Chapter 30: KNOWING ABOUT HIS PARENTS DEATH

Naina 's pov

I woke up pretty late , I got up quickly ,got showered and came downstairs,I looked around there were so many people whom I never observed before , it was really looking like a "shaadi ka ghar " with everyone being around , I went and sat beside Anita 's mom and side hugged her

"Utt gayi beta jaake kuch khaa le " she said ,I looked around to check for one person who was missing ,akash jiju and vineet were talking together sitting on a couch ,only abhay and ahaan were missing

"Where did he go " I murmured slowly

"Haan ?kuch kahaan tune " Anita's mom asked I immediately nodded in no

"Naina breakfast kar le " Anita said as she approached me

"How are you feeling now?" Priya asked slowly in my ear because Anita 's mom was sitting with us

"I am ok" I replied and got up from there and we went towards the dining table

We sat down and Anita started serving the breakfast,my eyes kept looking here and there trying to find him

Why I am I looking out for him ,I hate him but why my heart wants to see him ASAP ,my heart was so restless after I banged the door last night on his face ,though he deserved that but he was not completely at fault,I was also responsible for whatever happened between us ,I am not denying that I froze whenever he comes close to me ,I can't push him away ,I lose my strength,I lose myself ,I don't know what I feel for him but he is someone who makes me mad and calms me down too ,Do I really like him ? Did Anita spilled the fact that I like him ? But even if I like him he doesn't like me,why would he like someone like me ,I am too naive for him ,too arrogant and disrespectful towards him ,why would he like me when he can go out and woo any girl out there with his flirting nature

"Naina Naina naina" Anita shouted

"Haan ?" I murmured coming back out of my thoughts

"Where were you lost baby girl ?" Priya asked

I looked down

"Thinking about ahaan ? " ,neetu asked

I immediately said no

" You were looking for him ? Didn't you ?" Anita said

I looked at her in surprise,my friends understand me so well I thought

I didn't say anything

"Chal breakfast karle " Anita said and served me the food in the plate

"Bhook nahi hai " ,I replied

"Don't be stubborn naina ,eat something it's already too late ,it's almost 12:40 " , Priya said

"Where is he ?" I murmured

"What ? " Anita asked ,I knew she heard as she asked me in surprised ,even Priya and neetu looked at me in surprise

"Where is he " I repeated again

"He went out to bring gifts for guests with abhay ,wo mom tension Mai thi ki gifts laana bhool gaye ,ahaan wanted to help so he went " ,Anita said

"Did he say eat something?" I asked

Anita , Priya and neetu raised their eyebrows and looked at me in shock and surprise

"I am just asking stop looking at me like that " I replied

"No he didn't eat anything usne kahaan aake breakfast karega " ,Anita said

"Ok" ,I replied

"Why are you sounding like his girlfriend already?" Priya asked with a smirk

"Shut up " ,I replied

"Why do you care whether he had his breakfast or not ? ,weren't you mad at him ?after whatever happened between you too?", Neetu asked

"I don't know I am trying to hate him but I ..I don't know " I said and looked down

Anita moved closer to Me,she held my chin and made me look at her ,she smiled and said

"You like him "

My eyes filled with tears and I hugged her tightly ,as she patted my back ,I don't know why I got emotional and I broke down ,I was trying hard to behave rudely with him after whatever happened between us ,I tried so hard but I was not able to hate him ,I am confused,I am confused with my feelings and my emotions towards him

"Shh don't cry please" Anita murmured ,I broke from the hug ,she wiped my tears away

"Naina it's normal to fall after all those moments between you too ,it's pretty normal,just don't keep hurting yourself" ,Anita said

"Haan naina tu Jo ye rude behave karne ka natak kar Rahi hai you are not only hurting him ,you are hurting yourself too ,wo door bang karna ,phir khud guilty feel karna ,stop hurting yourself " ,Priya said

I understood that Priya and neetu understood why I banged the door last night

"I don't know what to do " I murmured as I wiped my tears away

"Just be yourself ,don't be too harsh ,I know for you all this feelings are new ,aur Tera Aisa emotionally messed up hona valid hai but just don't hurt him and yourself too " , Anita said

