as I disarm her, popping her in the leg I throw her in a chair (I said why bitch "I already told you, you fuck" why is Cece still alive after what he did to goliath after… after what he did to Kelly "are you really that stupid, there are still Pandora cells throughout this city, and there are also bombs that haven't gone off yet" so what you though you could take the reigns "yes I did this to protect all of you, did you want Cleo to grow up never knowing who her father was" your lying "who are you to judge me, you who kills without mercy, you thinks you can do so without consequence, also kelly" don't you say her fucking name "or what your going to kill me, if you didn't fuck her maybe Monika would still be alive… ugh your… choking… me… stop" you listen to me bitch the only reason I haven't killed you yet, is because you brought Cidny back to me "... Huh fuck you asshole, your pathetic" what did I just say! Now tell me before I snap your fucking neck! "Tell you what you didn't ask anything dumbass!" Why is Cece being kept alive "because inside his brain is some type network in his brain that recorded all his memories and places it in an SD in his skull and those were the only two doctors in goliath that could perform that operation to extract it" you think I'm blind half his skull has been reconstructed and have of his body is as well his body…. "You like that ass hole this button is connected to an electronic device placed in your spine, the only reason I didn't use it before is because I though I could convince you… ahhh my leg fucking hurts you know who also has this button Cidny yes your wife has this ability to taise you, after you went ballistic it was built as a precaution, because your blood thirsty personality would allow you to kill innocent" fuck… no...ahhhhh " you know this is the first time Ive ever seen you in pain let's send this video to everyone…." I'll …"you'll what kill me ? Your pathetic ! You want to hear a secret I killed Monika, I told her about you and kelly, she didn't believe me s o she went to go look and when she came back into her own room I was there to comfort her but instead of doing that i convinced her how sad it is that she could ever love a monster like you and how I pitty her for following you like a fucking and reminded her that as soon as you found another piece of ass you couldn't help yourself so you through her away… are you crying oh boo hoo you disgust me I only pretended to like you when we first met because you had a huge cock… when me and Saya started Pandora we thought we needed you but after I first met you, I knew that you'd be a threat so I planted a grenade in your room… haha watching you hold your half dead girlfriend was fucking hilarious I was going to kill her again in front of you… stop struggling, you know what this video  is on my phone this , look… I said look you bitch thats a live feed of your wife, oh looks she is on your computer, isn't you helmet connected to that let's have some fun come here you fuck alright… there… and there let's see if those girls were right" stop…"let's turn up the volume touching you doesn't shock me hmm interesting alright unzip lets see if she still on it she is… no there goes the live feed alright letse see what she thinks when I suck your cock… it kinda… nice… oh there's the… feed… hi cid...she.. watching…" stop… please " oh she turned it off… boo hoo what was that fred was that you you stay here" ) there's a gunshot as soon as she leave it Mikki (the…. Controller) Mikki goes back from where she came then suddenly my body was relaxed from that pain as soon as that happened I immediately pick up my rifle, went where Cece stasis chamber is then emptied my magazine into him. Mikki then comes up from behind me breathing heavily asking me if I'm okay, I'm guessing she saw the live feed from my helmet came (I'm fine "no you're not" I don't need this right now "what are you going to do now" beats me probably get fucked up "what… I didn't…" what you didn't suspect Athena "yeah" i know im sorry its all my fault I wasn't strong enough "no don't say that you did your best and none of us knew what she was truly capable of, we just used her the best way we could, stop touring yourself, I have an idea" what is it? "Let's work for Cory, he's and info broker, and he's good people, he'll give us good work" us ? What do you mean by that ? "yes us you need someone to watch your back and I need someone to watch mine" fine "really… that make me so happy" don't make this weird) as we leave the facility we are suddenly approached by someone who is hiding within the sunrise, knowing who it is by the shape of the image, my skin goes pale, my legs start moving as fast as they can picking up Mikki along the way she is surprised by my abrupt actions, afterwards we get on my bike and head to Cory's place, getting there Mikki explains to him are situation, in private, they wouldn't let me talk, it's better that way I really have nothing to say all that is needed for me is work to take my mind off the fact my wife lied to me, I was betrayed countless times by Athena, and her influence into Monika's suicide, as well as her involvement in killing four thousand people. Though when we exited the facility, I wasn't really ready to confront Cidny yet, but when she showed up abruptly, my body couldn't help but feel nervous, we said a lot of awful things to each other, some we didn't really mean, when I think about deep thought, it makes me realize how childish arguments are, and how letting my feelings for her blind me in the fact she lied, it makes me smile, tears fall down my face as I'm in awe of my stubbornness of