Another Nightmare

Shocks! What did I do? Out of kabalisaan, I chatted her with my original account. What will happen now? Knowing na ako ang ex ng bf nya at kukumustahin ko sya ng ganito? What's the worst things that could happen?

...

She's typing and I can hear my heart beat... beating so fast.

"Excuse me?" 🤨

From the tone of her chat and from the emoji she puts in her message, I know what'll happen. This would be a fight. I wouldn't fight with her but for sure she'll do. I wanted to put her on unread but my heart couldn't calm. I tapped her message. I don't know what to say. Sabihin ko bang na-wrong send lang ako? Or gusto ko lang sya kamustahin? Or ibang tao ako and nakihiram ng phone and account? Until I see her typing which makes my heart to thump faster.

"Why would you even ask if I am okay? Coincidence? Nah. Ex ka nya di ba? Nananadya ka ba?"

"No, sorry. Hindi ko mean na maging negative ang dating sayo ng pangungumusta ko. Sana no hard feelings na tayo. Nakita ko lang sa news na na-injured ka and that's terrible."

"Thanks but no thanks. And please stop worrying about me. We're not even friends and I don't have any plans of doing so."

Hindi na ako nakareply. That was too much. Naisip ko, di na talaga siguro pwede at kahit kelan di pwedeng maging valid yung feelings ko for her. I deleter our conversations right away dahil ayoko pang pag-awayan namin 'to ni Suzy.