Chapter 11: Heads Up

Addison pov's

Life can change you in a moment, for a person, for a simple decision to get into a car, for the smallest detail, that was what I thought, now everything I have fought for is going to go to shit Everything I tried for, I got to compete in the nationals and with my head held high I won, to be one of the best in the academy, but all this is no longer going to matter, because now I am going to be a 25-year-old girl , with his broken dreams and not only that, but also his legs, that he will be the rest of his life in a wheelchair, thoughts like these surrounded my head, while Nath hugged me tightly, but it is not that hug of It hurts or condolences, but with strength that you can, those that strengthen you, we lasted about 10 minutes hugging, I kept crying in his chest, I really felt good by his side

-Addi, I know that I am nobody for you, but I want you to see great support in me, a friend, I know that all this is very difficult, but do not lose that 2% of hope, in that surgery something can change and that you can walk again, she said, breaking the silence, but that 2% was very little and I don't think I can, I just kept quiet and she left the room, I think I can't take it anymore and I'm going to give up

Nathalia pov's

It hurt me a lot to see Adisson like that, I really loved her, I told her because she had every right to know, I decided to leave her alone so that she could similar all this, I don't know if she hopes to be able to walk again, but I did, when I left I did not see Addi's family, this morning Mercedes told me that Addison testified against Tyler, that makes me happy for her and she is not going to hurt him again, now I am going to James's office, at Arrive, knock twice on the door, when you hear the answer, enter

-Good morning James-I said

-Good morning Nath -said the serious and authoritarian -How can I help you?

-I came to tell you about Addison Hossler's case, I know that the surgeries will be performed in the next few days, I wanted to know what time is scheduled for me to organize myself-I said

-Nathalia you don't need to organize anything -he paused -You won't be in the surgeries -said the

-what? How so? I have the case assigned to me! -I said very upset when I heard this

-As you heard, the other night you were not well emotionally and we cannot put the life of a patient at risk because of you, and I am your boss so you do not talk to me like that -said the scolding

-I DON'T CARE WHAT HAPPENED THE OTHER NIGHT, I'M GOING TO BE IN THAT SURGERY, AND I AM NOT INTERESTED AS I TALK TO HIM-I was still upset

-SUE I AM YOUR BOSS AND IT IS AN ORDER, YOU WILL NOT ATTEND IN THAT SURGERY AND POINT, AND FOR YOUR BEHAVIOR I WILL HAVE TO SUSPEND YOU NOW, I KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN LIKE A DAUGHTER TO ME BUT I WILL NOT ALLOW YOUR BEHAVIOR AND LESS IN MY HOSPITAL-I take a breath-SO YOU'RE SUSPENDED UNTIL THIS NEW NOTICE AND WHEN YOU CALM LET US TALK SERIOUSLY, YOU AND I, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NATHALIA BUT THAT IS NOT THE THINGS-she said shouting at me

I just did not say anything else, I left there holding the office door tightly, I had a lot of anger inside, I felt frustrated, I ran to the locker room, I was furious, I felt helplessness, anger, frustration I had to get all that out and my only The option was to provide a strong blow to the locker, making it dent, I know that my hand was not well, but my breathing was agitated as well as my pulse, maybe if I had controlled myself that day I would have been present, making sure that everything goes well, I was afraid of losing her; I took a deep breath, holding that my breathing and pulse normalized little by little, I looked at my hand and it was red I was feeling how the pain was present little by little, I changed and left there, I went to Addi's room, maybe she She was my anchor, Daniela should be but she is not, when I arrived I opened the door and she was with her eyes red and swollen from crying so much, she realized my presence and wiped away the tears

-You don't have to hide your feelings -I said when I saw such a scene

-Sorry I don't want .....- he paused and saw my hand I also saw it and she was already purple -what happened to you? Are you okay? -He asked worried

-Yes ... I'm fine, it was just a moment of anger-I said

-That doesn't look good -she said still a little worried, she took my hand and I emitted a groan of pain -You have to go get checked -she said something serious

-I'll do it later-I moved my hand a little, it wasn't broken so I didn't care

-Okey, but you do, said authoritative

- Yes and leaving that aside, how are you? - I said changing the subject

-I still don't know how to assimilate that everything I've built in recent years is no longer going to be of any use, she said with her head down.

-Addi, I know it's difficult but don't give up, you have a future ahead of you-I said trying to understand her

-What future Nath, a future where I'm going to stay in a wheelchair for the rest of my life with my dreams shattered. That future? Tell me, because if it's that, I don't want it -he said

-Look Addi, I know we met recently but, have that 2% hope that you will walk again, not for me, but for you, your family-take a breath- I know that apart from today you will face a really long process, but You have to keep your head high and truthful that you are going to get out of this-I said encouraging her not to give up

-That's what I want to think, but my body tells me the opposite, to see that I can't even go to the bathroom and I have to be with a probe, to see I was always an independent girl and now I depend on all this.-she said pointing to everyone the serum cables, the electrocardiograph, the oxygen, then I point out the tutors, the splint and the probe-that's why I need someone to motivate me and accompany me because I can't alone Nath-said crying

-That's what your Addison family is for, to support you and get ahead by your side and above all this-point out the medical teams-they are only passengers, at this moment your life depends on them but one day they will leave forever, believe me-I said point to cry next to him

"Will you be by my side?" She asked, I lowered my head, she realized that she wasn't wearing my uniform - and your uniform?

- Addi I am not going to be with you for a long time, I had a bad reaction when I found out that I was not going to be present at your surgery, they suspended me until further notice, I'm sorry-I felt terrible not being able to control myself and now Addi will be in that operating room alone for not knowing how to control me