not seeing that she was just trying to protect me from the fact that I failed all those people who died, Monika who looked at me as her childhood friend also being someone she could depend upon, Kelly who knew me as an honest person who could never lie to her no matter what mask he puts on, and as her knight in shining armor, the person who saved her because his mindset was "it's the right thing to do", maybe Athena was right I am a monster, Cidny told me once when I was feeding Cleo that "no matter what people think of you, you must keep fighting, sure it makes me depressed every time you go, but I know that your out there making the world a better place in the best way you know how for me and for her" is stupid to think she'll take me back after what I said to her, (I don't love you anymore) how pathetic, all I can do know is work to overcome this feeling of guilt, I've been shot stabbed and killed multiple time, the pain in my chest when I think of Cidny tortures me, her smile whenever my response to something as simple as saying "coffee or tea" is (coffee, no suger, 3oz) would make her laugh she's seen more side of me then anyone else. Though it's already been three months since I've started working with Mikki in Cory, she is the only thing that comes to mind even while me and Mikki have sex, all I can see is Cidny's bashful face, while working with Cory he'd find way to get my mind of things, usually by beating up individuals who lay their hands on his girls, also pleasing some of the new women as a way of "breaking them in" which is what Cory would say, learning more about how Cory carried out his work, would also give me a better understanding of his version of how an honest criminal like himself should operate, I've found out that he uses his funds to support orphanages throughout the city also he supports all his girls needs no matter how demanding, though since he has me he knows he could furfill out any one of there demand, which most of the time his girls demand a person should disappear for either hurting them during sex, or causing them great amount of mental trauma, Cory knows that he can live up to those demands now that he has me, one girl by the name of Trixie, was raped by a polatition when she was younger, shell never have sex ever again, but she found it hard to work as a cocktail waitress because she could hear his voice everyone someone called for her, so Cory made me hunt him down, killing him was as easy, he was American which could cause a lot of problems for Cory, in the end he didn't care all he really cared about was that smile on her face as she received the news. One night while I was watching the girl work, which surprised me, was that Candyce was sitting with Jasmine getting drunk, also getting lap dances from Alana, Hina, and Gisele. They didn't notice me due to the fact that my new helmet is always on while I observe the girls, Mikki works with me closely, she made my new helmet as well as one for herself, we serve mostly as Cory's persona detail, every so often we due get a request to help out the girls. Mikki has tried comforting me in every way she can think of to get my mind off Cindy and Cleo, every two day, my helmet taps into the cameras placed in the house, just so I can see them grow from my departure. Most of the time when my helmets on is places a digital don't on the face of the visor, as a way of expression, Mikki tested it out by trying to have me think about her naked, by making lewd gestures towards me, pushing her away mostly solves her insecurity, which she doesn't think she's as pretty as most of the girls that work for Cory. Right now she kisses me in many different ways while I'm trying to clean my knives (what… are you trying to… get at... Mikki… I'm working mmm your tongue "c'mon I'm just trying to get a rile out of you, your a tough nut to crack, so what are you doing" are you blind "you know your monotone is very aggressive, also I know your cleaning you knives but I'm--- trying---- to fuck" we already had sex "yeah like two hours ago" is that all you think about "when I think about you--- yes it is" I'm leaving "I'm kidding, baby c'mon" I'm not your baby I'm going to talk to Cory "about" one of his girls was beaten yesterday by a client, I want to know what he want me to do "you wanna know something, you went from monotone to bi tone those times being angry and calm to a person who express himself through actions then back to monotones" what about it woman "most people would find it weird" but !? " But I find it cute" I'm leaving now. Mikki has become very relaxed having me around her throughout her day, it also allows me to keep an eye on her for Chris, when entering Cory's office he seem to be mad at the fact that his boyfriend who is a multimillionaire entrepreneurs forgot that today is his stuffed pets birthday, the reason for him having a stuffed animal must be do to his mother, he never talks about it with anyone. While waiting I start loading my magazines, later walks in the girl who was beaten (Apagie right "yes!" Sit down next to me) when I first got this job looking at the roster of girls Cory has was my first priority,for learning their names, to their age and to what he has them do Apagie here is a high class escort no special services unless she wants to. "You know I've never seen your face before, you always wearing that helmet" she states this while frillking with my hair (hands off please) approaching most of the girls with the casual side of my monotone, causes them to be caught off guard, most of the girls have seen my face or hear my voice when me and Mikki would sing for them, it was something