"You want me to not push him away ?" I asked

"I didn't say that , if you don't feel anything for him push him away , if you feel unsafe and unprotected with him push him away, understand yourself first , understand your feelings first " Anita said

"But he doesn't like me " ,i murmured

"do you like him ?" Priya asked

"I don't know " I said

"You will know soon and about him I can't say much but I heard he lost his parents when he was in 2nd year of mbbs due to covid " I looked at Anita in shock, my heart sank ,I was numb,I literally felt like I am about to cry ,I never asked him about his parents ,when I spoke to him about my family I remember him saying I am so lucky ,I never knew he lost his parents

"What?" Priya and neetu also asked in shock

"Yes akash told me he lost his parents due to covid ,and he has been alone for a long time,he is scared of getting attached " ,Anita said

"He is really so strong ,never felt like he is going through something in his life ,I mean the way he keeps smiling and laughing " ,neetu said

My tears started rolling down from my eyes ,as I tried hard to control my tears by biting my lower lip

"Naina it's ok I know you didn't know about all this " anita said as she saw me crying again

"I feel so bad for him " I murmured

Being brought up in a joint family I could never imagine my life without my family ,I can't believe ahaan lost both his parents at such an young age ,he was so lonely yet he always tried to show he is happiest in his life ,the smile behind the pain no one understood it ,not even me ,I kept insulting him thinking that he is rich spoilt brat ,I felt horrible for judging him

"Naina tu ro kyu Rahi hai ?" Rudra came as he saw me in confused look on his face ,I immediately wiped my tears and smiled

" wo ye aankh Mai kuch chala Gaya tha " I replied

"I saw you crying stop lying " rudra said looking at me furiously

"No Bhai she wasn't crying " Anita said

"Chal theek hai ,I want to tell you guys something,Alisha is on phone " ,rudra said and showed his mobile

Alisha is rudra 's girlfriend

"What ? Why didn't you tell us before ,she is on video call " I asked and we all stood up excitedly

"Hello Alisha we almost shouted as rudra handed his mobile to us

"Let's go sit on the couch" Anita said and we rushed towards the couch with rudra

"Hello everyone " Alisha said

"You look so pretty" I said

"You look gorgeous too " Alisha replied

We kept talking ,laughing ,teasing and giggling,we teased rudra and Alisha so much ,Alisha revealed few secrets of rudra ,how rudra is a messy eater and how she felt embarrassed sometimes in the parties because of him

Alisha and rudra are dating from past one and half year ,rudra informed me about his girlfriend first ,Alisha and I became close friends too ,we video called a lot ,she even video calls my family ,she loves my nana Nani and dadi dada alot

I was lost when I heard his voice ,I finally saw ahaan ,my heart sank looking at him after hearing about his parents ,my smile dropped ,he was looking at me furiously as if he was mad at me ,I looked down trying to focus on Alisha again ,I didn't realised that I was sitting so close to rudra ,so I moved a bit

"Naina are you okay ?" Alisha asked

"I am fine " ,I said and tried to smile

"You don't look ok to me ,what happened", Alisha asked

Now the entire focus shifted on me ,I looked at Anita to control the situation

"She is just tired because of all the functions " ,Anita said

"Don't stress yourself darling " Alisha said,I smiled and nodded my head

We ended the call after talking a bit

Ahaan kept looking at me ,he kept the gifts he brought for the guests on table and was about to leave ,I wanted to stop him ,he didn't eat anything

Anita 's mom stopped him ,she thanked him for the help ,to my surprise she called out my name to serve him breakfast,I looked at her with blank expression

She again called my name , i got up and went towards the kitchen ,my heart was beating so fast , he kept staring at me till I disappeared

I kept my hand on my heart trying to act normal ,I took the food bowls and went towards the dining table

Ahaan and abhay were already seated

I tried my best to avoid looking at ahaan ,I don't know after hearing about his parents If I see him or look into his eyes I might end up crying ,and I was also feeling guilty ,I was so confused ,messed up at the moment ,I was confused about my feelings towards him ,do I really hate him ,if I do why my heart broke for him ?

