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There is nothing left for you to do but lie alone in your bed and wish for sleep to come and take everything away. And as you lie awake, there are things you could try to do. Would you like to give it a go?

Yes?

Okay. Here we go.

Try not to feel.

Is this the sound of rain falling, far away? Is it coming closer?

Try not to listen to it. It's not real, after all. It's just a glitch. Isn't it? Just a lie your body tells yourself. Try not to listen.

Try not to think of what might have been.

Of all the people you could have gotten close to but didn't, either because you chose not to, or neglected to make the effort, or because you simply were not enough.

Of all the times when you could have done something but you chose to do nothing.

Who you are.

What you've seen.

What you've done to get here.

And this rain that will never stop falling. This thunderstorm you'll never escape.

End