they loved also it was a way for them to escape the mundanity of their 24/7 work attitude. "Aww honey you didn't forget awe your going to do that for little old me oh baby" sometimes Cory flamboyant demeanor can be strange to me, I've gotten used to it, but when he uses it to lie, like he is right now, he finally finished talking to his boyfriend "alright kitties we are gathered here today to take out some bad guys alright Apagie spill the beans poor your heart out give us the nitty gritty, by us I mean him… have fun Tata " then as he makes a dramatic topic to over the top, he then makes a dramatic exit leaving me to go to work (alright tell me his name "um his name was Connor Lancaster, yeah that was his name" are you sure "pretty sure why?" In his thirties has a wife "yeah how did you know" just checking alright he'll never hurt you again "wait is there someway I can thank you" yes deliver this letter to address on it)  

What I got gave Apagie was a letter containing the constant thoughts that loner my mind, they're going to someone who met me a long time ago, after kotegawa admitted he was my father, it gave me the idea, I would like to know more about the events of my birth, also the whereabouts of my birth mother, when me and kotegawa first met, he was strange but happy to see me, even though we never met before that point at the school then he treated me as a weapon with the will to do what is necessary. In the end he saw me as a boy who treated himself as a monster and saw the resemblance we both share, when I saw him die before my eyes, the only thing that crossed my mind was him saying "I'm proud of you" that day was the hardest day that has ever come to pass, losing everything within minutes. While my letter was being delivered I already took care care of the problem by permanently crippling the individual who hurt Apagie, by separating Mr Lancaster's hand permanently from his body. When I would go for a walk and take out people who saw themselves grasping power greater than themselves by either killing or stealing, as well as selling, the only reward that suited me was the right to seperate them from this plain of existence, by taking away what drove them to do evil. Working with Cory made me forget that small pleasure, but instead gave me the sight of seeing the individual who was hurt by said evil, and the joy they feel after the pain that individual caused for them, leaves their minds. Walking back to Cory's most famous clubs in the burrows my eyes are distracted by a cloaked woman running after someone though the rooftops, giving chase I slowly catch up to the cloaked woman as she beats up the person she was chasing (don't move) pointing my sword at her, she seems not fazed by my weapon, but by my voice, the kid that she was beating up is one of my informants, he's a local drug dealer, she broke his jaw by the looks of it (name!) She doesn't speak, instead she falls on the ground sheathing my blade she curled herself into a ball, looking at her her shape seems familiar "don't scare me like that" the voice doesn't sound familiar but that phrase reminds me of someone (Cidny !?) She then get up taking off her helmet "what are you doing here" she says, she looks very different, her skin color has changed as well as her tattoo also her ears aren't like an elf, her eyes are as yellow as mine (what are you doing here "I should be asking you that" I'm working "oh really… well it was nice seeing you" no! Wait! " What is it huh" what happened "what happened… what happened!you did you left me behind, I missed so much and you left me a message saying I don't love you anymore [you tell him miss] and Cleo how could you do that to her." I'm sorry "I'm sorry is that all you have to say are you… ahh your like a little kid sometimes" I'm sorry... "shut up I'm talking now… you, ugh first off… where Mikki she told me she's always watching you" she's with Cory right now "and what are you doing huh… were you following me" no I wasn't "oh my god I still can't believe I ran into you" you look great "oh thank you… I know your just lying… ugh why aren't you leaving" I don't want to leave "don't lie to me, you always leave"  I don't want to anymore, I want to be with you, your only person--I can't stop thinking about you "stop don't come any closer.. I said stop" I lied to you about saying I don't love you anymore because I wanted you to hate like how I hate myself "H please don't come any closer" I'm sorry, you lied to me to protect me from myself, your the only one who knows me well enough to see that those event that occurred that night broke me as well as my bod, but I was too stubborn to see it, blinded by the thought that you lied just keep me from leaving you "stop get away" I love you, I just want you to know that "stop hugging me… please… stop… just stop talking… why leave then" it okay… I just want to feel you "why… this is not fair… we're supposed to be fighting" I'm tired of never being able to wake up next to you "then why don't you come back with me" I can't not yet "why not ?" These people still need my help "but I need you, Cleo needs you, Candyce might not look like it but as soon as I told what happened between me and you she was devastated at the fact that you left" do you still love me "I don't know anymore, but just being next to you it makes me nervous yet happy" no matter what happens, no matter where I am I will always come back to you "promise me" I promise… ow fuck "that's for leaving in the first place") with Cidny punching me in the face with brass knuckles, are short but sweet embrace come to an end, watching her leave was strangely satisying, there was