CHAPTER 26: Final Exam

"You will lose someone you can't live without, and your heart will be badly

broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your

beloved."

-Unknonymous

I became too focus on my training together with the demons, trying to upgrade my skills, which I can use to destroy the Dark Claws. I also focus on my self-training excelling in almost everything.

I start reading and practicing in advance about the use of different weapons, bombs, guns, daggers, etc. that I can use in my every battle. I also studied judo, taekwondo, taichi, boxing, etc. in terms of combat. My only problem here is whenever they ask me to kill young slaves for our examination.

Yes. Even demons have their pair of exams, and that is to kill. I always excel in my tactical exam, where the use of wit is always needed. I get a bit low in terms of doing a group task. Because of course, who would ever feel comfortable working with your enemies in the first place? Even I, felt uncomfortable around them. Especially when I know everyone on my batch would always wants me dead.

Especially the girls.

According to them, I always seek attention from the other guys. I always love the spotlight. Without giving a piece of it to them. I act mysterious, but the truth is, I'm a slutty bitch who loves to seduce people especially our Assassin instructor.

There are a lot more gossips I keep on hearing from them but well I don't give a damn about it. I'm letting them say whatever they want to say behind my back. I seriously don't care, unless they start a fight with me.

I am thankful that all they did is gossip around me these past few days.

Because I am afraid I might lose my patience if they ever approach me to start a fight and start unleashing my monster to kill everyone. These past few weeks, Rinleigh is asleep.

Which means I have to face every piece of nightmare inside this inferno with my own eyes. Watch my co Assassin's kill innocent primitive kids for the enjoyment of our instructor. It always ends like this, and I seriously feel uncomfortable with that. This always made me fail all of my killing exams. Just like today.

Today is the day we are task to kill native slaves for our exam. We are task to kill a baby and a mother in every way we please. And to give out good torture to their dad, who is badly beaten on a chair, completely tied up, and force to watch his family get cut and killed in front of him. This is one of our major exams. Which they called "The Fate Inside the Burning Hell".

You might all wonder, what did those native family did, to experience all these shits from us. What did they do to be a part of this irrational exam?

Being a test subject for all this torture.

Well sweetie, the answer is none. They never did anything wrong. They had been such an obedient puppy since day one. They just got so unlucky that their family was picked for our instructor entertainment and our batch killing test subjects.

We are all not allowed to have emotions. We are all born to kill and be killed. We are the puppets dancing above the palm of the Elites. Our fate will always be in the hands of those rich and powerful assholes inside this hell, where rationality is missing. Where human rights are hidden inside a box and entrenched in the deepest of the ground.

This is hell…

And we are the monsters who was being produced by demons to be their human dolls…

Their human puppets, who will kill when told, die when told...

We are their human actors who don't have even have a bit of right to express how we feel.

We are their actors on a scripted shits those Elite demons keep on producing.

We are the puppet predators who keep on devouring our prey once we are told.

We eat, we sleep, we rest only when we are told.

We fight to the death when we are asked to do so.

We get ourselves killed when we are asked to die.

We have a heart, but that heart is only there to pump blood.

We have a brain but that brain is only there as display above our head.

We have hands that are not there to help others, but to kill people.

We have our legs, our feet on us, but they are only there so we can stand.

Stand when we were told.

Run if we must.

Legs which we can use to walk.

Walk to our prey and devoured their existence.

Devoured their soul like the monster we are made of.

That's the cruel fact about the Dark Claws Assassins.

They are born cruel.

Or should I say, they are made to be cruel?

They were forced not to have even a bit of heart.

Even a bit of emotion.

Because when they do…

Death will always be a consequence.

And they will inflict that not just with you, but also on the people you love.

To those people, you are dearest.

To those people special to you.

They will show you how cruel they can be.

How much of a monster they are to show you how they kill, or how they inflict excruciating pain on your love once.

I started closing my eyes hard as they start tormenting that pathetic native couple for our final exam as Assassins.

If only I could also close my ear so I shouldn't get to hear their cries.

So I won't hear those screaming.

How they begged for their child's life.

I started crying secretly.

I can't afford to let those demons see how weak I am.

They all know me as the cruel Rinleigh the Beheader.

I can't afford to let them see how affected I am, as those slaves call for help.

I did my very best to suppress my emotions.

I did my very best not to help those native people.

I wanted so damn much to jump inside the arena, and kill my batch mates doing their best to ace this final exam.

I tried so much, to bit my lips so hard so I can still put my senses.

That I shouldn't go there…

That I shouldn't try to do stupid things to destroy Ms Kazumi's plan.

I gripped tightly on my skirt while shutting my eyes closed.

I wanted so much to cover my ears, but all I can do is to give out a silent sob for the native family's pain.

I can't just blow up Ms. Kazumi's plan.

I can't blow up my friends plan, because of my emotions.

They are sacrifices Ayesha....

You can't blow up...

You can't help them to escape...

If you get to hold yourself long, you can save not just them but also hundred thousands of slaves inside this hell!...

Keep yourself into your senses Ayesha...

Keep yourself together…

Think about the consequences of your actions...

If you help them, there is no guarantee that they will lived...

If you help them now, you might ruined the plan...

You might put your angels in danger!...

Wake up Ayesha!...

Life is no longer cupcakes and rainbow...

Accept that this is their fate.

Accept that you are too small at this time and you can do nothing to save them...

Just make them your inspiration...

Make them a stepping stone for you to achieve your goals...

Ayesha, don't let your emotions beat you...

Don't let your emotions ruined you...

I gripped on my skirt even more, while biting my lower lips so hard I could already feel the stinging pain on it, as I taste the metalic taste of my blood.

My lips are bleeding, physically.

But my heart is broken.

My heart was shred into tiny pieces...

I wanted to throw up...

I wanted to do something...

My nails dogged deeper into my palm, leaving marks on my hands.

I was in the middle of battling my inside thoughts when I suddenly felt a warm hand, holding the back of my palm firmly.

I started opening my eyes only to find out it was the hands of the twin beside me, watching emotionlessly on how those primitive people gets killed one by one by our batchmates.

I look at them with tears in the side of my cheeks, clueless as why they are holding my hands.

"It's ok Rinleigh. We're here for you." said by Max, while still looking at the arena.

They both loosen my gripped on my skirt, before they start intertwining our fingers together, holding my hands with their warm and calming hands...

I suddenly felt my breathing even, and start calming my soul.

Their hands seems to comfort my shredded heart and start putting them together, one by one.

Min looked at me with his eyes full of fondness. He's face seems so calm. He looked at me with gentle in his eyes, as he start to loosen my bite from my lips. He then started to wipe the blood on the side of my lips with his thumb.

"You're a nice girl Rinleigh. We misjudged you for being a monster, without knowing the real you..." Min said while looking into the deepest of my eyes, which started to calm me down completely.

"How did an angel like you, end up living with the demons? You don't belong here." said by Max.

The twin held my hands so tight, as the exam continued. They made me close my eyes the whole time as I held Min's hands while Max covered my both ears...

I'm trembling just awhile ago, but now I'm already calm like a water inside a basil. All I can hear is my heart beating so loudly, I am afraid the twin might hear it. Something inside me drums so loud I could hear my insides shouts.

We are on that kind of position when my name was called by one of the Assassin's handling our final exam.

I got so used with the twins warm that I completely forgotten that it is my turn now to do the torture.