From my childhood, I was living a mixed life. Was I blessed or was I cursed? I had a contrary view over my life. But I was never alone despite everyone around me abandoning me. Another voice was echoing through me, telling me to not be afraid. At one point, I almost succumbed into a life under the shadow, but someone eventually pulled me out of it and placed me under the spotlight. I thought I was freed forever, but the Echo told me that I was wrong. And it was all proven true on the day I discovered the true face of my beloved, who cheated on me without any shame. That day, I felt my world breaking apart. We were always together, I thought we would be together forever. Like some sort of beautiful fantasy. Silly, yet warm. Somewhere I could escape to. A home. It wasn't too much. But somehow, it all started that day. Or did it start before it? I don't remember. My memories are failing me. He told me I shouldn't stay. He told me I'll only get hurt no matter how I try to please him. He did not lie… Then, why did it hurt so much? Maybe because I truly loved him, seeing him with another had me broken to pieces. It wasn't fun, but… It wasn't the worst. That day, I finally decided. ‘Leave.’ It was as if a trigger had been pulled, and my life moved again in a hectic direction. I've met people I thought I won't be meeting again, and was stranded between so many fights of interests. I could only fight for myself there. This time, not only the Echo was with me. Another person was there, supporting me unconditionally. Giving me the confidence to move. Still, I will forever wonder… What choice is the right one? I guess I'll never know until I reach my destination.
Can you let me front? I want to spend more time with my grandma.
Asking Mei carefully, I observed her reaction. Maybe it was just me being a bit paranoid, but she had been acting a little weird whenever I tried to ask her for that.
It felt like she was trying to hog the body more, and to have more time than me.
Eh? Oh, sure sure.
Hmm? Oh. Maybe I was wrong?
Mei easily agreed to my request this time, making me halt my movement and thoughts for a few moments.
Thinking about it, maybe I was the one who always chose the wrong timing? And she always needed to intervene to save our ass, so I think it was actually a pretty normal thing.
Haaa. I felt drained, to a crazy degree, maybe. My life was flipped around and now I was doubting the only person I could rely on.