no need to ask why she was out here, because she has all my old equipment, resources also Michael to help her out, she can be a light in the darkness. Instead of being in the shadows like myself, asking one of the many orphans what been happening around town is one my only way to know what's going on, the orphans mostly try to steal from you whenever you're not looking, they told me that there was a lady in black saving random people throughout the days also through the night, one of the orphans who was saved by her boasted about touching her butt when he hugged her. Makes me realize that her soft spot for children hasn't gone away she is too compationet. It could someday get her killed. Arriving back at the club it seems all the lights are turned off there is no real sound except for the sound of breathing, throwing away my cane by taking out the sword within the hilt as well as arming myself moving forward all I smell is blood "hold it" that Mikki's voice (shut it what happened) she then collapses on the floor in tears, they must have been attacked, a rival gang ? Can't be me and Mikki helped Cory secure three fourths of Goliath within in the first couple of days we killed the Yakuza by murdering them and their families sending the heads to the seven dragons who are a chinese mafia, the CIA, the KGB, FBI, even Candyce organization won't contend against us. Candyce basically gave Cory Goliath as a way of giving thanks for being a friend to Cidny. Providing a forward operating base which was the cafe in the belief that he'll prosper, so far he's actually just been having fun giving away everything, I knew that this would get him in trouble someday (Mikki what happened) she stands up to wrap her arms around me her clothes are torn "protect us" she sounds even more terrified. That means, there still here pushing her on the ground, I then roll back as shots are fired between us, music starts playing, now being able to hear their movement will be difficult one of them approaches attacking me in close quarter combat it's a female the movement are quick, her comrades still fire upon me, my feet plant themselves as I make my counter using her body as a shield moving forward towards her comrades, there are nine of them breaking away her body in half which was brittles by the high intensity of rounds fired by her comrades, my blade taster the throat of two of the men while analyzing their movement they seem to be Americans using the bodies of their comrades as shield seems to make them waver three more go down, the four left are maneuvering themselves away firing at them I seem to kill two. Their breathing seem to be more rapid they move behind the bar walking towards them one pops out getting their head impaled by my blade jumping on the bar grabbing the rifle away from them I then beat them until the music is turned off and the lights turn back on, to my surprise my opponent is women she then kicks me in the ribs, she then strikes me to having no effect, she step backwards throwing bottles at me, she runs out of room, her uniform is also American looking at her tabs she seems to be ranger special forces, she takes a grenade away from her belt, my speed catches up to her before she pulls the pin the grenade drops in primed, my hands arms wrap around her neck as she struggles she takes out her pistol quickly disarming her, I then dislocated her shoulder, she screams, as she bite my are, throwing her across the room seems to have broken her legs, (why are you here tell me) she crawls away he leg is wounded no wonder her kicks weren't that powerful, she then grabs at the chair trying to get up grabbing her she screams, she doesn't realize but I'm placing her in the chair sitting across from her, placing my gun on the ground, he face looks very flustered, she must be embarrassed, can't help but smile she tries grabbing the knife that I took from her ankle her breathing is more rapid, her wounds are grave (Mikki "yes" are you okay "I think ao" Cory "he's in his panic room" go to him after you see to your wounds I'll deal with anymore guests "no I'll stay" I said go ! Now !) Seeing Mikki leave I then take this opportunity to fix the ranger who tried killing me moments before (calm yourself or I'll find your platoon and kill them as well as their families) relocating her shoulder she tries covering her mouth trying not to scream she tries striking me, then looking her in the eye she tries again to strike me (we need to talk your residence will only cause me to do something unnecessary) trying to appeal to her was worth it she stays her hand, either that or her strength went missing taking of her uniform I make her aware (just seeing to your wounds) looking at her she doesn't seem to have any broken bones, other than her leg nothing seems to be wrong, while grabbing the med kit from behind the bar, I make a call to the cleaners to take the bodies away and send them back to the sender looking more at her uniform when stripping her she was probably one of general Kyler soldier he is a regular at Goliath who dabbles in the girls that Cory sends him, he like younger woman, but he stopped sending them after he hurt one of them to the point where she can't work anymore so I payed him a visit, by making him unable to work anymore, by cutting off his balls and sending his wife the photos of his affairs, he must've held a grudge. (What is your name) she doesn't speak while making coffee Mikki texts me saying they made it out, and they returned home to orphanage of the black swan, the cleaners then arrive after, the women still sits in the chair as she looks away from her dead brothers and sisters. 

