giving up 3

"Today I begin another chapter of my life, this time without you or your thoughts in my mind

I have hidden you in a far deeper place of my heart and mind, I am beginning a chapter where you and I never had a past where I have never met you before, I know that's selfish on my part 'forgetting everything when I was the reason for your pain' but maybe I want to become a better person, one if our paths cross again you will love and if our paths never cross you can forget. My precious Aileen if I could go back to the past then I will have changed everything and then my love for you will have been the greatest love many will have been jealous of. Aileen I am not forgetting you but I just want to be a better man" he wrote it in his journal and closed it staring through the window

"You left me all alone again just like in the past, did you really not want to stay with me? Don't I have the right to be angry at you for what you did to me? You left me again and again with a wound for me to dress all alone Rìan why do you have to disappear every time you hurt me and this time this wound you left is really hurting badly because I wake up every day remembering you're gone and you're never coming back. Rìan why didn't you heal my wounds with your love and gave up on me?

'Then why didn't you forgive him and accept his love'

'It's was not that easy sel'

' but you love him'

'but I felt if I accept him, I have betrayed my younger and past self, who suffered pains'

'But now you wish he was still here'

'Maybe it's because he didn't let me vent all my anger out and help me to realize how much my love was more than my anger' Aileen said and left his tombstone

' oh sis you're confusing'

"It's been a year and I am living well, I have started doing the things that I love and I said I will keep you hidden but I still can't love anyone like I love you"

"It's being three years and I am healing from my past, indeed time heals wounds, if we meet again in our next life maybe we could be this happy couple" Aileen said

"Three years and I am still resisting the desire to ran back to you and have kept you away" Rìan said

"What about that marriage certificate you made me make her signed"

"She will never find you about that"

"In the near future if she wants to get married then she will find out"

"Listen Aileen tomorrow is not the end of our story and I know you know that but I just want you to wait for me, don't fall in love with another let me be the only one in your heart and life. I love you and promise me you will wait for me to come for you so we can be happy as husband and wife, I promise to be the best husband for you " he remembered

And smiled

"Amidst the chaos, do you still remember? Will you want to remember? And will you wait for me?" He thought

"You told me she signed the papers without knowing what it was so our marriage is based on deceit so I will talk to the lawyer to see what he can do about it, she's not getting married now so don't worry"

"How would you know?" Ann asked

"My brother would have told me"

" how did you two end up like this? She was so happy when she was talking about you the last time we met"

" that was because she didn't know I was her monster in the past"

"You two looked perfect together so much in love the reason I helped you with that marriage"

"Ann let's forget the past and help me, today I will receive an award for the best architecture and building company" he said and smiled

"Congratulation" Ann said

"Thank you thank you!! Let's go and pick a suit for the event" he said and she smiled