Magic 7

After we had dinner, Nicki announced he was moving out. You can probably imagine all of our expressions.

I was shocked, while mom was pissed and dad, well he just nodded his head in agreement with Nicki.

But the announcement wasn’t over, “Do you know what you need to live by yourself?” Mom says, hands on her hips glaring at him.

“I’m going to be a sophomore after this semester! Plus the boys and me are going to rent a home for us to roommate,” Nicki says sticking up for himself

“NICKI!!! Your home here is free and the food is free. You don’t need to move,”

I silently sit back watching the scene unfold. I mean… they both got good points. Personally, I kinda think it’s cool he wants to be on his own. It’ll be sad once he leaves since we just started getting closer.

Mom, still glaring at Nicki down, calls for dad, “Talk to him!” Then walks away.

Once mom turns her back on Nicki, he runs to his room. Leaving dad in the middle of the room. He made eye contact with me and I just shrugged my shoulders. “This is a lot,” I whispered

…..

Morning rises, waking me up with the smell of bacon and pancakes. I laugh to myself as I think about when mom last cooked bacon and pancakes in the morning. “When she feels bad for whatever she did,”

Sitting up, stretching my arms out. I noticed a note laying on the dresser with drawn hearts around my name.

What the heck?!

I walk over to pick up the note but before I could even touch it, mom bursts into my room.

“Are you okay?” Mom says, waving I assume bad energy away, “Sweetheart, stay home. I have a bad feeling,”

Stretching my face up, “Ummm, what is happening?!” I say looking around my room. Are there cameras in here, like what the heck is going on.

Mom stops waving her hand and pulls her hands close to her heart as if hugging herself, “You’re brother wants to leave home and it just doesn’t feel like him to just want to get up and leave,” Mom closes her eyes and continues, “After a long discussion, we’ve agreed to him leaving. I just want to keep you updated,” she then quickly walks away.

Soooo…. That happened.

I changed into a T-shirt and paired it with some jeans. Yup, its going to be one of those days.

I nodded my head towards the me in mirror, “maybe,” I whispered

Again like yesterday Nicki drove me to school but this drive was a bit awkward than it was yesterday.

“Have a nice day,” I say getting out of his car

Nicki, eyes focus straight ahead replies with a “uh huh,”

I close the car door and watch Nicki drive away. I thought he would be happy, it seemed mom agreed to let him live on his own. Did I miss something? I mean she did burst into my room when I was barely awake.

“Alease! Over here,” Natalie yells from the corner of the building.

Speaking of my room, I forgot to read that random note.

Giving Natalie a quick smile before walking the other way.

Was it the grim reaper who left the note? Can’t be he’s like a ghost he could’ve just woke me up to talk to me.

I push open the left side of the main doors, opening to once again a jungle of kids. I sigh as this rush of energy they give off, quickly steals all of mine.

Looking down and shoving through the crowd, I make it to the bathroom. “And I thought I was going to do this for another year,” Hands on the sides of the sink, I look up at myself staring at the mirror.

As much as Nicki is going through some kind of crisis…

I watch my backpack slowly slide off of my shoulders.

I am too! And I’m alone, with the fuzzy memories of the past but also knowing the sad truth of when I’m dying. I bite my lip, tossing my backpack into an empty stall.

As I sit on the toilet listening to everyone around me gossip and giggle. I start silently crying.

“FUCK! I’m a reck, I thought I would be okay with everything but everything feels as if it’s moving too fast,” I whispered while holding myself.

Like my brother is moving out… he never said anything like that in my past life. Natalie continues to be herself, and Domino happens to conversate with me.

What do I do? Or what can I do? I fucking have a time limit and for some reason I am just now thinking about myself. Tears keep falling as I list all the things I never got a chance to do. Drink, date, party, go to a concert or even learn how to drive.

Fuck it! Who said I have to follow by any rules. I can’t go to college, I can’t get married. I only have a year! I need to do more.

The selfishness in me wants more and more. I deserve happiness as much as everyone else does.

I raise my head up and wipe off my tears. I’m going to skip school and find that happiness.

The school bell rings, and everyone is expected to scramble to their classes. I’ll wait a couple of minutes before I leave the bathroom. I’ll make my way into the hallway, I’m only two classes away from the exit. But that also means I need to sneak past the front office.

I slowly inch towards the exit keeping myself close to the wall.

“Hey?” A boy’s face appears in front of me.

“FUCK!!!” I stubble backwards, losing my balance.

“Watch out!” Another yells

Seconds after I pictured my life ending again, I open my eyes to find I landed into someone’s arms.

“Alease? Are you okay?”

I blinkly look up to see who had save me but like always I end up embarrassing myself. I quickly push him away covering my face. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!!

Domino looks up from the ground trying to look through my hands. “I gotta say, everyday with you is funny,” He laughs with his sweet dark honey voice.

“Can we go now?” The boy from earlier calls out to Domino.

“Yeah! Wait up,” Domino jumps up from the floor, “You want to come with us?”

Without hesitation, “YES!!” I scream