While treating her she seems to either be shaking from the pain "you got any alcohol" is the first thing she says to me (it's a brothel, but your not going to drink your going to tell me why your here, and remember what I told you before… drinking will only make you forget your identity) the bullet went through her leg so all that needs to be done is clean it, stitch it, wrap it. During that process she begins to sweat also her breathing pattern increases to that of someone having sex, the bullet did hit her upper thigh (you seems quite young to be a ranger "you… should… look ing the mirror" haha that's the first time anyone has brought up my age not even my ex girlfriend brought it up) talking to her just made her anger more intense as it presses down on me, this girl actually make me laugh, its as if I'm looking at a younger version of myself who was to stubborn to understand the concept that the only friends you truly have are those who you deem your enemie, acting as I have been won't get me anywhere, giving her some pants to put on seems to suprise her, my generosity is only given due to the fact with everyone around dying she still tried to carry on fighting everystep of the way, though when looking into her eyes her fight seemed to waver away in an instant. Giving her a towel she then takes of her balaclava she then takes out contacts as well. Her eyes are red as blood, her hair is the same color of her eyes she has a marking on her that she wipes off (you wanna know something… "spit it out"... Your really pretty) my phone vibrates quickly after saying that it's a text from Mikki {did you just call her pretty… asshole don't expect to have sex you get back, because your sleeping on the couch} how did she know, must be that sense she has, she always new when Chris was in danger "your rude you know that" looking at her I begin to smile, seeing that is throws her off guard someone who just eviserated her squad without even wavering for one second is trying to have a conversation with her, can't help but laugh at the ridiculousness that is my life, (alright what is your name "its Cortney" don't lie to me "ugh it's Taiyō o oikakeru tsuki" the moon that chases the sun your Japanese is okay your name wasn't on your uniform so I'll just call you Minami "how did you… who are you" my names James Huntley Adams I'm 19 yrs old, people call me wolf, or monster either way it doesn't matter to me "wolf !?" Shocked "yes !?and your 19 ?" The American military knows of my existence, because I did jobs for them a lifetime ago "no your fucking 19 what the fuck" yes and your 25, so you probably went to westpoint, don't really need to explain more) she seems more in awe of my age, covering her own eyes, I believe she's trying to deny the fact she just met a wolf who hunts his own kind, because she recognizes herself as a hunter, this is my first time seeing someone reacting to my age this way, she begins to laugh but then tears come down her eyes, while she does this a cleaner comes up to me asking what they should do now since they just cleaned the whole place, looking at their handy work it looks amazing. Telling them to go outside and change the address marker just for fun. (So Minami since you didn't die here, what do you want to do ? "I want to kill you… but… then again… I cant" stop crying, how about this I'll go to general Kyler make home confess about sending your team to kill my employer then deliver it to the nearest news broadcast "I knew that… this… mission was a blind order" listen to me I'm sorry for what happened to your team, I only do what I have to, to protect those I care about, looking at you, you seem to understand what I'm saying, I have a probersition to you I'm known as the wolf who kills without mercy ,without remorse, with an ultimate execution of my target, but what that dossier didn't say is my motive for doing so, I was made to become the greater evil that will destroy all evil, but that belief is something that allows me to stand against my enemies this is my greatest secret "why are you telling me all this" because I want you to trust me that I won't hurt you "why are you being so nice to me, we killed some of the guards here, also we almost killed that girl you hugged before using her as bait while trying to find your boss… so why" because hopefully you'll be my friend) maybe I'm getting tired more enemies then friend, maybe. Looking in her eyes she seems so taken by my bullshit, her embarrassed face is adorable, it reminds me of Cidny when we his in a tight bathroom after being chased by her ex back at the University. "Why are you smiling, first you kill my friends, then reveal yourself as someone I aspired to be in the academy then tell me your true motive in life and now you're smiling ! (I'm sorry your just so cute) stop that you think flattery will make me your friend (no your face its red hahaha) stop laughing (alright then, you want to join me in my pursuit to be the greater evil to destroy all evil) what's