It Felt Disgusting

"Then, let's go back to my place," Mo Huiling said.

Gu Jingze looked at her and nodded.

The two of them drove off from the Gu household.

When they arrived at Mo Huiling's place, they got out of the car and Mo Huiling pulled Gu Jingze into her own room.

Mo Huiling pouted her lips and looked at Gu Jingze, "Jingze, I miss you so much. I want to be with you every day…"

Gu Jingze looked at her hesitantly, "But Huiling, I'm already married…"

Mo Huiling raised her head, "You're married but you love me, Jingze. Don't tell me you've fallen for her. Why else would you want to get so close to her? You two… How far have you two gone…"

Gu Jingze was not sure what that was either, but he did want to get close to Lin Che.

Every time he got close to her, it made him forget everything and he followed his impulsive desires.

It was a completely different feeling from being with Mo Huiling.

He wondered if it was because he touched her with nothing happening to him and that was why he felt safe.

However, there was an emotional connection with Mo Huiling, a mutual sense of familiarity. They were like soulmates.

Gu Jingze closed his eyes and felt as if he had let Mo Huiling down. He sighed and let go of Mo Huiling's hand, "Huiling, I feel like it would be best if we don't continue this anymore."

Mo Huiling was shocked.

Gu Jingze continued, "Sorry. However, I don't want to waste any more of your youth. I've already taken away so many years; I've taken enough. I can't marry you because I can't touch you. As long as I'm not cured, I won't be able to touch you at all. You'll suffer every day with me. Your family never approved of us so there was really no future for us. It's because I was too selfish that I was with you…"

Mo Huiling was shaken.

Her face suddenly turned pale as she looked at Gu Jingze in disbelief.

Her lips lost their color.

"You've been with me even up until my marriage; you're only wasting time, Huiling. Let's break up…"

Gu Jingze could not bear to look at Mo Huiling.

After all, it was a relationship that lasted for many years.

Although he was cold and ruthless in his business, he was soft-hearted outside of it.

Gu Jingze stood up and was ready to leave.

Mo Huiling unexpectedly grabbed his arm, tugging at him and refusing to let him go.

"Jingze, don't leave me. Don't leave," she wailed.

Gu Jingze closed his eyes, "Let go, Huiling. Once you get into a new relationship, you'll forget all about us."

"No, how can I forget? All these years, you were my one and only. You have become my life, Jingze. I don't care if you're sick; I don't care if I can't connect with you physically. I just want you by my side. I don't care if you're already married. I'll wait for you. I'll wait for everyone in the Gu family and Mo family to die until there's no one who opposes our relationship. Really…"

"Huiling, what nonsense are you spouting?" Gu Jingze immediately halted her from cursing others.

Knowing that she was saying all those in a state of panic, he sighed and held onto Mo Huiling to calm her down.

"Do you have any idea what you're doing? It's a fact that I'm married. I don't know when I will get divorced. Lin Che and I… It's not that simple. We are husband and wife. We are close because… We have to live together. Thus, it's neither fair to you nor her."

"I know, Jingze. But without you, I will die. I just want to be able to see you, talk to you, and have your company; that's it. I don't want to ever leave you. I will wait for you my whole life. I won't get married or be with any other man. So… Don't give up on me. I will really die!"

Gu Jingze looked at Mo Huiling's face drenched in tears.

He knew she loved him very, very much.

It was a pity. Why could he not touch her?

Mo Huiling noticed that Gu Jingze's expression had softened and finally felt happy inside.

She thought, Since Lin Che could get so close to him without any problems, perhaps Gu Jingze's illness was much better.

Why could she not touch him?

Mo Huiling rushed forward when he was not noticing and kissed him on the lips…

Gu Jingze only felt her rushing over.

He pushed Mo Huiling away. He was not uncomfortable, but he pushed her away in disgust.

Mo Huiling flopped onto her bed. She felt angry as she looked up sadly at Gu Jingze.

Gu Jingze was frantically wiping his mouth until he remembered that Mo Huiling was still there. He lowered his head and looked at her, "Huiling, you…"

Mo Huiling wanted to strangle that Lin Che to death.

Why was Lin Che able to get so close to Gu Jingze when she could not?

Gu Jingze was also furious. He never thought that Mo Huiling would kiss him out of the blue.

"Huiling, I told you I'm married. How could you do that…"

She was aware that he had never been close to a woman. She was also aware that by doing that, his illness might act up. He could understand why she behaved haphazardly like this.

However, he already told her that he was married; he could not be unfair to all three parties. Yet, she still did that.

He was mad. He looked seriously at Mo Huiling before getting up and walking out.

Mo Huiling was scared as she watched Gu Jingze leave like that. However, she was afraid to chase him. She was afraid that in a fit of anger, he would not want to see her again.

Gu Jingze soon arrived at Chen Yucheng's place.

He quickly brushed his teeth but his mouth still felt uncomfortable.

He could not tell if it was his mind or his body playing tricks on him, but he really felt uncomfortable. He brushed his teeth again. It did not work. He brushed them again.

Chen Yucheng heard the noise inside and knocked on the door, "You've got to be kidding me. It's just a kiss and you're going to use up the whole tube of toothpaste? Your mouth will really get injured if you do that."

Gu Jingze opened the door forcefully.

His grave expression immediately shut Chen Yucheng up, "Mr. Gu, I didn't mean that. I'm saying that since she is someone you're familiar with, it shouldn't be that bad, right? Why not control your mentality? Then, you'll be able to tell if you were mentally or physically uncomfortable, right?"

Gu Jingze suppressed his emotions. He wanted to know too but he just felt too dirty and uncomfortable. When he thought about it, he wanted to brush his teeth again.

However, it was strange that when he and Lin Che kissed…

He only felt nostalgic. He would even swallow her saliva without hesitation.