Chapter 1; The Chatgroup:

18th of May,2018:

Today is my birthday. And my presant? Bullying, what else. Why do i even keep strugaling? Nobody needs me anyway. To the person who may read ths blog, this is likely to be the last one. ...Even thought nobody will read this anyway...

As I finishedd the short entry in my blog, wich nobody will read anyway, I got a Mail on my comuter.

[A new mail? Propably those bullys... Why cant they just leve me alone...] As I thoght that, I looked in my mails. it wasn't a massage, but an E-Mail...for my 2nd E-Mailaddress. [THEY EVEN KNOW MY 2. E-MAILADDRESS?!] As i screamed that inside my head, i opend it, in the hope it wouldn't be them."...It isn'them?" I sightet in relive. After a muinite or so I took a look at what was written in the mail. It was a initation...to a chatgroupe? I stared onto the screen, not knowing what to do. Then the second wave of emotion came. [What should i do...]

I thoght for roughly 10 or so minuits and came to a conclusion. "...what could possibly happen? Even if i were to get bullied, I could leave imeadeatly,couldn't I?" So i joined. I noticed that i got an invitation over an old acount of mine. My name... "Akizuki?"(AN:No reffrence) It is a combination of both of my names. Akio and Suzuki.

I was greeted by a lot of messages. "Hana...,Lily...,Polar Bear...so theas are the members,huh?" as I read through their names, i noticed a massage. //A new one? Have you red the rules of the server?/Pan/ ...It must be me, right? I took a glance to the left side of the screen in serch for the rules...found it. I opend them and read them.

After i came back, i noticed that there were 30 new messages. I didnt want to read through them all, so i casully scrolled down. Ther, i read that two members were in a little fight. //I TOLD YOU THAT I JUST BADMOUTHED YOU BECAUSE YOU PROVOKATED ME!!!/Ebani/ Countless massages came in, stating to stop the fight, go and do this in private and so on. Then I read a message from the guy that was badmouthed.// Oh, so I provoked you? Doesnt matter anyway. YOU went aganst the rules, not me./Bain/ Well, this bain had a point, still...is he going to be fine?

After 10 minuits of fighting, administrators steppt up and ended the quarrel. Both of them got banned for the rest of the day. //Why do they always have to fight like that? It is seriously annoying/polar bear/ //True/Lily/ //True/eight/ /Anyways, what did you have for Lunch?/fairygirl/ Afterward i read ther masseges. Mostly smalltalk, and I even wrote some messages. I went to sleep shortly befor dawn. Thank god tomorrow is saturday.

19th of May,2018:

I slept till ten o'clock and was awoken by my mother, who came into my room. /Get up, it's already noon!/ She suddenly opend the curtain and the sun shone in my face. I woke up, ate breakfast and went to my pc. There I noticed, that these guys of the Chatgroupe are writing again. I opend the app and the first thing i saw was, that Ebani and Bani had a fight again. There, i felt something. Something, ore better said, a feeling, I lost since long...I was...smiling? How long has it been, sine I honestly laughed on my own acord, without being forced to laugh? Since I entert Highschool?...no, since the beginning of Middleschool, I guess. Ok. i will give it a last try. surprise me, live. If you can, i might reconsider comitting suicide.

I read and wrote the whole day. It was...funny. I even asked, who invitet me here, but nobody knew. Some even helped me and asked throgh all the servers, but with no luck. I get along with everyone and thy are all very nice. Even Ebani and Bain. They might fight all the time, but it seems that they are twins, from whom the perants divorced. Worst thing is, that each perant took one of them and moved to different countrys.Ebani lives in china, Bain in the U.S. .Everyone else lives somewhere in Japan.

The next day was spent in the same fashion and i have dicided. I won't jump. for now, that is...