in it for me (by you saying that you didn't know much about your comrades I killed, you just knew them by the dossier you read, just that you were put on that team recently) stop assuming and answer my question (...) Don't snicker at me I'm trying to be serious and your fucking making fun of me (I'm sorry) your the one that younger where am I supposed to live (you'll sleep with me until your wound is healed to where you can fight for me)" he face get even more embarrassed than before after my expression turn emotionless when telling her that. Looking around the club it seems to looks brand new, my cane was placed by my chair taking that in hand, I go search for some crutches for Minami in the storage room, strangely enough there are crutches  (will these work "yes… my name Megan by the way…" interesting "why" you know what I'm going to carry you instead "what no way put me down" for some reason I enjoy seeing you embarrassed) my reasoning for being coy with her, is not for my own enjoyment, but to show her someone who finds her attractive, and looks past her brash, stern, career disciplined mindset, because when she was fighting me, it seemed as if something changes was holding her back from going all out. While carrying her, there is a strong feeling of eyes that are like knives going through me, looking up, my spine shivers at the fact that Cidny is watching me "what's wrong ?(my ex girlfriend is watching us) so that's who that was… is she the jealous type (not know) you sound like you barely know her (...) Hey I'm talking to you (...tell me about how you got here) fucking Segway… ugh well you can kinda guess what happened (why was my friends clothes torn) no idea, I believe they must've been torn when someone from your side got shot… we came in with a team of eighteen… how old is she (eighteen) what!" Finally arriving at the black swan we are then swarmed by children putting, having them open the door, all that I can see is Cory telling everyone a story about what just happened, everyone is looking at him in awe as he spouts nonsense of him being very heroic, even though when he gets scared he moves very quickly to the nearest corner with the closest bottle of wine, then watches thing play out while getting drunk. Mikki then walks up to me as she kisses me I ask if everyone got out okay looking down makes me suspect that some of the girls must've gotten hurt. Taking Cory away from his crowd, we then headed to my room in the black swan, telling him that it was the Americans he didn't really seem surprised he just tap me on the shoulder "were in your hand" after he left, I wait a while as my fist then goes through a wall (fuck!!!) Collapsing on the floor everything that happened in the past couple of years flows through my mind all at once as I see the smiles and the face of all the people I've met up to now, curling up into a ball my mind slowly wonder to my times that I spent with all those people from the time Candyce showed me the house I lived in goliath to Cidny dying in the explosion, to waking up from my coma to only look in a mirror to see the destruction of that path I have taken take its toll on my body, then to see flashes of my body covered in blood then punching the mirror to see multiple versions of myself the liar, the fighter, there father, the lover, the killer and the end. Pulling a photo of Chris out of my pocket, I crumple it to then throw it way, my mind is in shambles the only thing keeping it together is the idea that if I break so will the world around me getting up with my cane makes me feel like and old man, only being nineteen it makes me life though while looking on the ground there seems to be drops of water hitting the ground feeling my fave, it seems that there are tears, wiping them away I find that changing will help as well while putting on pants, there is some sounds of someone struggling to walk coming from outside my door (come in) it's Megan her scent smells like lavender followed up with smell of gauze "hi I just came…(what ?)... Your body (what about it) the ... scars… there's ...a-alot of them (...) Um sorry I just wanted to ask what you were… (leave me) uh okay… um I'm sleeping in this room (correct)... Uhm then can you leave (fine) uhh… thank you… (you touch anything… just don't touch anything)" leaving her I then realize that were going to have to bandage her body again so the wound doesn't get infected Mikki meet me at the stairs, while we head to the parlor room where everyone is located to listen to Cory's heroic tales, telling her everything about Megan and what happened with my target, except for my meeting with Cidny, she then kisses me on the cheek saying "you know your slowly turning back into that guy" she then walk ahead of me joining some of the orphans, and the girls that come to visit while I stay bike by the doorway, it's easy to see that Mikki is trying her hardest not to crack, her father died during the riots almost a year ago, her strength is miraculous at times.