I served the breakfast to abhay first ,then I went towards ahaan ,my heart was beating like drum ,I was not able to act normally ,his gaze was making me shiver too ,I served him the breakfast quickly still trying to avoid him ,when I was done and was about to leave ahaan immediately held my hand ,my heart beat increased ,I froze,I couldn't protest or couldn't even move ,I looked at him in shock ,our gazes met ,his eyes were soft ,he stared at me

"Did you eat ?" He asked ,I was so surprised,he looked so concerned ,how did he know that I didn't eat anything yet ,I thought to myself

Before I could say something, Anita 's mom asked me to eat something,ahaan 's face turned from concerned to surprised,I immediately shrugged off his hand and sat down on the chair beside him

"This is called dil ka connection" abhay murmured

"Shut up " I replied

Ahaan was continuously smiling making me feel so awkward and embarrassed

"Why are you smiling ?" I asked looking at ahaan getting annoyed at him

"I was just " ahaan shuttered which made abhay laugh out loud ,I was also surprised by the way ahaan shuttered

"What's so funny ?" I asked abhay and he immediately stopped laughing

Ahaan kept looking at me without having his breakfast,the butterflies in my stomach was making me feel crazy ,his gaze was making me feel hot

Finish your breakfast,I have other works to do " I said to ahaan

" Tumne breakfast kyun nahi kiya " he asked ,I didn't know what to say ,I felt like I got caught by him

I got up immediately, and went to kitchen ,I tried to calm myself down

"This is crazy " I murmured touching my heart with my hand which was beating so fast as if I run a race

After washing the plate when I turned around I froze ,ahaan was standing so close to me ,I almost lost my breath,the flashes of our kiss appeared infront of my eyes ,my legs became weak ,I was not able to move ,ahaan moved closer to me and I moved backwards,my back hit the slab ,he placed his hands across on both the sides of my hips caging me between his arms ,the way he was looking at me ,my breath hitched

You were waiting for me , weren't you ?" Ahaan asked

"No" I replied ,his voice sent shivers all over my body

"Really ,tho break fast kyun nahi kiya? You know you are not supposed to skip your breakfast since you are diabetic too and it's dangerous" ,he said softly ,his hand went towards my face ,he touched my cheeks I was losing my senses , it felt the same way when he kissed me,i was getting affected by our proximity,i shivered when he traced my cheeks with his fingers ,I closed my eyes feeling his touch

I was not able to say anything,I lost my breath and senses ,I looked down trying hard to avoid his gaze

"Look at me when I am talking to you " he said

I looked at him,I was losing my senses again I didn't want to allow him again to get close to me ,if I didn't stop him I would completely lose myself to him,I kept my hand on his chest and pushed him away

"Meri marzi I can skip breakfast,lunch ,dinner ,I can do whatever I want,samjhe tum? And why do care?you got what you wanted already" I said rudely as rude as I can ,I was still shivering but I had no choice but to push him ,the fact that I knew he can never like me i can't let him do whatever he wants with me

He looked hurt,he moved back a little ,looking extremely shocked at my statement ,I was not able to see him like that I knew I hurt him with my words but I had no choice but to push him ,I didnt trust myself,I had no self control over me when he gets so close to me

I was about to leave ,he immediately grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him, my chest hit his chest,he pulled me more close holding my waist tightly,he looked really angry,his eyes filled with tears,I choked at his reaction

"Do you really think so low of me? ,do you think I was around you for ...he stopped and my tear drops fell which I was trying to hold ,he held my waist so tightly that he was almost squeezing my waist ,his grip was hurting me badly,he loosened his grip on my waist but pulled me more close towards him, our noses touching,and my boobs pressed his chest completely,It was paining badly,I bit my lower lip trying to control my tears

"Why are you pushing me away ,why are you using such words for me ? Why do you think so low of me naina ? Tumhe sach Mai lagta hai ki Mai tumahare saat kuch galat karuga ?tumhe lagta hai ki Mai tumhe bas apne satisfaction ke liye use kar Raha hoon ?, don't you feel anything for me ? Don't you feel anything when I touch you ? Don't you like me "he asked

I didn't know what to say ,he looked so hurt,his eyes filled with tears and voice was filled with pain

I looked at him,I wanted to console him ,make him feel better,I insulted him again ,I didn't want to do that but I had no choice

I touched his face with my palms ,I wiped his tears slowly,he closed his eyes,he kept his hand on the back of my hand ,I moved closer to him