It has already been 2 weeks since she started being tutored by Gaurav. Throughout those 2 hours he'd give some questions to solve after explaining the basics and while she solved those questions he would ask her about her day .
Whenever the question came to her letting him see some of her writing it was either dodged or ignored.
Today however it wasn't the same. As she sat in front of him solving the equations, his eyes wandered off to a small notebook that placed near her but it was kept untouched. " If you don't mind me asking, what is that notebook for? " He asked.
She stopped writing and took the notebook in her hands flipping through some pages before handing it to him.
" You always wanted to see some of my writings so here it is. " As soon as he started reading it she occupied herself in solving the questions again. Not wanting to see his reaction after reading it.
Not many people had seen her work except some of her really close friends. And no one else made an effort to see them either so it remained that way. Gaurav's duty was to tutor her maths and to make sure she gets good grades but he still went an extra mile to get to know her. He was putting in some effort and it made her happy.
According to him all of them were good but one in particular caught his attention. " What does this one here mean? " he pointed towards a quote she had written not so long ago.
" This is one here is something relatable and unrelatable at the same time. " she replied. " How come? " he was still very much confused. She chuckled
" There times when you have something to say but no one is listening to you and when they want you to say something you no longer have the will to speak . Some people can relate to it and some cannot. "
For the rest of the day he couldn't help but think about what she said. The younger was always quite and only spoke when necessary, could it be related. Could it be that she didn't felt heard so she speaks less now?
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Kritika's POV
If this continues I swear I would die by overthinking. Why didn't he say anything after reading them? He didn't judge me at all. He read everything from happy to depressing ones and yet, he said nothing.
Maybe..
Just Maybe he's not what l expected him to be . He's beet nothing but nice to me all these days and in return all he asks is me to be Me in front of him.
Letting people in is not going to be easy as I've built these walls long ago. Trying is all I can do. I'd have to let people in at some point. How long can I avoid it?
He's not going to be around for a long time anyways. I should appreciate his efforts while I still can. Just for 2 more months, he'll be here. Then everything will go back to normal. I should enjoy his company while I still can.
I don't want to get too attached to him cause I know it'll hurt when he leaves. I just like to talk to him and that's it. Nothing more, nothing less.
Getting attached to people is not good cause in the in the end it's just going to be me. That's what I've been told. Never let anyone make you depend on them. No one is going to take care of you. No one will deal with your problems for you. Be Independent, deal with it alone.
Alone...
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No one will ever deal with your problems for you but that doesn't mean nobody wants to be beside you while you deal with them..
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