Reading my gauntlet there seems to be someone interfering with some of the items in my room, checking the camera, it seems that Megan has gotten interested in the clothes in my dresser tuning into the audio, all I can hear is "alright time to see what type of person the wolf really easy… ahh nuts what am I doing… where his underwear… maybe… he goes commando… ok at Megan don't think about that… a piano" it doesn't seem like she'll betray me, it just seems to me that she's a little off probably due to the fact, I saw the world she lived in which was the military then flipped it on its own head, then showed her the world that her skills are better suited for a different line of work, my work. Watching cry tell children as well as working class girl a story of how he once killed a Yakuza army of fifty men with only his hand, that was me he was just there as a distraction, meaning he got captured and I had to save him, but the faces that they have, the face of awe in amazement that one man could do such a thing. Getting a text from Cidny takes my attention off of Cory's crowd {it's a video of her with Cleo she saying I love you with her fingers} texting back I try to tell her I'll come back soon, all she sent back is a heart emoji, looking back at Cory the crowd seemed to have enjoyed his story (alright everyone time to go to sleep) most of them groan at the fact that I've ruin their fun, they all yell with Cory "FUCK YOU H sing us a song sing us a song" with everyone yelling they could wake up megen walking towards the crowd Cory hand me a guitar Mikki suddenly has one with her awell (alright...A single flame to light the dark...I wear it every day, everywhere that I go...There's a dream for peace within my heart...But now it fades every day without any hope...There's a single flame to light the dark...Is this the path you take? 'Cause I don't know where to go...Doesn't matter 'cause we're always stuck...A heart that's so warm can never help it...The fire lights our way...Guides us when we're led astray...Like a melody for us to follow every day...They say there's no eternity, so why do we all fight?...I try my best to laugh at it, and go and live my life...The things we have that shine so bright - one day their light will die...We walk our paths sharing this burden...We will walk and live our lives until our light burns out!...Here's a question, let me ask you why...We seem to ignore that our time will soon pass?...There's a dream for peace within my mind...But now it fades every day from knowledge it lacks...'Cause it tastes so good, we all indulge...Forgetting that we cannot stop it rotting away...Now the flames of life surround us all...It's heating up the scars we have inside us...The droplets start to rise...Dissipating in the light...Everyday a brand new memory for us to hold tight...We've got a new idea...Found a reason why we're here ...When the Sun rises again we find another appears...They say there's no eternity, so why do we all fight?...I tried my best to laugh at it, but all I did was cry...The bubble we're inside today could pop or change its size...We walk our path despite this imortality....We'll protect the source of life until our light burns out!...I graduated, still I'm not smart...Can't tell if I have broken my heart...Torn up, I can't keep playin'...I'm so frustrated...I-I-I can't help wondering if this is Hell...The toys from back when I was just a kid...Along with knowing just like magic...We will always heal - they're treasures I hold...They say there's no eternity, so why do we all fight?...We walk our paths sharing this burden...We will walk and live our lives until our light burns out!... Alright now go the fuck to sleep before I make the nightmare that make you wet your bed at night become the least of your worries) watching everyone leave it seems Cory forgot me an Mikki need to talk to him, grabbing him he squrms trying to get away from my grip, Mikki then approaches him with a smile berfor shoving him into a chair "alright listen here we are not going to sit bye and wait for this general Kyler push us around 'what do you want me to do kiddo… we have H' you can't just use him to do everything he is human just like you and me 'are you sure about' Cory just… do you want to retaliate or not?! (Settle down we can use Megan to find out where he's at) how are we… no you are not having… no just no 'what is he… h you dirty dog' really how is that your answer to everything (...,) Your silence is not helping your case ugh how about I talk to her and if she doesn't talk I'll make her talk (Mikki no violence) shut up ass hole 'oooo you in trouble' stay out of this 'o-okay' no violence ? Did something happen earlier that you didn't tell me (no) you saw Cidny didn't you… didn't you (yes) oh my… why didn't you mention this earlier (it doesn't matter) it doesn't matter if she quote on quote doesn't matter then why did you talk huh (it's none of your business) you know I've known you long enough to understand that you need a constant source of intimacy to keep your sanity (Mikki stop) ugh maybe you're right… there's no way I can change your heart...ugh you should've just told me… (I'm sorry) yeah yeah whatever just don't do that brooding thing with Megan… let's think you took the tracker of her gear and destroyed it right (yes) alright ideas 'how about we deuce him' ( do you mean we give him a Trojan horse) 'i mean yeah it could work' but he likes younger girls really young girls and you don't do that anymore (Hank) you mean that kid you've been training, no it's too risky (they did it with me) that's you though, this is different, hmm H you look like you have something in mind (kill his son then at the funeral kill him) that's right he has a son after you sent that video to the public his family separated. where is his son (in Goliath) how do you know that, what did he want to reconcile with his died (it's a guess) a guess (i'm guessing that it's not a son but a daughter, and that daughter is sleeping in my bed) you are so… I'm leaving, Cory I'm taking your room 'thats a pretty far out there guess' (it doesn't matter really, I just said that to get Mikki to leave, we just need her to report back) 'oh I see what your getting at' (leave now)"  after everyone leave, I got to my room to see Megan sweating, re treating her wound, her breathing seems to have calm down she, putting a blanket over her, I then got to my desk chair before passing out on it. 

