Absorbing The Emotion

I left the restaurant immediately and went straight home .

with all the mixed thoughts I had to carry inside my mind , and all the chaos that shattered all the boxes of the hidden past memories inside of my tied soul , I arrived home opening the door with all my eyes red bursting into tears I was afraid to let out .

I saw my self falling to my knees with my body shaking unwillingly from me and the tears falling down like rivers .

I felt scared from the state I was in . From how sudden my body reacted and how I couldn't control it .

suddenly I saw my grandmother making her way closer to me with worried scared eyes that's how it seemed , then I saw her making what looked like calling signs with her face and that's when Kenneth walked down stairs with crossed eyebrows looking mad and worried .

he tried to walk closer to me and that's when I really didn't like it . I felt like I'm a stupid , betrayed, small ....nothing . just worthless creature existing in this life with no idea why anymore.

he came into my life to leave me in more questions , wondering and confused all the time .

if he really loves me as he claimed then why doesn't be the hell tell me what is really wrong with me or with what we are living ? what is really the purpose of US ?

I felt madness at the thoughts that just bumped into my head , and with every step he took closer from me I felt a strong ....SOMETHING boiling inside of me .

something wanting to explode and melt everything around me .

and that's when the house started shaking like earthquake happening .

I saw my grandmother eyes meeting with Kenneth's worriedly ....scared .

she looked scared of me .

she was indeed scared of the creature I am and what seemed like I was doing unpurposely without me even doing while Kenneth seemed more like .....thinking further ahead of what may happen ....worse .....from me .

that made me even more mad .

I heard him calling my name " Mina....Mina....follow me voice ....to where it takes you MINA ..."

I don't know why what he said made heated electric vibrations explode from me .

and before my vision blurred I saw them all catch it until my blurry vision turned to dark and after that all I just followed it to where it took me .