FIRST NIGHTMARE

Date: Feb.25,1990

It was the weekend i was free to do whatever i want in the evening because i finished everything early so i thought to read a book while resting, i closed my balcony and maybe window too in case i feel sleepy . After reading for a while i took a nap but when i woke up it was dark in my room but something weird was coming inside through the window i can't see it properly because the light coming through my window is really faint but that thing had immense darkness i should close the window but suddenly it disappeared i was trying to get up when i felt a sensation beside my cheek when i turned my head expecting that probably its nothing but its that thing i jumped out of my bed scared i want to get out of the room but the door feels so far and am standing near window and the faint light is disappearing so i lit up candle on my table and saw nothing on my bed then i turned to close my window but dark hand gripped around my wrist making me loose the candle now i can't see anything i tried to search for candle or the matchsticks but i couldn't find them i was scared when i heard my mom calling out for me but the sound was coming through the balcony the thought came to my mind.. is my mom outside? i tried to open the door of balcony but it's hard to open and her sound is getting aggressive it doesn't feel like mom she's suddenly asking me to go out and take the grocery that she just bought back but just two days ago she bought them the thought came across my mind that she isn't my mom but how do i get out of this room because i feel that darkness hovering on me but i have to try am trying to go to the door but my whole body feels like its chained the more i reach closer to the door the pain gets immense it feels like my muscles are being torn my hand and legs are chained with heavy thing but i shouted mom help me tears are rolling down my cheeks and my hand reached the door i grabbed it and opened it with all might to set free but my eyes got blinded by the light and when i blinked and opened my eyes i was on my bed my cheeks were wet i jumped out of the bed and got out of that room and i saw my mom then she asked me why am sweating so much in the midst of the winter i couldn't get a hold of reality i asked her to light up that room with me she came along she lighted up the whole room then i saw everything was on its place the window is completely closed i got out of the room to balcony for fresh air i locked balcony and quickly went out to wash my face laughing at myself that it was just a dream i entered my room i sat on my table but when i sat down on the chair i felt kind of a body pain but it was probably because i took a long nap without changing my position . i started writing in my diary but why do i feel tired am sleepy. "oh my pen slipped out of my hand" [searching] i was looking for it when i found the candle beneath the window it shook me i froze what if i turn around and there really is something ? what if non of these were dreams ...i should just get out of this room ...[room was nothing it was the dream].