Waking up seemed unusual, because the one waking me up was Hank "master… master… master!!!!!!" Pushing his face away, my muscles feel destroyed, my hands weigh as much as cement (get me water) Hank then runs away, my eyes won't open but to what I can see is that Megan is still asleep, Hank comes back with the water, then her Poor's it on me (...) He then runs aways grabbing my phone I call Mikki to see if she's up {hi hi (what are you doing) I'm on a target (is it that capitalist asshole who believes China communism needs to end) yep (how much) one mill, I can handle it this is child's play (you going to push the money to rebuild the school) no I'm going to buy… something (hey im…) what is it (no it's nothing… are those sirens) yep I just shot him and his wife (alright where are you…) you don't want to know (fine) is she awake (no) how's her legs, I checked up on her while you were asleep (I know)  well Cory will check up on her later today so with meredith (merideth) you remember when one of those girls drugged you, you went on a rampage ended up coming back to Cory with your right arm missing also there was a sword stick through you chest, Meredith was the one that helped you (nope) she is the old lady that tried making you fight me to test our skills (I don't know who you're… talking about) the hag (bobbayaga) yes fuck you are so rude it's funny sometimes (where are my pants) oh yeah you started panicking in your sleep so I relieved some stress for you (panicking) yes you were squarming in your sleep and sweating profusely, it was quite intense, I was scared (get back here fast) why… is something wrong} ending the call there are sounds of racheting coming from down stairs, in the matter of seconds, there are man trying to fight some of the orphans, ttheymustve stolen something, running at the man i grab his arm, getting a good look at him he seems rich he has a nose in his skull that's only giving to tech heads, those who invest in the fact they can calculate numbers within milliseconds, also the ability to watch the stock market go on within their own minds is also very appeasing to them. Breaking this guy's arm was to easy "ow you fuck, your all going to regret this" he screams in agony though when he said that my hand reaches him pulling his face towards mine looking him in the eye then say (if I ever see you again, it'll be the last face you ever see, you hear me, don't ever harm theses children again) he seemed to have pissed himself, the kids start laughing around me as he runs out the door, after he leaves, I figured out they stole a Rolex from him, taking it from the children, I walk out the door, and the man seems to still be outside, tossing it back to him, makes him cry, interesting, they start yelling rude things my way, going back to my room my gauntlet has recieved a couple hundred email, entering my room it seems that Megan is taking a show. Opening my laptop I start reading my emails they're mostly fixer jobs, but reading what entails can be quite interesting. One of the emails is from Candyce {hey H I know you've been trying to look for your mother, she works for the company, but she hasn't been seen for a long time. I do have a picture of her when we were younger the left is kotegawa your mother in the middle and me on the right} opening the image, my body goes into shock, my mother is Isa the attendant from my flight back from the states Megan get out of the bathroom "you know for an orphanage they have really nice… ah (what) GET OUT" Megan's seems to not see that, it's my room, grappling my laptop I cover my eyes, while walking out, I could sense her eyes on me, though outside my door is Mikki, looking at her it seems she saw Megan in my room, she looks at me with a smirk while smiling at me, what about that smirk ? The hotel back when we first met ! She pushes me against a wall stabbing the wall behind me her eyes they're blank she then whispers in my ear " why was there a bled girl in your room huh, got nothing to say, and here I was hoping to stop by for a quick fuck before we head out, but to my surprise I see her then you (um) you should be scared… the next time I see you with another girl that's not me, I will cut off your balls then feed them to your ex (...) I'm taking your silence as a yes (why are you..)don't speak just let me recharge" and like that her personality changed from threatening to caring  she hugs me then kisses my cheek saying 'I'm back" Cidny scares me but Mikki terrified me, when she spoke to me in that tone, I felt like she might actually follow up on what she said. Sometimes there is a complete of deja Vu when I'm with her, it's as if she is trying to be Cidny in some way, it's comforting.