Letting go

I pleaded with tears in my eyes.

      "Relax, I wasn't going to do anything to her since she wasn't in any way blood-related to you, and my father doesn't know about her." He said as he pulls me up.

      "Thank you...thank you so much"

      Looking into his eyes in a very closed range, still his both hands on my arms. We stared at each. What's going on in his mind? His brown eyes are so captivating and innocent, How could I have thought of him being a monster, cause the man I'm looking at right now is nothing like it. Maybe I assumed so cause of the way I found myself in the filthy place. Has he certainly spared my life or he'll kill me sooner or later?

      Just an inch away from him yet I felt relaxed, no atom of fear in me and so comfortable with his hands on my arms, I wish I can extend it to a hug. Looking down at his chest, goosebumps came all over me at the sight of the hairs on it and how well built it is.

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      Looking at the lady in front of me with my hands placed on her arms, I felt how soft and warm her skin is, I can't get enough of it. The eye contact, looking at each other eyeball to eyeball feels like something is going on between us, and I felt this sensation that I've never felt before for any woman. I've never seen anyone as beautiful as this, her green eyes so beautiful and innocent just like that of a toddler. Her curly gray long her just the way I love it matching so well with her pale skin. The pair of jeans she's putting on was so perfect on her that it brought out her curvaceous shape which I never knew she had.

      How more perfect can she be. The way she talks is heavenly, even when she gets mad, then in the darkroom, I teased her for looking so cute when she's curious, anxious, or angry but I meant every word.

      I noticed goosebumps flash on her skin, could that be I made her uncomfortable with the way I was still holding her when I pulled her up from the ground or she's feeling something too, just the same way I'm feeling. I removed my hands immediately and put them in my shorts' side pockets. And she moved away from me instantly.

      "You asked me why I spared your life?" I asked as she nodded in affirmation.

      "Because I like you. And one more reason, cause I couldn't get myself taking an innocent life" hearing this she ran into the house.

      Did I say something bad? Or maybe she's the shy type.

      I called the housekeepers for a glass of wine, as I sit back.

      How will my dad take it if he gets to find out I've not carried out the assignment? This troubles me now as I blame myself for being so fast in telling him that I've found her. And if I'm to lie that it was a wrong identity, he will detect something fishy, and sooner or later he will find out, he's so skeptical and smart.

      When my boys brought me her photo alongside her profile, I got attracted. Reading her profile on how humble and modest she is, even with all her wealth. She was a humanitarian, she helped and supported lots of people and still does. That's when I started getting the cold feet on carrying on the assignment, I already have feelings for this lady. But still stubbornly decided to shut the feelings out, but the moment I saw her I couldn't help it anymore. She's even more beautiful than she was in the picture. How on earth will I take her life.

      I need to think of something, but first will have to let her go. Now that I told her everything, I hope she doesn't see me as a monster who tried to destroy her. But the look in her eyes shows that she understood and felt sorry for everything as if it was her fault.

      I never knew a girl can have so much effect on me, that would make me defile my father's wish and order. He will feel betrayed but I have no choice, I will figure out a way to resolve this and convince him. But it's not going to be easy.

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      I ran back to the room I was kept in, hearing Dave say those words got me speechless, the reason why he spared my life. But what of his father, will he? I doubt. Someone whose mindset is already corrupt. What will be his reaction when he gets to find out that his son couldn't complete the task he gave him.

      I feel so miserable and bittered right now. Did my father even know about this before he died? The sins of my grandfather cost the life of my parents, how could he be so mean and wicked to take the life of his best friend, his own best friend after all they went through together.

      I loved him and I cried uncontrollably the day he was assassinated alongside grandma. I never knew this was the mystery behind it. He was a traitor and a murderer.

      Maybe dad knew about it that's why we had lots of bodyguards and he never allowed me to play with my friends or go out alone knowing that we have enemies who would attack at any time, and indeed they attacked.

      With all these things going through my head. This was the worst news ever. My head couldn't contain it that heavy headache started pounding on my head.

     "Meena" I heard my name followed by a knock. Dave? He's knocking! Since when did he start knocking taking permission to come in, and not when it's his own house.

      "Meena, can I come in?"

      "Yes please," I said while wiping away tears from my eyes.

      "Thanks" he thanked as he walked in.

      "Can I sit on the bed with you?"

      Why sit on the bed with me, there is a cushion where he can sit.

      "Sure, why not"

      He came and sat beside me.

      "I'm so sorry for the death of your grandparents, it's so inhuman of my grandfather to commit such an act" I apologized feeling so guilty.

      "No Meena, you don't need to apologize, none of these was your fault. Rather I should be the one apologizing on behalf of my father and me, for your forgiveness. My dad took laws into his hands by eradicating your family members out of his quest for vengeance.

      "Now what do you intend to do? I mean your father, if he finds out you didn't...you know what I mean"

"Don't worry I will handle that. You should get ready, I will drop you at the place of your choice, sorry for my terrible act"

      "You letting me go? thanks so much Dave" I appreciated him

      "You don't need to thank me. Will you change to something else?" he asked

      "No, I'll be going like this"

      We entered one of his luxurious cars and drove off. He insisted on dropping me at the train station where I'll have to board the train to Beldine. I marveled at how he took such pain just to make sure am safe.

      "Bye Meena," he said avoiding eye contact

      "Bye" I responded as he drove off.